Soon very soon.......

I have not blogged for a while! It's been a combination of me getting super organized at home, My kids (and husband) being very needy, to new changes in where we serve at church (ministry wise)and last but not least to me not loosing weight. So I've prayed and prayed about this A lot. In the past, it has taken me about a year and a half to actually have the will power to loose the weight and stay focused but I don't feel like I have that this time around. My body is just tired all the time and I do not have the motivation to loose this extra extra weight. SO...my husband hurt himself at work and I went with him to the doctor to get checked out and while I was sitting there I saw the flyer I've seen multiple times on the Dr's desk. It reads "Optifast" and "Optislim". I looked into it significantly and decided Optifast is for ME! I know I know, A lot of people are against these liquid diets because some people gain the weight back once they go back to regular eating. I have A LOT more energy when I am thinner and I know for a fact that once I am done loosing these 80 pounds, looking at myself in the mirror will be motivation enough to STAY thin. So when I called early this month they said that the orientation was April 1st and I tried hard and heck to get in earlier because I was SOOO motivated! I wanted to get started then and it's been quite hard waiting for next week to come around. BUT I'm glad I had to wait because I had this entire month to focus and to realize how badly I needed this. I feel like right now, this is my only option. They teach you how to eat and best of all there is psych classes you have to take. I meet once a week which is fabulous and you get evaluated by the Dr. once a week which is what will help me feel at ease that my body is getting the nutrition it needs daily. My insurance covers most of it but I still have to pay about $400 a month out of pocket which is expensive but that's how much I would be spending on food anyway. I will have my daily foods. I won't be stressed about eating the wrong thing because I will have my foods with me at all times.

The ladies conference at my church is coming soon and I need to mentally prepare for that because everyone goes out to eat together and I know the one thing that is going to suck is everyone bugging me about "not eating". The same goes for our church banquet. It's May 2nd and we sit at a table and eat and I won't be eating there! So I will have to improvise. I am sure that by then I will have gotten the hang of how to manuever my way around those types of situations. It will take about 4 months approx. for me to loose those 80 pounds. I hope it will be less time but that's about how long I think it's going to take me. I am going to work out extra hard to loose it faster (at the gym) but I'm not going to push it to the extreme.

Anyway, that's next Tuesday and I will be getting started on 4/2! Can't wait! God Bless.