Gosh I am still so tired. I am incredibly busy at work. It's like request after request for some sort of statistic report...sheesh. I've been a bit irritated by this but I am in the comfort of my own home so I need to just shush it. Alexis has some sort of bug...not sure what it is...she just doesn't feel good. I told her it's probably related to us being tired. I am making her go to bed at 8pm all week starting today. I went to visit one of the ladies in my RU group yesterday. She's been in the intensive care unit since Saturday. I didn't find out till Sunday but since Serg went fishing on Monday, he didn't come home till visiting hours were over. So I went yesterday. She had a heart attack on Saturday but didn't go to the hospital until 3 days later (last week). That lady is tough. This is the same lady who's husband passed away a few months ago. All I can say is she's ready to meet the Lord even though she's only 58 years old. She misses him terribly and is miserable. We talked alot about God, prayed and she looked much happier by the time I left. I took her a crossword puzzle game and some mixed nuts with no salt because she's on a low sodium diet. Anyway, she was glad to see me there, I'm just sorry I didn't go any sooner.
Let's see weight related. I am at 239.7..yep more of a gain...but down to 45.5%...am I down on fat % or am I trippen'? Sheesh I don't even remember..I actually seem to remember I was already at 45.5%. I lost track. I am sticking to shakes all day. I want to work out but I want to sleep as well. I think I might do the sleep thing instead. I'm making my family buffalo chicken wrappers in low carb tortillas with a caesar salas for dinner. Alexis just called that she forgot her lunch and she knows I'm not driving to her school so she's going to have to wait to eat lunch till she gets home. Anyway, I only have 30 more minutes of work left so I need to get to cracking and then I'll need to clean my house and make dinner. God Bless!
I didn't mention that I did get a haircut before I left on Thursday. My hair feels SO much better. My hair was longer than I thought. The gal cut 6 inches off my hair but it was still too long so I asked her to cut another 4 inches off of it and throw in a few layers and she was like 'Ooookkkk'...like..you're asking for it type of thing. In the end she was like "you're right, it looks so much better". I got home styled it a bit and was happy. It's still past my shoulders which is why I mentioned it being longer than I thought.
My husband drove me to work today..he's going to do kind of a major plumbing job for one of my co-workers and he lives out here. I took the kids to my babysitters really early today. I have to leave work at 11am though because I have to go to court for ticket. I thought I would be able to extend it but I could not for some reason. I need to be there at 1:30 so leaving my work at 11 will barely be enough time.
No weigh in today because of my hectic schedule this morning but for sure tomorrow. I had a good shakes day yesterday and we went swimming yesterday at my gym with the kids because it was so stinken hot. Anyway, I have to get lots of work done in the next few hours so till later. God Bless!
I'm baaaack! And so very tired. The conference was great, best conference I have been to by far. I didn't miss any of the sessions because I didn't have a baby with me like last year so it wasn't as stressful. This year I only got about 5 hours of sleep in 2 days! The last session it hit me hard and I was trying to stay awake. Luckily it was the last session and it was the pastor's closing remarks which I'm sure had a great message but I was done with. I had to drive home (yikes) so we stopped and got a red bull. I've never really liked them but it was really good this time around and it worked! I drove home and had to deal with Lauren. She had a horrible attitude out there and it got to the point that I kicked her out of our room. I wasn't going to deal with her anymore. I'm not giving her a ride to school or church. I'm finally making her dad be responsible for her. I'm SO done. I did what God asked me to do with her which is try to help her grow in the Lord and try to be a stable parent for her but she does not want that. She wanted to run amuck at the hotel with some girls because their chaperone was asleep and I wasn't having that and she didn't like it so she walked away from me. When she did that it was like I saw very clearly what needed to be done. Her mom taught her NEVER to admit even when she was wrong (her mom is a drug addict to this day and refuses to see or talk to her) and we've tried over the past 2 years to get her to get close to God, nurture her and just be there for her but she refuses to get out of that mentality. She doesn't want the help. She wants a mom with benefits is what I told my husband. I need to give those benefits to my kids. They don't even get them 100% from me. One of the sessions at the conference was about nurturing your kids, enjoying the time with them, giving them eye contact. All the other stuff takes the back seat (except my husband of course). It all just came together and I'm 100% sure that I've made the right decision.
Drama! LOL...despite this I am refreshed and I finally got a little bit of sleep. I'm letting Alexis stay home from school today because she needs to catch up with her sleep too. She is SOOO tired. My husband went on a fishing trip with some of the guys from church. Just for today. I'm going to try and get my house nice and clean and sleep some more!
Weight wise. I didn't weight myself this morning but I did show a 1 pound gain yesterday. I ate as good as possible but there was one time that I had to totally cheat (I wasn't prepared with my shakes). I got SOOOO sick to my stomach though. It was like I had some sort of stomach virus for 24 hours. So I will weigh in tomorrow. I worked out at the hotel though! First time I've ever said I was going to work out and did! Anyway, I am so behind on e-mails from being out so I've got to go. Till later. God bless.
