Day 10 and I have nothing to show for it except an increase in weight that is! I weighed in this AM at 239.6! That is like 4.6 pounds TOO many. I weighed in on saturday to a measely 234.8 which was only .2 pounds less and I was already dissapointed about that. BUT, my body fat was down to 46% which tells me that I am retaining water. The reason is that I have not taken my blood pressure meds all weekend. I worked out on Saturday, took the dogs for a nice walk and jogged with Baloo. Had my usualy light breakfast, I did have a few (like 6) small peices of potatos but I've done that before. We bought lunch but my hubby made a special trip to a seafood restaurant to buy me ceviche which is fish/shrimp cooked in lemon with chopped tomato, cilantro and onion. I had tostadas with it but nothing out of my "allowance". They had Taco Bell. Then for dinner, I had a babyshower to go to, El Torito, I had a few (literally) chips and salsa, not a deal breaker. Then I ordered Tortilla Soup! Everyone had these HUGE platters but I was satisfied and happy that I chose the best thing on the menu AND I didn't even finish it. Sunday, I had a one egg omelette with like 2 peices of bell peppers and onions. I said NO CHEESE, NO SAUSAGE and opted for 3 straberries and a banana. Dinner was 2 grilled eggs, beans (no fat) and 2 grilled pcs. of ham (the Costco LEAN HAM) has .5 grams of fat and 1 carb. So to wake up to such a gain I might as well should have pigged out! But, I am sure it will all fall off by Tues.
I asked God to help me with this. It's hard staying motivated and I know that this weight may not be falling off as easily, even though I've started to work out because I am no longer focusing on my weight for health reasons. My focus has shifted to losing weight for looks and for "fitting into" clothes. Although that is nice and everything, I don't think there is anything wrong with wanting to FEEL good about the way you look, it should not be the main focus. So I think that if I refocus on WHY I started to eat better and not concentrate so much on weight and how much i've lost, I'll regain my perspective. I'm thinking I should stop weighing but I think I need to pray about that. Maybe I will move to weighing in once or twice a week. Maybe Tuesdays and Saturdays?
I came in this morning, worked out and then clocked in. I only walked on the treadmill for 15 minutes though. I need to start getting here earlier to work out LONGER otherwise, lugging all this stuff to work for 15 minutes work outs is NOT worth it. I may just need to switch to working out at lunch and just change into my gym clothes and back. We'll see.
Well that's it for now, I need to get back to work. God Bless.
I didn't weigh yesterday because on Wednesday night (date night) I had a patty melt with fries. I just felt like I "deserved" a cheat meal. I've been eating a tortilla here and a little sugar in my coffee there. I need to watch that because that's when I start easing up on the rules.
I weighed this morning and I am up to 235.4. Body Fat was at 47.5%. I worked out for about 35 minutes yesterday morning and I am sore today. I came into work early again and worked out early as well but only for 15 minutes. I had to jump in the shower and I didn't want to come out all crazy looking when more people started to come in so I just cut it short. I'm MAKING myself walk on the treadmill again at 10am. I'll just walk for 10 minutes so I don't get all sweaty.
Since I come home early today I'm going to take the dogs for a walk as my "third" workout. I am buying a treadmill from my co-worker for $30. Not sure what it looks like but I don't think I can buy a cheaper treadmill. I mean at least for now, I wasn't going to buy one at all but I think I need one for those days where I just can't work out at work or go for a walk with the dogs.
So I am hoping that tomorrow I weigh in and I drop 2.4 pounds. I gave myself 35 days to lose 20 pounds which is basically 4 pounds a week. I lost 2 pounds over the weekend LAST weekend so I am hoping the same happens cause I'm behind! I need to loose 2.4 pounds by tomorrow! Otherwise the pressure is going to be on to loose more than 4 pounds the other weeks. I need to go to a calorie counter place because I am either not eating enough foods or indulding too much. We'll see....
That's it for today. I plan to get up semi early tomorrow and go for a long walk again with the dogs. Pray for me that I see 233 on that scale soon! I want to be OUT of the 230's already! God Bless.
The plan was to go home and walk the dogs. I was desperately looking forward to doing SOME sort of exercise. My husband called me when I was almost off work and asked me to stop by and grab some pork spare ribs. It's on my way home so I did. I got home, got the cooking going and changed into my sweats & Tshirt and was going to throw on my tennis shoes. My hubby was taking a shower when I got there and was calling me. I went into the bathroom and he was trying to shampoo Gabriel's hair but told me that his hand was killing him and didn't know why it was hurting so bad. He can't make a fist and the pain radiates to his back and arm if he moves a certain way. I just made him an appt for this morning. I've been worried about him lately. He was realllly tired the other day and he didn't know why. I was reading up on "arm" and "hand" pain on the internet and everything said "call your Dr. immediately as these are signs of a stroke" and now that I am putting 2 and 2 together I am getting more worried about him.
