I am finally starting the cleanse! I had to get the book (and read it), the right ingredients which are really important for it's success and the right mindset. I decided to wait until after the holidays because it was just going to be too hard. My mom would of driven me absolutely nuts for one. I attempted to start yesterday but I did a bad job at preparing. I didn't drink my laxative tea the night before and I didn't drink it again in the morning so your system can get rid of all the extra extra junk in our body. Oh and I woke up with a migraine which went away with 2exedrins in the morning but the headache returned later while at church and that's when it hit me HARD!! I had to come home, take 2 more exedrins and eat something with them (can't take them on empty stomach). SO...in the longrun it was a good thing for me to start clean and the RIGHT way today.
I've thought about it alot and I am actually going to try and stay on this detox for over 10 days. Possibly 28 days or longer if my body is not telling me otherwise. I am going to document my daily feelings on here so they will vary from day to day I'm sure. I plan on starting my workouts soon too as soon as I am sure I'm not going to have to run to the bathroom.
I read a few journals of people that have done the cleanse and according to them they feel great after day 4. Day 1, 3 and 4 are supposed to be the hardest. I think that I will start my workouts after these days. I'm going to be home most of these days so we'll see how it goes. I can't wait to start and see a transformation in the way I feel and look. I am super excited about starting my healthy eating habits afterward too!
I weighed myself this morning and even though I had an idea of how much I weighed, it was still shocking. I weigh exactly what I thought I did and it's just nuts. I know I needed to see it for myself and this reassured my decision to move forward with this cleanse.
So today is New Year's Eve, I'm off work today and tomorrow and I am just going to enjoy my time with the kids and my husband and ring in the new year with hope and faith that this will be a better year for us. I pray for a wonderful year for you as well. God Bless.
Yep, I am actually taking out the trash..well not literally... I FINALLY settled on a cleanse and I was planning on starting it tomorrow but I don't have the things I need as of yet & I want to be 100000% prepared because I am not giving up half way through because I was missing something. Tomorrow is our Sunday School Christmas party and I was thinking "it's ok I don't have to eat" but I am going to have be practically attached to a toilet for the first 3 days. Let me tell you I CANNOT wait. My body feels absolutely miserable. I feel craptastic and I truly feel that before I can shed some weight I need to get rid of all the toxic stuff in my body. I seriously don't think I've felt as horrible as I do now. I've had migranes for DAYS now, my back is KILLING me and my sleep is absolutely HORRENDOUS. I wake up every hour on the hour. My body is screaming for me to help it and I'm coming to the rescue.
So this cleanse is for 7-10 days depending on if my body is done by the 7th day which I think I will need the full 10 days. The only issue with that is that 10 days from Saturday runs into Christmas and we'll be at my moms. I don't have to necessarily eat but I will be harrased non stop for "not eating" and I can totally hear my mom telling me how it's NOT healthy the cleanse is. I am a bit hesitant on waiting but I feel that this is urgent and I need to handle it ASAP!
More to come....God Bless
I have tons of thoughts in my head and I feel like I have to just type away. I need to do a cleanse! I've been online for hours trying to find one that is safe and suitable. My body is sluggish to the extreme and I NEED a cleanse for sure. There's this couple at my church that sell natural supplements but I always forget to ask how much cause you know with me that's what determines if I can do it or not.
My husband starts work again today PRAISE GOD! and so now he will be bringing in more money & we can actually buy healthy expensive foods again!! That's the first thing that came to my mind when he said "well....I go back to work tomorrow". He works for the carpenter's union so the jobs he works at are random and he never knows what he's going to be doing until he arrives at the jobsite (even though he is a Carpenter). He called me this morning to tell me he's going to be working on this big jobsite on 5 man made lakes where huge homes are built on. They are rebuilding their waterways or something and he gets to work IN THE WATER. He didn't sound excited in the least. He gets to wear the whole wet pants and boots and all that I suppose.
I come into the office to work once a week and I noticed that I can hardly get away from my desk. I feel extremely...how should I say this...timid and shy. But like really badly, almost like....what's that word...reclusive. I see people I know and I turn the other way so I don't have to talk to them. I'm finding that I am doing this at church now. The only reason I am still even talking to people is because I have my RU group of ladies. I am finding though that I am missing A LOT of church to the point where my husband will actually ask me "you going to church today"? which is really weird. I mean I am at church at least twice a week but thoughts of not going cross my mind at LEAST a dozen times. I change my mind about going or not going so many times before I actually step foot in that church building. Coming to work the ONE DAY my boss requires me to be here is now the same! I KNOW it's got to do with my weight and I can't wait to be rid of it. I don't think it's ever affected me this way. I actually feel sorry for myself. Not in a sympathetic sort of way, but sorry it's gotten to affect me this way. I'm not proud of who I have become and I can't wait to be myself again. I don't take pride in how I look and most of the time I am wearing really big clothes. I've NEVER been in a 2X and even though I do fit in a 1X (or XL) I steer away from them because you can see my fat stomach.
It looks like we are still going to my mom's for Christmas and my sister Nancy called me so I can bid on a treadmill for her!! It's local pick up only and she still doesn't really understand Ebay for some reason, so she's asking me to get it for her. Hopefully by the time we get there, she will have it and we can work out while I am there.
I need to stop feeling like there's all this pressure on me. I'm stressing myself out on lots of levels and I don't need to feel this way. This stress that I am creating for myself leads me to eat crap I feel will comfort me. Lauren, the teenager living with us is going to start going to her Dad's every weekend even though her Dad doesn't know that yet. He has cancer but looks to be feeling much better. He doesn't want her back, point blank but having her in my house is affecting my stress levels. She doesn't appreciate a lot of the things we are doing for her so I think she needs a bit of a reality check. Everything is harder with her there and once she does transition to being at home full time, it will be MUCH easier to do the things we need to do to lead a healthier lifestyle.
Hope you have a great day & God Bless!