I just woke up now to weigh myself :-) I've been really working my butt off these past few days and I was determined to loose something! I was down to 237.8...some weight but not much. This is the lowest weight I've been so far so I have to maintain that AT the very least while I'm gone. I packed some workout clothes and my Nike Trainers.
Well I got up early so I can die my hair. I have TONS of gray hair. I've been getting gray hair since I was 19. Then I'm off to get a haircut (finally). My hair is down to my waist and my hair is curly so when I straighten it it's going to look even longer but stringy because the ends are so dry. Finally gonna get a stinkin' pedicure and probably an eye brow way too! I'm going to be driving out to the conference and there's going to be 7 of us in my van. We're having a pajama party in someone's room for all the RU ladies. This is the first year for many of them and this will be our way of having a little girly fun~
Ok gotta go...I have to pack my shakes and shaker as well. Have a great weekend! God Bless!
So I'm in the 90's now and I don't feel as excited as I should be. Primarily because in 20 days I have only lost 14 poounds. I thought it would be more!! I mean I pretty much have stalled out after the first week. BUT I must not lie and say I am not FEELING the results. Yesterday I wore a red shirt I could not even get close to buttoning up and it was a size 14...it was still a little tighty and more so when I sat down but I was really a size 20 only 3 weeks ago! My body fat went down another 1/2 percent so I AM loosing body fat, just not weight!!
I went for another run at the beach last night. This time I made Alexis go with me and she was getting to my nerves because she complained the whole time and she kept staying WAAAY behind. I would have to stop and wait for her because there are just too many weirdo's especially in Long Beach and I didn't want to loose sight of her.I'm still going to make her come with me because she has about 15 pounds she needs to loose as well and this is the only way I am going to get her to be active. She started her "healthy" eating today. I made her a Turkey burger in the George forman grill wrapped in lettuce with grilled onions, pickles and other yummy things to fill her up at lunch. My two other one's kept fighting in the stroller and I had to keep separating them. I gave them a last stern warning and they both knew I was serious. I gave them their juice and crackers and they were fine the rest of the time.
The highlight of the day was when I was jogging and one other jogger looked at my kids, then me, (sweating my butt off and huffing and puffing) said "You go Mom!"....that felt so good because I realized that I was REALLY trying this time and I am so totally enjoying it. Never in a million years would you catch me running, and now I'm running a little more every day and loving it!
I'm going to be gone tomorrow and Friday to our annual ladies conference and will be back on Saturday afternoon. I am going to try my very hardest to make good eating choices while I am away. Shakes during the day and evening Lean and Green. God Bless!
Work is busy for me right now...after I signed off I picked up Alexis from school and took her shopping for some jacket/blazers for the ladies conference. We went home, I started dinner and I headed out the door to for my work out. I took my new stroller for a spin :-) I called Leah which met me up in Signal Hill and we walked for almost 2 hours. She wanted to "conquer" the big huge hill and I was a little scared to be honest but she said she wanted to push the kids up the hill and she did! When I called her she said she was eating meatballs and rice and getting her out of the house for this workout saved her from eating too much. I just needed to work out. I feel like I loose my patience with my family a lot easier when I don't wear myself out with a good workout. BUT, even though we walked for those 2 hours, I didn't really feel like I got my heart pumping. Lately, when I've gone out on my own I find myself running a lot and I've come to realize that I like running better! I don't run at the gym on the treadmill though and I really feel like I push myself more when I workout outdoors. Today I'm at work so I am meeting my husband at the church, picking up my kids, going home to change into workout clothes and heading to the beach trail for a workout.
Weight update: NO LOSS. UGH. But it's ok, just gonna keep on chugging along. I have to stay positive and on track. I have my shakes, my sneakers and socks for my nice 1 hour walk I have planned during lunch so I am good! Hope you all have a nice day! God Bless!
Two more days and I am in the 100's!! Ok so this week is serious business. I am on all shakes till Thursday. I am going to our annual Ladies Conference in Wildomar, CA. I am going to be away from home for 3 days and Alexis is coming with me this year so I am really looking forward to it.
You know how I've been sorta looking for a jogging stroller? A cheap one at that which has not been easy...well yesterday before taking my nap and baking cookies, I went on Craigslist and saw a posting for a $70 double jogging stroller but it was about a 35 mile drive from here. I e-mailed the person and the lady called me back. She was super nice and said someone was there now trying to buy it for $50 and she was about to sell it and I told her I would give her the full $70 if she would hold it for me and she said YES! She paid $350 for it a year ago and her mother in law got them a nice wagon and she only used it to go around the neighborhood in it so she didn't really have a good use for a jogging stroller. Anyway, my husband and I drove out there, no traffic while Alexis and Lauren baked the cookies. The stroller is PERFECT and super great shape. It's practically new! I love love love it...such a blessing. I pay $9 per day when I take the kids to the gym so it pays for itself in a week basically. I will only go to the gym when my husband is home. 
