Wow....time really does fly. Let's see I am 31 weeks today which means that I will "officially" be 8 months next week. I have a doctors appointment today and I am praying hard that I didn't gain any weight at all. I was there 2 weeks ago so if I did gain, the MOST I could gain was 1 pound. At the end of week one, I had lost 1.8 pounds but I over did it a few times. It is UNBELIEVEABLE how hungry I am sometimes. I told my hubby that NOW I can't wait till the time comes to have the baby. It's like time flies but can't come soon enough at the same time. I want myself back. I miss my regular clothes, my eating habits (or having CONTROL of my eating), my smaller feet, being able to see my feet, being able to walk for more than 20 minutes without having to sit down, um what else? Just not feeling so vunerable. I feel like such a weakling being pregnant. I want to get up and scrub and clean hard and I just can't. I can't smell fumes, I can't eat 2 flippen slices of wheat toast because my sugar goes sky high. That's another thing that's got me ready to cry. My sugars are just out of control. My insulin got adjusted and instead of going down THEY WENT UP. HOW is that possible?!!! UGH. So we'll see what Dr. Marshall says today.
You know why I got out of bed this morning? Because the baby woke me up. Yep, the baby that's not even here yet woke me up and KEPT me up last night. I was just telling my husband right now that I got up 10 times last night, 7 of them to go to the bathroom. Several times I resorted to sitting/laying on my couch just so I could sneak in some sleep. It's just unbelieveable the difference in this pregnancy. This has been WAY more on me than any pregnancy I think. I didn't start going through this getting up a million times drama till maybe 3 to 4 weeks before baby was due. All I got to say is that I am going to PRAY HARD for an easy labor. I am wondering if it's because we are having a boy. Oh and the comments about me looking "oh so big" and "you look like you're about to pop". Yep they're rolling in like tumble weeds. My husband told me to thank them when they said that. That's rude I think, but then again, they are being rude by saying that. Right? I got home and I looked in the mirror and said "I AM BIG!" (which I already knew) LOL.
So we went to the beach on Saturday and we had a really good time. As always this trip was not planned. It was a spur of the moment thing. We went out of breakfast then on the drive back home Alexis kept questioning us about "what we were going to do TODAY". She is like that, we do something and the next question is "so what's next"??? Always wondering what's on the "agenda". My husband said "go home and clean up" but we had already cleaned up. I had gotten up and washed dishes, so kitchen was clean, house was picked up and beds were done. So we talked in "code" and decided to go to the beach. I told him of a spot me and my best friend went to where there was not a lot of people and the water was super crisp and clean. It was past Bolsa Chica and the city ended up being Newport Beach. Parking was difficult but it was worth it. I made sandwiches and we packed fruit and drinks in the cooler, got our beach chairs, had the girls change into their swimsuits and out we headed. I got a little bit of a workout and Alani behaved...she was playing in the sand and would scrunch it in her hands and look at me in disbelief like "You're REALLY letting me get all dirty and roll around in this stuff"??? Sad to say but even though the beach is 4 miles away from here she's only been there a handful of times. We're already planning on our next trip there very soon. Possibly this weekend. This is a good way to get outta the house, not spend ANY money and truly enjoy the day and EVERYONE is happy.
Ok one more note - we got a call from that apartment managing place, the guy said they had an apartment managing position open in Downey which is right up our alley because we don't want to move that far from here because of Alexis school, and so he asked us to drive by it, then come in the next day to meet with him about it. We did, it was a long 1 hour talk/interview. The guy was funny and nice. BUT he told us at the end that he STILL had 3 more couples to interview and we ended up finding out that most of the properties he supervises are commercial. This is his ONLY residential type apartment he oversees SO he's being unusually picky. He asked us how soon we could move in and we said we had to give 30 day notice which he was like "uhhhhhh" (not likeing that answer very much). I can't just not give my landlord notice. The managers for that complex did that to him and he didn't like it very much so why should he expect someone else to do that to their current landlord? Anway, I leave it in God's hands. We were actually going to tell him we were NOT going to take it because #1 there is hardly ANY shrubbery around the complex #2 It's too......I dunno.....plain....I can't see myself living there with 3 kids. But we talked about it and we said that since we have no experience with managing we would not be able to be picky. We would need to take what we were offered, manage that for a year then be more demanding on what we wanted since we are going to prove that we are some darn good managers.
Alright....enough rambling....Alani is obsessed with Veggie Tales...and my T.V. in my room which is almost 10 years old...finally died....I was surprised it lasted this long. God Bless.....
