So....I've only lost 5 pounds since my weight loss venture to loose 20 pounds in 35 days. This comes with about at LEAST 10 different events I've attended including BBQ'a, festivities or some sort and lots of cake! I think I've given in to the cake eating 2-3 times. I've eaten at restaurants as healthy as possible, sometimes not caring....lots of bad days, good happy days. This weekend I went on YouTube and looked up some "bootcamp" workouts to try and try to get away from 232lbs and today was day 1. I was supposed to start Saturday then Saturday turned into Sunday but (yes BUT) I cooked Friday and Sunday for church. I ate cake Saturday night from just being in a rotten mood and Sunday I made myself some "Mother's day nachos" which were just so super good. Better than your average mexican restaurant...anyway enough of that. It was my turn to cook for RU - so I made about 100 flatas, 2 trays of rice, 2 trays of beans, guacamole, salsa and all the other fixings like sour cream. I ate two flatuas, 2 choco chip cookies, little bit of rice and some beans. On Sunday morning it was my turn to make breakfast so I made chilaquiles, refried beans, and fried eggs and fresh salsa. Yes I had some. Sunday night the Lazo's had a BBQ after church and I had a hot dog wrapped in bacon (no bun), a hot link, a carne asada burrito with stir fried bellpeppers, onion and avocado wrapped in a wheat tortilla. It was good....and a small cup of sprite. I didn't weigh in on Monday, I ate healthy all day and worked out this morning.
This Friday is the banquet and only 5 pounds lost instead of the 20 I was aiming for. The only thing I can say that is good out of this is that I have lost this weight VERY slowly and it's sorta good because I don't seem to gain too much when I do cheat. Just need to give it a day to drop it off and I can continue on. The only really bad negative when cheating is that my mood swings are HORRIBLE. I'm like all over the place. So I need to eat healthy to stay sane and not so emotional.
If my period if going to be normal (on a 28 day schedule) like all the other normal people, I am supposed to get it on Saturday. I hope I don't get it on Friday (banquet night) but I'll be prepared nonetheless.
Well I am hoping that I can lose several pounds this week at least so that my face is not super puffy for the banquet picture...I'm praying for a 5 pound loss but I think that will ONLY happen if I do 2-3 hours of workouts per day and not sure that I'm going to have time for that. We'll see. God bless.
Not sure if it's really day 23....need to check my calendar at work. So I haven't made much progress. I've been eating healthy 99% of the time but I think the one meal that I have "off plan" really seems to throw me off. I had an off meal last night at RU. It was our 3rd year anniversary and we had .50cent tacos. Thank God we were helping with serving etc. otherwise I would have eaten more. I also brought a piece of cake home that I was planning on eating but my 3 yeal old son beat me to it and he ate it for me. He walked into my room with white frosting around his mouth while I was changing into my comfy clothes and thinking that I was going to eat the cake with a big glass of milk. he left me crumbs and I ate them lol.
So I've been struggling with one thing in particular but I can't really type it out here.God knows what it is and it's really starting to take over my mind and I wish it would just dissipate. I wish I could lose weight and be at peace. I'm going to continue with my eating habits (good ones) and keep losing weight. I'm going to keep praying and try to listen to God's advice for me and how to overcome my struggles.
I am hoping that at the end of the month I'm able to go visit my family in San Jose. My sister wants me to go I just hope I can get some money to replace my tires, brakes and have gas money. The building banquet is coming up as well and I am praying that we can come up with the money to pay what we owe on my 401K so that I can get a new loan and give some of that money to the banquet.
House is quiet right now, my husband is hopefully going to bible college and he's at the church now working on a bus route. When you are a bible college student you are required to work on a bus route. He already does some other stuff so not sure if he'll be required to take on additional routes.
I need to trust God on this and pray that my job continues to provide for us and that he help me not grow weary. I'm going to keep praying for confidence and pray that I can develop a closer relationship with him. Seems like we've grown apart some, like we are not as interested in each other as we use to be. I'm talking about my husband here.....all the other stuff applies to God too except that I know God is still interested in using me. I know he'll never give up on me. I pray that I am more like Him.
God bless....