So I had a talk with my hubby about spending SO much time away. I told him I was fine with him doing ministry stuff but he is staying out way too late and it's affecting his school performance AND also the other ministries he's involved in. We set some ground rules and he's not taking the Earning For learning kids candy selling past 6pm and he'll be home no later than 7pm. Saturdays we will do our visting for bus ministry and then we can go out and spend time as a family. So that will be really nice. Well I didn't weigh today but I will tomorrow. God Bless!
I've totally stunk at sticking strictly to my shakes this weekend. I pretty much stuck to plan yesterday but I cooked a HUGE dinner at my house last night and we invited 2 couples from our church to come over and eat. I had totally forgotten and I had plans to come home, change and head to the open air markets to search for a used double stroller BUT my husband reminded me of the dinner and I was totally MAD! I've been stuck at home besides going out to work out with my kids so I changed, and I had Lauren over my house (16 year old girl that calls me mom because she has no mom and her dad doesn't really care about spending time with her). Anyway, she was over and I had them scrubbing my house down.
Then I started making Pozole which is like a spicy soup with hominy and lean pork. Some people put really fatty pork meat but I don't like that. You add chopped fresh cabbage to it once served and you sprinkle purple onion and sliced radishes (not everyone likes radishes). Served that with tostadas & lime. Then I made rice, beans and chicken taquitos with guacamole for the kids. We ended up having 6 adults, 2 of the bus kids that wanted to stay (my husband took them out candy selling earlier in the day and they were begging not to get taken home), 3 teenagers, and 6 kids ages 11-2. THAT was a lot of people! I guess that totalled to 17 people?!! So I lost track of my soup intake a bit but I really don't think I over did it too much. I had shakes all day and that dinner. Then today I had a little kid bowl of pozole for breakfast.
I broke down and weighed myself Friday! I lost 1 POUND!!! The problem is that the zero is missing from that number. My body fat went down 2% so I think I might of gained muscle. I KNOW I have lost weight because I can tell and I tried a slew of clothing on on Friday and my shirts fit!!!! I worked out on Signal Hill because I didn't feel like going to the beach. I went around 3 hills, 2 major killer hills pushing my 2 kids in the stroller. I can't believe I did that. It felt really good. I almost wanted to cry because I'm really pushing myself to workout and it feels really good! Anyway, I am baking cookies for the bus kids today so I gotta get to baking. I'm tired so I might take a 20 minute nap before the evening church services. Chat tomorrow. God Bless.
I had a hard time last night with snacking. I have to get a tattoo on my forehead that reads "Drink all your shakes". It happens everytime. I avoid drinking all my shakes because in the back of my mind I think I will loose more weight. But I won't! I won't loose so why can't I get that through my head!? I'm irritated with myself. I am making things harder on myself. I will continue to try. I'm not weighing today because of what I said yesterday PLUS Monday will be 7 days of my 3 hour workouts, not today. Yesterday I had a hard time with getting out of the house to workout. I was having another bad day. I can't quite put my finger on it but I just feel discouraged or something? I don't know. I finally snapped out of it and got out of the house and headed to the beach. I walked fast and jogged on and off pushing my kids in the stroller. It was so embarrasing because I had to sit both my kids in 1 stroller because Alani walks too slow (ya know since she's 3 and everything) LOL. I really need to shop for a double jogging stroller. I didn't want to buy one because Alani is older but even in a year she still would not be able to walk for miles at a time! I'm most likely always going to have to take them with me when I work out so I might as well cave in and get one. I will look on Craigslist for a used one. Pray that I find a cheap one!!! It's not like I have $250 for a new one.
Well today is a new day and I am trying to shake negativity and some depression from myself. I am having a hard time with a co-worker and I have SO much work. She's making it harder for me to do what I need to do. I need to get on my knees and pray right now for all these little things that are causing me to feel like this. I need to be as positive as possible while I continue with my weight loss. I need to remain focused and not let these piddly things derail my goals of being thin and most importantly HEALTHY! Thanks for reading my jabber.. God Bless!
I am chickening out on weighing in tomorrow! I'm afraid I haven't lost the 10 pounds I set out to loose. Now that I think of it I would really need to work out 4-5 hours a day to loose 10 pounds. I'll take what I get though, even if it's only a 1 pound loss (I say that now huh)? I do think that I might wait till Monday now though....you know why? Because of the weekend! I do NOT want to see a big loss then cheat over the weekend because I was able to drop a lot of weight. The most I've lost is probably 2-3 pounds. We'll see, I don't feel much different except a huge surge of energy.
Remember those stairs I was talking about yesterday at the beach? Well I went up those stairs 10 times at lunch! 10 times!!!! I tried to go up those stairs twice a couple of years ago and I was dying! But I was SOOOO determined this time, I was in biggest looser mode. I pushed myself really hard! Then I came back home, worked for a few more hours then that's when I needed a nap. My husband dropped my daughter off shortly after and we went for a bike ride. I didn't quite do my 3 hours yesterday though. My daughter started complaining that her behind hurt her so we headed home after 30 minutes. I was going to go for an additional bike ride or walk but I had to go to the grocery store again to get the essentials. I actually went by myself and it was nice! Alexis wanted to stay home so she watched the kids. She hasn't been here all that much so they had a ball with her.