I am praying about alot of things right now. I have to remind myself every minute of the day it seems like, that if God will's these things will happen. I have to accept God's decision if some things do not happen the way that I start to "dream" about them. Like ok on Monday me and my hunny went to talk with Ron at a apartment managing company about possibly managing a 40-80 unit complex. Why would I move my kids into an apartment? #1 - Free rent #2 - they pay up to $1500 TO YOU since my husband is handy and I would be able to probably stop working. I would LOVE it if my work allowed me to continue to work from home but I don't think that will happen. We will see - gotta have FAITH! The next thing going on right now, is Alexis is back from San Jose - this has been the worst BY FAR. She is almost 10 years old and the whole time she was there (3 weeks) she never went to church like she was supposed to, when she came back, I noticed she doesn't pray before she eats her meals, she was listening to Nel*ly Furt*ado's new CD, which the main song is called something like Promiscuous girl...My sister was sitting in my car telling me how this was her totally favorite song. I felt like choking her. It's like DO YOU NOT GET IT. I told my husband that she was listening to this stuff but not what the songs were called. He would of probably called my parents. The worst thing is they think that we are too strict with her and that she acts different when we are around. Well of course! We are her parents and we don't allow her to do/act bratty and do as she pleases. I didn't when I was a kid why should I let my kid do as she pleases. So I am still upset about that,ESPECIALLY because she misses "her life" in San Jose so very much. Oh well she'll have to get used to being back home real quick. All I know is I am never letting her go out there alone - EVER. My husband was right and I should of listened to him. He thought he would be the bad guy if he didn't let her go, and he probably would of, but it would of been for the best.
Anyway, other things I am praying for is my flippen weight to stop already. As of TODAY I am eating better, I had stopped taking my blood sugars regularly for like 3 weeks, and I know that this has been because I know all that crappy food will show up on my blood sugar monitor (when I poke my finger 1 hour after I eat). I was trippen and now I am up +34 pounds from when my pregnancy started. Soooo...the result. I look like I am about to give birth. Everyone is like "wow with your last pregnancy you were not this big" I looked at pics of me when I was about to give birth to Alani and I look bigger I think right now....and I still have 2.5 more months to go. I seriosly, do not want to gain, not even a pounds, so since the baby is 3 pounds 4oz right now at 29 weeks 2 days, he IS going to gain weight which means that I have to loose some. I know that it's not bad for obese women to loose some weight during pregnancy, as long as I am taking in all of my allowed calories, AND I do some workouts I will loose at least 5-6 pounds which will be pounds for baby. He's moving as I type this. I brougt a good lunch so I am gonna heat it up and grub. Ta ta and God Bless.
I always come to my blog but have no interest in updating it. Maybe it's because I don't think anyone is reading it. I forgot what I said to myself it's not for anyone else but for me. Funny how easily you forget things like that. I wanted to start writting all the little things Alani does now. She's almost 20 months old and I haven't documented anything. Like when she first starting talking, using the sippy cup etc. But I will look toward the future and start writting all the cute little things she says and does so I can tell her when she's older. Time flies. Alexis is almost 10! She's at her grandparents house until July 15th. She left to San Jose with my sister on 6/25 when Nancy came to visit for the weekend. I think mostly she came to get Alexis but that's ok. My husband is not too happy because they didn't take her to church on Sunday like they were supposed to.
So my pregnancy has been flying by. I will officially be in my 7th month as of Monday. Our neighbor and his wife had their baby last Friday or Saturday and they came home on Sunday or so..baby was crying her head off as I went to bed that night. I was thankful that my little one was not here yet. Everyone keeps saying "I bet you can't wait to have that baby, especially with this heat". I want to meet my little man but I can wait until due time which is the end of Sept. Just this past week we started to buy him some clothes and little things here and there because I don't think Alani's pink clothes will look very good on him. Plus my husband has a different take on what he wants him to wear. He doesn't want to dress him up like a dork he say's. So anyway, so far I have liked the 0-3 month clothes we have gotten. I even got really good deals on Ebay. Can't beat e-bay ya know. Alright well I need to get to work. I am working from home this Wednesday because traffic is supposed to be really bad today AND I could not get to bed early since everyone was lighting fireworks late! There was no way I was going to get up at 3am. I read a wonderful devotion this morning.....I wanted to post it. It's from Greg Laurie's newsletter I get during the week:
The Declaration of Dependence
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Having had the opportunity to travel around the world, let me say that I think America is the greatest country on Earth!
We are far from perfect. We have our many flaws. But we have so much to be thankful for as a nation.
Imagine what kind of world we would live in today if there had been no America. No one to turn back the rise of Nazis and their allies in World War II. No one to stand up against the tyranny of Communism over the years. No one to stand up for the small nations that cannot help themselves. Then there are the billions of dollars in aid we have sent around the world to help those in need.
Why has America been able to do all those things? Because we have a foundation that has taught us what right and wrong are, taught us there is a God who has given us His Word to guide us and taught us there is a responsibility that comes with His bounty.
We learn those things from the book our country was founded on: the Bible.
Thomas Jefferson is said to have written, "The Bible is the cornerstone for American liberty." Of Holy Scripture, Andrew Jackson said the Bible is "the rock on which our republic rests." Abraham Lincoln stated, "All the good Savior gave to the World was communicated through this Book. But for this Book we could not know right from wrong. All the things most desirable for man's welfare, here and hereafter, are to be found in it."