So, we were going to go to church and go soulwinning but by the time they got out of the shower and I was done cooking, it was 7:15pm and things start at 7pm so we just stuck it out at home. I didn't work out and we watched a movie. Alexis brought Cora in the house and she just laid on the couch between Sergio and Alexis....didn't look like she felt good. I could not hang watching the movie so I went to bed and later heard Sergio talking about Cora throwing up. She starting not to be able to hold her water and food down. I think she finally was starting to give up. Today, Serg called me and told me she died. I'm actually upset because I was REALLY hoping that she would live. Her symptoms just started on Sunday and it only took 3 days for her to die. Hate Parvo! It's so horrible.
So we are back to having our 2 dogs. Need to appreciate them and be good to them. They love us and are such babies.
On a lighter note, sheesh! I worked out at our work gym for the first time today. I did not come in early as I planned but tomorrow I come in early cause I want to leave early as scheduled and I am gonna REALLY try to be here early so I can get in my workout. Florence also wants to work out at lunch so I am gonna work out with her at lunch as well. I think working out will help my increasing appetite.I ate too many fruits and one too many tortillas. I overindulged on healthy foods too. Funny how that can happen. Today is the first day that I've felt like eating a Snickers. I think because of the stress of all this. Gonna go home and jog. I need it as a stress reliever. Weight this AM was not good. I was at 235.4 I think with 48% body fat. Not sure if my body is now fluctuating because I am off the hormone meds? Not really making a big deal out of it. My body and things are adjusting so I have to give it at least 3-4 more days. Throwing in the workouts will REALLY help.
I'm off to go home now. Till later. God Bless.
Post from 4/13/10
Ok so I am being lazy and just stating what "day" I am for my blog title for the day. I am usually in a hurry when writting on here. Even when I am on my lunch I'll start to work or do something else...anyway...so this will be a quick post. I am pretty busy at work and I feel like I have barely made a ding in my workload for the past week. I guess I can say I have not been as focused lately. I haven't really cared for working overtime although it would be nice because I have the work and I need the money.
I went home yesterday and didn't do anything because I went to my OB and he ended up taking out my IUD. He also took me off Provera which I am super scared about because that seemed to have helped with the crazy bleeding I was experiencing.
I felt hungry which I haven't felt in a while and I sorta had a headache. I started to take Metformin again because I felt that maybe since this has helped with my bleeding as well in the past and I'm off Provera it might regulate me a bit? Just a guess.
Weight this AM was 234.8 but my body fat went up to 48%. Not sure what's that all about?
That's it God Bless!
My poor Ugly Betty died on Saturday. I had two puppies born in November that we were sorta attached to from the liter of 8 Peanut had with my Baloo but Ugly Betty was going to my mother in law's house. She really gravitated to her when she came to visit even though she was such an ugly puppy. We really thought she was going to die because she was the runt and she was soo much smaller than the other dogs. She was short but stubby and such a gentle dog. She was adventurous which is what got her in trouble. She got out of our yard several times and didn't have all her parvo shots so she got parvo and went downhill quickly. We tried to save her but it was too late. She died on the way to the vet on Saturday afternoon. Now we are trying to make sure Cora stays healthy. She was showing parvo signs yesterday but we've been giving her antibiotics, pedialyte to keep her hydrated and a high caloric gel as a nutrition supplement as she won't eat much on her own. The vet said the key to getting them through Parvo is too keep them hydrated and their nutrition up. She looks MUCH better today and we are keeping a very close eye on her.