Well, here's to another day in paradise ;-) God Bless.
Psalm 16:7-11
7I will bless the LORD, who hath given me counsel: my reins also instruct me in the night seasons.
8I have set the LORD always before me: because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.
9Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoiceth: my flesh also shall rest in hope.
10For thou wilt not leave my soul in hell; neither wilt thou suffer thine Holy One to see corruption.
11Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.
Ahhh my gym is closed for two days! They totally gave me last minute notice! Well I guess it's ok. I can work out with my kids outdoors I suppose. We are getting more new equipment which is great and it's going to take them 2 days to get them set up. So for now it's going to be the killer stairs at the beach on ocean which is a couple of miles away and the bike trail. 
I'm going to have to invite someone to go with me for the stairs though because obviously I can't make my kiddos go up those stairs with me. As it is Alani is limping because we walked to the gym yesterday. It was my fault because I let her wear her Crocs and that wasn't really smart. Next time she's wearing her sneakers! I actually regretted walking there because I am so paranoid but I wanted to sneak in an extra hour of workout which I did! So yesterday 4 hours of working out. Grant it, that hour was more of casual walking but I was still walking/moving. I wore my new calorie counter watch and I burned 220 calories with that walk .
I am so tempted to jump on my scale but I won't. My stomach feels less bloated and my legs are a bit firmer but that's about it. My face looks thinner in the morning but bloated in the afternoon. Maybe it's my water intake. I know I didn't drink that much water yesterday. I'm out of water and a few things at home so I'm going to run to Smart & Final after work. My lunch time is reserved for working out and I'll still need to fit in 2 more hours after work.... Alright well I managed to bore myself. I know I had more things to talk about but forgot. Ta ta for now. God Bless!
Is that right 107? Wow. My buttocks hurt!!! My gym has these new bike's with a TV and it's interactive. Basically I stayed on for 35 minutes so I could finish my course. When you slow down, other riders in this videogame type of thing pass you up so it motivates you to speed up. There are all sorts of scenery and workout levels to chose from. It was quite interesting! I had not been on a bike for a while and most of you know that if you're not used to riding, the next day when you sit down you feel all sorts of soreness. Ouch. 
Then on my lunch break, I went for an actual real bike ride making my behind even more sore. My husband was supposed to come home to relieve me of my wife/mother duties at 6:30pm and was a no show! I called him and heard this "yeah I think I might be late...more like 7:30pm, you can still make it to the gym right"? My response was "um....yeah...I guess...". Then 8pm rolls around, no husband no daughter. They both call me "Yeah we're still in Torrance....getting ready to leave in a minute"....by this time I was upset. There was no more childcare available at the gym! It was my first day of my "I'm going to work out for 3 hours" and I had only 1 hour to go, I was NOT going to fail! So what did I do? I whipped out my kid-bike trailer thing-a-ma-bob, hitched it onto my bike and worked out like a madwoman for an hour. Here's a photo of it, except Alani is 2 years older (and heavier) and there's also a boy by the name of Gabriel that clutched on to his juice and made sure he had his snacks with him...and weighs in at 20-some-odd pounds. 
I only rode down a few blocks away from my house but that was enough! I never realized how much of an incline there is on each street! Going down hill was heaven but coming back up...well you know. When I got off that bike it was instant relief. I think my eyes even rolled back from how good it felt! I can't believe I worked out on a bike ALL day long. I walked on the gym treadmill earlier in the day but only to finish off my hour workout in the morning. So day 1 of my "3 hour workout" promise to myself is COMPLETE! I was determined, my kids were happy to go on the ride, and now I am happy because I set out to do what I said I was going to do. AMEN to that! Today should be much easier because husband is in trouble and he knows it! Oh AND I made him dinner that he didn't eat. It looked REALLY good too. Chocolate shakes are better though! LOL...Till later...God Bless!
I didn't get to post yesterday because I woke up late for church. Since we are working on the bus ministry and we miss the 11am service we attend 9AM service. We went to the beach on Saturday - last minute decision (that's totally us). We went to Huntington Beach because the water is nice and clean and it's only 13 miles from here and since we take Pacific Coast Highway to get there, the entire way you see beach so it's just a nice ride there altogether. My husband missed his 2 classes at the bible institute but it was a nice break for him. My kids had a blast and Gabriel could not believe we were letting him play with the sand. He was looking at me the whole time waiting for me to tell him "NO"! He kept picking up handfuls of sand and throwing it up in the air. After the sun went down we went up to the Huntington Beach Pier and went fishing. We didn't catch anything but we had a good time. I didn't take my camera but I got some of these pics online. It was a nice day to relax.