The Fourth of July is this week. As you know, our Founding Fathers framed a document we call the Declaration of Independence, authored by Thomas Jefferson and signed in 1776.
We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal. That they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable rights, that among these are Life, Liberty, and the pursuit of Happiness.
We often forget that in declaring independence from an earthly power, our forefathers made a direct declaration of dependence upon God Almighty. The closing words of this document declare: "With a firm reliance on the protection of divine Providence, we mutually pledge to each other our Lives, our Fortunes, and our sacred Honor."
So it's not only a "Declaration of Independence" from foreign tyranny. It's also the "Declaration of Dependence" on God Almighty.
God has blessed this great nation of ours over these past 200-plus years. We rightly sing "America, America, God shed His grace on thee . . . "
A symbol of our country and our liberty is the Statue of Liberty. Inscribed at the entrance to it are the words:
Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tossed to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!
Instead, we have more and more people who want to come in, searching for the "American Dream," searching for this happiness we speak of in our Declaration of Independence.
And as we have seen time and time again, it's still possible to come from another place to the United States and live the "American Dream." Hard work really can pay off and you can still succeed and prosper in this country.
But the question is, are we a happy people? Let me personalize it: Are you happy?
Some of the unhappiest people I know are those who are in the pursuit of happiness. Perhaps that is why philosopher Eric Hoffer wrote, "The search for happiness is one of the chief sources of unhappiness." Playwright George Bernard Shaw wrote, "There are two tragedies in life. One is not to get your heart's desire. The other is to get it."
In America, the accumulation of material goods is at an all-time high. But so is the number of people who feel an emptiness in their lives.
Forbes magazine devoted its 75th-anniversary issue to a single topic: "Why we feel so bad when we have it so good." Noting Americans live better then any other people on the planet, Forbes invited prominent observers of modern culture to speculate as to why we are "depressed," or in the words of editor James Michaels, "Why is this nation that marched so proudly into the 20th century slouching so dejectedly toward the third Millennium"? The articles in this special issue chronicled an alarming loss of values, absolutes and meaning in contemporary life.
Why is this? Abraham Lincoln answered this question many years ago.
We have forgotten God. We have forgotten the gracious Hand which preserved us in peace, and multiplied and enriched and strengthened us; and we have vainly imagined, in the deceitfulness of our hearts, that all these blessings were produced by some superior wisdom and virtue of our own.
President Lincoln was right. We have forgotten God. It's even more true today.
We have thrown God out of the classroom. We have thrown Him out of the courtroom, a judicial system built on Biblical truth. And we have done our best to throw Him out of modern culture.
We have, as the Bible says, "sown the wind, and reaped the whirlwind" (see Hosea 8:7 NKJV).
In spite of being a nation at peace and having a robust economy, we have "trouble in paradise." As many as 20 percent of Americans (54 million) will battle major depression in their lifetime. As many as 45 million Americans participate in drinking binges at least once a month.
There are 650,000 attempted suicides a year in our country. Every 17.2 minutes in America, someone kills themselves. Approximately 500,000 people received emergency-room treatment as a result of attempted suicide. There are more suicides than homicides, and the highest rate is among senior citizens. Teenage suicide has reached epidemic levels.
I read in a recent article on young people and suicide that the number of 10-14 year olds taking their lives has gone up dramatically since the early 1980s. According to a study by the American Association of Suicidology, up to 60 percent of high school students report having suicidal thoughts. The word that experts use over and over again to describe kids is "hopelessness."
And why is there this hopelessness? Because we have forgotten God.
How can this be? In our pursuit of "freedom," some have lost sight of the Creator who has given us the clear parameters to live by. And for many, that "freedom" and "pursuit of happiness" has led to bondage and despair.
On the wall of the Jefferson Memorial in Washington, D.C. are these words from Thomas Jefferson: "God who gave us life gave us liberty. Can the liberties of a nation be secure when we have removed a conviction that these liberties are the gift of God? Indeed I tremble for my country when I reflect that God is just, that His justice cannot sleep forever."
The answer for America's problems is not a political one. It is spiritual. We need to turn back to God. Why? Because the real problem is inside of us, and only God can change us!
A news reporter asked a person on the street, "Do you know what the two greatest problems in America are?" The man responded, "I don't know, and I don't care!" "Then you've got both of them!" was the abrupt reply.
We sing, "God bless America, land that I love, stand beside her, and guide her, through the night, with the light from above . . . " We are in that "night" in America right now, and we desperately need that "light" from above.
Not some nebulous, whatever-you-conceive-God-to-be spirituality. We need to turn back to the true and only God.
The same God our Founding Fathers invoked when they established this nation. The God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. The God who gave us Jesus Christ as His Son to die on the Cross in our place. The God who gave us the Bible as our guide and manual for living. The only God who can save America and us as individuals.
The happiness we all seek as Americans can be found not in the pursuit of it, but as the result of pursuing something else, or rather someone else. And that someone is God.
Scripture reminds us, "Happy are the people whose God is the Lord" (Psalm 144:15 NKJV).
May you have a happy and blessed Fourth of July!