Weight Loss update - Day 3 of 35 (reminder, my goal is to loose 20 pounds in 35 days, not 33 as previously stated)
So weight loss related. I was very active all weekend and since making my decision to lose 20 pounds in 35 days I have really tried to scale back on the EVOO on my salads and the cheeses. I was creative this weekend and made myself some brocoli slaw meatball soup. I threw in some green beans and flavored it a bit using tomato paste, pepper and some sea salt. I usually wait until things are cooked to add sea salt. Anyway, had a weight drop of 2 pounds this weekend which was great! My body fat is at 47.5% again. It had gone up on Saturday then went back down but I think it's still .5% higher than it was Friday morning. Weight is at 235 now and can't wait to get to 229! I hope that with my increased workouts I will continue to drop weight like this! They were unintentional workouts too, just out with my dogs, out with my family being active. So here is a summary (I had to do this for myself):
Official start date: 3/30/10 - 244 pounds - 48.5% body fat
Weight on 4/03/10 - 239.6 - not sure body fat
Weight on 4/05/10 - 237.2 - 48%
Weight on 4/07/10 - 237.2 - 47%
Weight on 4/09/10 - 237 - 47%
Weight on 4/12/10 - 235 - 47.5%
Pounds left to loose before 5/14 = 18
Loss since start = 11 pounds
I think I am going to start setting monthly goals. My goal for the month is to loose 20 pounds. It's a bit unrealistic maybe, BUT with workouts I think that I can actually achieve this. I just need to put together a schedule with my new schedule. I was going to buy a treadmill but I am going to wait until I actually become more active. The workout room at work is apparantly not yet open but will be open on Monday! I spend ALOT of time here at work so I am scheduling two 20 minute worksouts on my breaks and 15 minutes of my lunch will be spend in there as well. I am just going to AT LEAST make that commitment till May 13th....which makes that 33 days!
I feel so fat though. It's funny cause one minute I feel slimmer and the next I get a glimpse of myself in a window reflection or a long mirror and feel like I am "doing this" in vain. I only started recently but my thinking is so much sacrifice for such a slow payoff. Need to work on this mentality and seek God for everything.
Today I have RU and Serg is going to Arizona to help his mom move. I need to purchase several things to keep me going which is a veggie peeler. I have no idea what happened to mine. I also need some glass containers. I hate heating stuff up in plastic containers. I was going to say I "need" a wood plastic bowl to mix my salad but that's not really a need and I have tons of bowls. I actually just made a really nice one available that's from Pier 1 imports. I was using it as a knick knack holder but it's now ready to be used.
This weekend I am also going to have to cook foods for the week. I am trying new recipes weekly. I am going to try and mix up 2-3 different types of foods throughout the week. I am going to make it basic and set it up so that I keep this thing do-able.
God Bless for now.My stats as of today.
Weight: 237
My scale BMI: 47% (started at 48.5%, then went down to 47.5% two days ago and now 47%). Only lost .2 pounds in 4 days :-(
When I first started to eat healthier...which was only one week ago I thought I was going to be able to start doing this....but I've had times of doubt a few times but only for quick seconds... I tell myself this is NOT temporary. I mean, this is a "healthier eating" like no other because my thinking is, this is the way I have to eat forever. Processed food is something my body can't process. All these years I've know that I should probably just eat healthy/organic but I've always said that I could not afford it. It's actually a lot cheaper for me! On saturday I cleaned out all my cupboards. I do have sugar and flour and stuff but that's for chuch baking/functions and my husband likes homemade cookies. I know later I can start to figure out what stuff is good for baking that I can have. Right now, my concentration is not what sweets I CAN eat or how I can prepare something sweet for me to eat. I am learning what FOODS to cook for myself and what snacks are do-able on my crazy schedule.
I went to an outdoor market where I can get fresh organic fruit and veggies for cheap. I got 2 eggplant, 6 zucchinis, 6 yellow squash, green onions, jalapenos, 6 cucumbers, tomatos, apricots, plums, grapes and a few other things for $11! Can't beat that. I grilled most of the veggies this weekend on the grill, brushed them with some EVOO and Balsamic vinaigrette and some organic seasonings and they are SUPER good.
I started to weigh myself. I wasn't at first, I guess I was skeptical that cutting flour and sugar but eating all this other stuff would help me to lose weight. Like all there other overweight people this is like my um-teenth attempt. Anyway, I weighed in all weekend at 239.6 and had been there since Friday. I was pretty active on Saturday, like all day and I finally saw some movement on the scale this morning. I am down to 237.2. I can't wait to get into the 220's again. I haven't seen them for a while. I don't think people will notice until I get down to about that much. When they weighed me at Dr. Thropay's office, with clothes and all, I weighed in at 246. That was Thurs, March 25th. A lot of water weight I'm sure but I'm feeling my belly go down. So I am promising to work in at least an hour of workouts per day. I'm walking on my breaks and when I get home I'll really try and sneak in a walk, take my poor doggies for a walk. It was pouring rain earlier but it's gone down. I need to find the darn treadmill in our building though.....it gets hot in this area and although we now have showers...I don't really have all that time. Anyway...I'm all over the place today.
My sister is coming today or tomorrow. She was IN Ensenada when the 7.2 earthquake hit yesterday and my mom and dad are super worried about her. She called and said her and her 3 boys where ok. Hopefully they are....Alani and I got on our knees last night and prayed that they got here safely.
God Bless. Be back later this week.