Weight related update: I ate a couple of tortillas this weekend with my lean and green! I am not dissapointed though because although I could of refrained I didn't. I had a shrimp cocktail which was only 280 calories so I decided to have 2 tostadas with it because they both go together. Yesterday I decided that I CAN loose another 10 pounds in one week and I will! But this time I need to really work out. So I had a little meeting with my family and this is the plan. I am going to the gym REALLY early in the morning before work for an hour. Then on my lunch break I am riding my bike in the neighborhood for about 40 minutes. Then once I am done making dinner, I am going to the gym for another hour. I've challeged myself to do this before and I failed miserably but that's because I don't get up in the morning early enough to work out. I get up to start work but that's about it. My bedtime HAS to be 9pm so that I can get up early without being horribly tired. So that's the plan and I'm not coming on here with excuses. I am also NOT going to weigh until Friday morning. I want to be surprised with a BIG number and I don't want to be discouraged by my daily weigh in. I know first hand that working out causes a temporary weight gain so I figured that if that happens to me, #1 I won't KNOW about it and #2 It will show a big loss by Friday. So here's to an excise-filled week and I am SO SO SO excited about it! I'm also doing straight-shakes all week UNLESS I start to feel weak from all the workouts. I am going to drink two shakes at lunch though so I can keep my energy levels up and I don't feel like cheating!
God Bless!
I was in such a weird mood yesterday. I was not hungry ALL day long and I was a little bit down under. My stomach no longer has hunger pangs even when I didn't feed it for hours (my bad). I guess it has finally accepted that a cheeseburger and fries is not going to land in there. When it smells fries (there was fries and burgers in my car yesterday-not for me of course) it got hungry but as soon as I was away from the smell it was ok again. I miss my hubby. He's around. He lives here and everything he's just been busy with ministry stuff for a few weeks and I only see him for like an hour or two before we go to bed. But by that time, he's too tired to hear me yap away. My sole companions have been a three year old that starts talking a mile a minute about funny weird things when I tell her I'm taking them to the park and a 1 1/2 year old that asks me for "SNAA" all day long (Snacks). He's like a little puppy. He picks up my frames off my tables brings them to me and says "Heeee" (here) and "Eh-n up" (clean up) - yes the kid thinks he's cleaning. Anyway, so I got outta the house yesterday, went to the mall and my husband met me there. It was nice spending some time with him. Although everything was rushed in a sense because there were kids to be picked up and I had to come home and make food for RU. Ok that was my pity party for myself. I hope today we can spend some more quality time together after we do some other church things this morning.
Ok weight wise - down to 239.4 this moring and body fat went down (on my scale) to 47.5%. I am down 1.4 pounds from yesterday and total weight loss thus far is 13 pounds. I shared how God's has everything to do with my weight loss during our Reformer's "testimony time" last night. I said I was going to give God the glory when someone asked me how I lost the weight but I thought I was going to do it on my own. I was completely wrong. If it not for Him I would not be going this strong. God Bless.
I'm getting closer and closer to the 90's! I got on the scale this AM to a .2 gain!So instead of being 240.8 I went up to 241. BUT my body fat went down a half percent to 48% which is better! I didn't change my weight on my little tracker thing to the right because it's only .2. I had a lean & green dinner last night as well and my chicken breast was probably a bit bigger than it should have been but that's ok. I only had 3 shakes as well so I need to stay on target. I was just busy yesterday and not very hungry. Today is another 100% shake day.
I took my kids to the park after work. I walked there and they rode in their wagon. On the way home my arms were killing me because it was like I was hauling around 60 pounds of weight (the kids plus wagon). I wanted to step up my workout yesterday but I never got the time. I had to go grocery shopping when I got back and did two loads of laundry once I finshed putting the groceries away AND feeding the kids. My son is still recovering. I thought he was all better so I gave him some milk for dinner. BIG MISTAKE. He could not keep it down and let's just say I spent about an hour at 10pm cleaning up a huge mess & giving him a bath. I was pretty exausted by the time I went to bed.
Today I am taking a sick day. I want to clean my house, get out of the house for a little while then come back and make something for RU tonight. I'm going to make carrot cake muffins and egg salad sandwiches. I bought the kids in the nursery some chex mix for snack time as well.
Alrighty well I am off since the day will fly by I am sure. Hope you have a nice weekend! It's supposed to be in the 80's here so I am hoping to go for a nice bike ride :-) God Bless!
For once I had the opportunity to work out but I didn't! It was day 1 of TOM and you know how that is...plus I had no energy so I took a mini nap instead! I'll try and get out to work out today. I woke up at 1am with a HUGE migraine today. I am sure my iron is low. Usually is right about now. So I am going to start taking my multi vitamins like I'm supposed to be doing but keep forgetting to put them in the freezer so I don't taste them all day long.
I went out and shopped a little yesterday. I bought a purse, a heart rate and calorie tracker monitor (and watch) and some new bras! The bras alone is like a shopping spree. I always buy them at Ross though because I like BALI bras and those are like $32 a pop. I had gone down from a DD to a D then to a C for the first time in my life after I finished breastfeeding my son. So when I tried on a few C's they were too small and I was quite dissapointed. I've not been able to buy cute shirts in the past because my twin friends always ruined it. So I got some D bras and those too were too small. Now I'm back to DD. Maybe they'll shrink again once I loose this weight. I heard that some of the back workouts helped minimize the boobage so going to try those once I get the motivation to work on them at the gym.
Anyway, I stayed on track yesterday! Shakes only. I was this close to eating a lean & green dinner but Alexis talked me out of it. Love my daughter. As always, I drank my shake and I was totally fine. That's the thing you have to remember, you have to stick to your schedule or you will try and get off plan. I would not of eaten pizza or anything but sticking to plan gets harder. If you don't you start the stage of "suffering" or "feeling sorry for yourself". Once you have that shake you want to smack yourself "like what's the matter with you"!!! So thank God He got me through another day.
As of today I am down to 240.8! Almost 12 pounds and I can't believe I am actually excited to be entering the 230's again. I weighed 231 when my son was 2 months old. I can't believe I gained 25 pounds AFTER having a baby. Wow. I'm human and I let food be my comfort for a year and a half and that was the end result. I'm just happy I'm getting rid of it for good this time.
Time to get my cup of coffee and back to work. Chat later. God Bless.
Well TOM finally decided to show it's face this month. Although I have had a light one going on 2 weeks. This happens when my weight gets out of control and I stop taking my meds. So I can't wait for it to go away. My poor husband, he's gettin'no lovin.
I went for a walk after having dinner alone last night. I fed my kids at around 5:30 because they were so hungry. I had the same dinner I had the night before and I only had 3 shakes yesterday which is too few calories. I figured I was not going to loose much with the combination of TOM, too few calories and a day following a sick stomach. The scale still showed a loss though of .2 pounds but a .5% loss as well for my body fat so that assured me that all was well.
Today I am doing all shakes and a protein soup for dinner so I can join the family for dinner. Although the chicken and salad is still healthy I need to know that I can stick to a day of all shakes if I really needed to. I drank tons of water yesterday but not until the evening. I need to work on drinking water in between my shakes. Florence at work gave me this Protein Water that's supposed to make you feel full. Going to try it tomorrow to see how it works. I will probably drink it between my last snack and tomorrow's dinner. Even though I feel hunger pangs, I usually don't pay attention to them. I don't actually FEEL hungry but my stomach does. Anyway, here's to another day 1. I started 1 week ago today and thank God am down 9.6 pounds total! God Bless.
I'm at work today so I had to get up 2 hours earlier than I usually do so I am a bit more tired than usual. Yesterday I went up to Signal Hill twice. Once on my lunch and once in the evening. Leah called me because she was up there walking and I had just finished having dinner with my family. Alexis baked a chicken breast for me and I prepared 2 cups of spring salad with 45 calorie balsamic vinaigrette. Chicken and salad has NEVER tasted so good and for only 328 calories! I opted to have dinner again last night because I've been sick to my stomach since adding my second pill of Metformin so my stomach was literally empty. Anyway, I was satisfied after dinner and headed out the door. A second walk was much needed.
Weight this AM was 243 on the dot. Grand total is 9.4 pounds! I don't expect to loose much today though because like I said, I was sick to my stomach. We'll see. I plan to take a morning walk on my break and another one in the afternoon. When I get home I will take another walk up the hill just to keep my metabolism going. I used a Keto stick this morning and guess what? I've never showed such a dark color! I was at +40 which means that I am burning fat. The highest I have ever been able to get was +15 so that was definitely the extra boost I needed! Sure you can say drinking shakes, liquid soups is difficult but you know what? When you can't control yourself when you are trying to watch what you eat (dieting) then taking that time to step away from food and allowing it to slowly filter in, you appreciate it so much more! This week has been SO SO SO much easier! Hopefully the hard part is over and I can just continue to chug along. My weight loss goal each week starting tomorrow will be 3.5 pounds which is 1/2 a pound a day. I know I'm not going to loose 10 pounds a week and I think 3.5 pounds is certainly realistic with the amount of calories I am taking in. Well gotta get to work. God Bless.
That number at the top is looking so much less intimidating. Once it gets down to the 90's it will be even better! I am down to 244.2 as of this morning so another pound making the total 8.2 thus far. Maybe I will make my secret goal of 10 pounds. SO many people say that you really should not weigh everyday...and that works for me too...when I'm cheating and I don't want to know how much I'm gaining! No, really, I do get the point in not weighing everyday because weight fluctuates blah blah...but I weigh at the same time everyday so I think that will show me a loss pretty much everytime.
I had 2 scrambbled egg whites and a little bit of beans for dinner with the family last night. It was supposed to be an all shakes day but I wanted to sit with them and chat over dinner. It was nice. I had to take my son to the hospital yesterday because that kid was and is still worrying me. The doctor ended up saying he had a very bad ear infection which was causing the fevers to hang around. I got his prescription, gave it to him right away but when we go home he didn't want to walk! I started thinking that he was allergic to the amoxicillin but he's had it a handful of times since he was born. We got home and I was encouraging him to walk and he took a few steps and one of his legs shook a bit like it was weak and he got on all fours and started to crawl. This worried me to no end so I called my husband which was at church and he assured me that he was probably too weak. He hasn't really been eating at all for days and he's just really sick. So we'll see today. I am only going to work part of the day today & tomorrow to take care of him.
Once my husband gets home, my plan is it hit the gym for a few hours to see what that will do to my weight loss! I want to do a biggest looser type workout. I KNOW I will not even get close but I am sure going to try. I bought a Prevention magazine and they seem to have a pretty good workout in there and I want to try it. It incorporates interval training so we'll see if I can wrap my head around it. Till later God Bless
Well made it another day! I went for my walk with Leah but she was late and I knew I had to be home by a certain time because of church so I started my walk without her. I am going to take my camera the next time I go up to Signal Hill cause it is such a beautiful walk. It's literally 1/2 a mile away from my house. I'll just record it, stick it on Youtube and post it. Anyway, it was JUST what I needed. I got away, huffed and puffed my way through some of the mini hills, got to enjoy the view of Long Beach and got to spend some time with a friend.
Once home, it was another hectic day. I'm getting worried about my son. He's not getting any better. In fact, I am going to make him an appointment and take him in today. You know with kids, they'll get the flu, they'll have a fever for a day, 2 the most. They won't eat, they'll throw up. But then day 3 is much better. My son is worse. His eyes are low, his fever is high. I slept from 11pm to 1am and I've been up with him ever since. He stayed home all day yesterday and last night Alexis started throwing up. NICE. So no church for me AGAIN. Today is a church picnic and they paid me to make a whole lotta rice, beans and salsa. God got me through doing that cause I just doin't know that after such a LOOOONG day yesterday I was still able to get my butt to the store come home and make all this stuff. Gabriel nodded off and I started to scrub my house down. Again. I had a lot of energy yesterday which really shocked me. My feet are killing me though. Ok well I still have things to do at home, sold some stuff on Ebay and I have to get that stuff ready to ship.
Weight stuff: Ate a Lean and Green meal last night. The problem with that was that it was late when I ate it. Oh well...live and learn. I had 1/8 of a cup of soy nuts, which amounted to about 75 calories. I was regretting eating them but decided to let it go. Drank LOTS of water. Took my meds and I am down .6 of a pound but down 1% of body fat. Today is back to shakes all day, I might throw in a soup..depending on how I feel. Ok well God Bless!
I less day! I'll start with the good news, scale says I am 245.8 this morning which is 6.6 pounds! Not sure if I posted in my last post how the swelling on my face, arms and fingers has gone down? It's such a relief. Now I realize how much distress my body was in. I was like a blown up balloon waiting to pop. What a difference this small weight loss makes.
Anyway, my alarms went off today at 6:30 and I am about to head out the door for a walk with a friend from church, Leah. She wants to get motivated again because she's felt sluggish lately and wants to continue to loose more weight. She has lost over 100 pounds over the last couple of years, just walking and eating right. Unlike me, miss Liquid Diet LOL. Well it worked for her!
Well gonna make my coffee, get my sweater on, shake is ready for when I am done! God Bless! Have a nice Saturday.
Wow..so many emotions in one day can wear one out. I needed church yesterday and I didn't get to go because of my sick son. Fever, day 3 of hardly any eating, and all the good stuff that comes out of the body when one is sick. I haven't caught it...YET. We had a guest preacher last night and according to my husband I must listen to it! Apparantly it's something we all needed to hear. I have a feeling it's going to convict me to no end. I'm currently dissecting the book of Romans but finding it super difficult with my kids. Hopefully I will get some peace and quiet today at some point. Today is Reformers Unanimous program and I need to follow up with a few ladies that are in my group that have not come.
Did I mention that we started going out on a new bus route for church on Saturdays? God had been banging at our door to dedicate our Saturdays to SOMETHING. Pastor asked my husband if we would join the bus ministry and we agreed. God had been preparing our hearts. Our course I didn't want to give up Saturdays! It's our selfish nature! We've been going to the city of Wilmington trying to get some parents and kids to come. It's mostly for kids but the parents are welcome of course! It's been a little tough and I got a little discouraged last week for a brief moment but I know that it's the devil. I know that there's going to be at least ONE kid that will come up to live for Him. There are so many dedicated workers and this bus route will grow. There is already about 300 kids that get picked up every Sunday from inner city Long Beach. There are quite a few bus kids from years past that are now in the ministry and some have surrendered to the missions field.
So emotions...what a rollercoaster I have been. I need to work on controlling myself under severly stressful situations. Like I mentioned yesterday, I think God really wants me to work in this area which is why I have been in like the worst case scenarios. I just get upset and mostly emotional about having to do EVERYTHING at home while my husband is at school or just not here (for legitemate reasons of course). My daughter has not been coming home to help me out with the kids after school as she's been out raising money for the new building at our church. She made a commitment to raise $1000 and she goes candy selling with a lot of the girls. My husband is taking the Earning for Learning kids out candy selling as well. It's funny how God answers your prayers but it's not always exactly as you envisioned it. I prayed for my husband to get much closer to God and he's getting to do that now. Here I am complaining! I'm just lonely I suppose. I need to get out for my lunch break today, I'll have my kids today early this afternoon so I am going to go for a nice long walk with them.
Ok weight loss - 2.6 more pounds. Total loss thus far is 4.8 pounds in 3 days. I think I will probably drop 10 pounds the first week which will most likely be water weight. My fingers feel so much better and my face does not look so swollen! Today I start back on my Metformin, I've been scared to take it because of the headaches it inititally gives me and being on new lifestlye I read you will get headaches in the beginning. I didn't want to give up because of the killer migraines so I held off. I've been taking my blood pressure meds early but by the evening I feel my pressure is elevated. I think I may need to go back to adding a second pill for the day. Sucks but I will only have to do this until i drop all my weight. I get even more woozy and tired with the second dose of meds. I will hopefully only need to take one pill once I drop all this weight! Gotta get back to work so God Bless!
Wondering about the title? Another Day 1...did I cheat already? No! The liquid diet dicussion board has been a great help...great suggestions to keep me motivated. The first thing I picked up was looking at each day as Day 1 because every single day will be challenging on ANY diet. Instead of saying Day 2 of 120 you count backways. Yesterday was Day 1 of 120 today is Day 1 of 119. I like that. I'm down 2.2 pounds today. I am sure 10 pounds of my weight will come off easy since it's water weight.
Someone posted getting off track and not being able to get back on and one of the site monitors said this "many people that start down the road come to the sudden realization that it takes discipline and hard work to succeed. But, once they discover this, they are already 1-2 weeks into the program and past the hard part. So, they may as well keep going. Unfortunately, you are starting again from the ground floor and have to make it through that first difficult week....And, it is because of this knowledge that you are holding back. I would go so far as to say that you understand how hard it can be in the beginning and are simply afraid to go through it. But, to succeed, you are going to need to get through this part and get back to the point where you can do the program on auto pilot and experience all that is ahead of you."
I can relate to what he's saying because I KNOW how it is the first week and he's right, I have refused to FINISH the first week because it IS very hard. What he said there will help keep me on track. It will help me NOT cheat because starting over IS so hard and I don't want to be back where I am right at this minute. The first week. Once I get through this week it will be smoother sailing! I'm in rough water right now, trying not to let my boat sink, but even if it does, I'm a good swimmer, I have my life jacket on for back up and I don't plan on drowning! God Bless!
Today is day 1 of my new Lifestlye Diet. I haven't yet had anything to eat but I will soon. I have to wean myself off of caffeine but for now I am having my cup of coffee. I was not able to attend the Optifast meeting that I really wanted to go to but I ended up having my kids with me. The plan was that my husband was going to take them with him to church but plans changed. I took them out to eat Korean food because that just sounded like a good dinner. It was expensive but good.
My son woke up throwing up today though and with a high fever at that. Last week it was my 3 year old. So I have to make sure I take my blood pressure meds today cause he'll be home and I have tons and tons of work to do. I am sure he'll be laid back though because he's sick. We'll see.
So my official start weight is 252.4. I seriously felt like I had gained weight...I was leaning towards being about 260. Anyway, I have to work so till later. God Bless.
I am SO stinken excited! Today is the Optifast meeting BUT I am just going for the thrills. I actually signed up online for the New Lifestyle diet. The dude from Optifast called me to confirm today's appt and said "if you decide to join it will be $95 sign up fee". So I thought...so my first month on Optifast will really be closer to $500 then $400 every 4 weeks from there. I knew it was going to be expensive but I was still going to do it no matter what. I decided that this liquid diet (with occasional lean and green meal) was something that was for me! Anyway, I shifted away from many diet forums because when anyone mentioned "liquid diet" they were immediately attacked! So I googled Liquid diet forum and ran accross many liquid dieters that I knew I was going to be able to relate to and turn to for support. Soon I started to see people on Optifast getting support on this forum and I thought, so it doesn't appear that the support you are supposed to get at the meetings is enough. I started to see that many of these people were on Medifast but most were on New Lifestyle. I went to their website and discovered MUCH lower prices and comments about how their shakes, soups and bars tastes so mch better and were a lot more satisfying.
On Friday I decided to order the products and I am supposed to get my shipment today for a start date of tomorrow. Tomorrow will be the beginning on a new lean ME and I can't tell you how excited I am. I know it will be difficult the first few days especially since I have been such a big eater lately. I can't wait to see the shape of my face again and my belly go down significantly. Right now I have the belly of a 6 months old pregnant person. For real.
Anyway, I just wanted to show you how I am bursting at the seams with excitement (excuse the pun)..LOL..Just for fun I am going to be posting lots of pics. The first pics I will post will be once I earn my first GOLD STAR with New Lifestlye which will be when I loose 21.25 pounds. From there on I will post pics at every 10 pound loss. Pray for me please! God Bless.
