Ok so I am FINALLY back down to 213. I was about to say "sheesh, took me long enough" but it was only 4 days. I ate crappy on Monday. I have good healthy food for the weekend. I get off at 11:30 today so I am going to go to the store and buy lots and lots more veggies and fruits. Last night I had a peice of a hershey bar and some Vitamin D milk. Vitamin D milk tastes like cream to me now. I have some soy milk in my cabinet and I am thinking of trying it. I bought some salted soy nuts the other day and they are so the bomb. I ate a little too many though. I went to Curves on my lunch yesterday and got a pretty good workout. So I think I am going to do Curves 2 or 3 times a week. Laura is starting Phase II Lindora on Monday and she's going to want to start walking again...BUT I think I am going to continue my bike riding and Curves. If it does not get too cold, what I can do is continue to take my break and do my bike riding AND walk with Laura during lunch. That would be a pretty good workout. So we'll see how it works out. I need to draft a plan and stick to it. I am SO close to being under 200...I know I can do it by the end of January. That's going to be my new goal. Be under 200 by Februaty 1st which would be a 3 pounds weight loss per week. I think VERY doable! That's about 1 pound every other day, or .4 pounds per day. see these short term goals work for me. Gotta keep reminding myself of that. Wow that makes me feel good. Ok so here's to 2006! I truly believe that God will help me be at my goal weight by April...even if it was May. I just want to be at goal weight by the summer. I can't wait!
Here is some inspiration!
The Freedom of Choice
One of the wonderful gifts we have received from the Creator is the freedom to choose. It is fascinating to see each day how the choices we make affect us and those around us. We always have the freedom to make a choice that can lead us to heartache. Or we can choose a way that will lead us to triumph. In the realm of food and diet, you have been given the freedom to choose between the bad, the better, and the best. Be blessed in having the knowledge of what the best foods are for your body, and be grateful that with the Maker's help, you have been able to choose the best on a regular basis.
Create a Best List
Write down two areas of your life outside of your diet that you feel you can improve on. Create three categories for each area: the bad, the better, and the best. Make lists under each category heading of choices you've made, finishing with "the best." Keep the list and work on how to keep yourself from selecting from the bad list and how to work toward the best choice for each area.
May God bless you and the coming new year!
MY MOM AND ALEXIS in PIC . Ok so I bought this bread/tortilla looking thing called Lavash (LIGHT) and was scared to put it in my mouth..but I did and when it hit my taste buds, they approved. For 1oz this delish food has NO FAT, 45 Calories and 5 carbs AND only $1.99 for 12 servings. Yep...so I went and got egg beaters, some 2% American cheese, this morning I made some scrambled egg beaters, threw half a slice of american cheese, lightly toasted my Lavash and OH MY SOUL....so fricken good...so good my eyes practically rolled back. So this is my new breakfast till my Lavash is gone. It stays good for 4-5 days at room temp. 7-14 days Refrigerated...hmm so I will need to stick it in the fridge or I will be tempted to eat it all within the week. I was even thinking I can make me some pizza (low fat of course)....the possibilities are endless...it's white flour though and I know that's not the healthiest but sometimes I don't care if it's not "nutritious"..I just want some good food ya know.
I am learning how to improvise as well. Yesterday was my husband's birthday so I had to make him a good dinner. It was not a GREAT dinner but he loves homemade Tacos..we are hispanic and all this guy likes is mexican food. So I made him Chicken Tacos, fried the tortilla shells, shreded cheese (motzerella), cut lettuce, onion, tomatos, made fresh red salsa (spicy!) and some mexican sopa (soup). Instead of frying my tortillas I just warmed them up, I had also baked fresh beans, so I served myself about a cup of beans and had two HUGE tacos...I put lotsa chicken in it (boiled the chicken). I did add some cheese since it was skim milk motzerella. This morning I was down a pound AND....I had a slice of cake.. I also made him a cake and he loved it! Alexis helped me decorate it and we went a little wacky with the decorating but overall it was great. Anyway, I am going to Curves on my lunch because I didn't bring my bike AGAIN and I don't want to go walking. I work in a more upscale area so I am curious to see how these ladies will react to me being there. Anyway we will see. I will post photos of the cake tomorrow. I forgot my camera.
MMMMMM my 30th Birthday cake...looks good huh? I actually look a little thinner in this picture. Man I choose the craziest time to start to loose weight and it has proved to be a challenge. I know that God inspired me to start on 11/2/05 because #1 - It was going to be the holidays and I WOULD of gained anywhere from 7-10 pounds ~ I truly do believe that. #2 - I was sick (bronchitis) and working out would be a challenge BUT I still lost 25 pounds. I give ALL the glory to God. He was certainly the one that has given me any and all the strength to do what I have so far. I know that he wanted me to realize that even with these obstacles in place, I could STILL do this. It's not only about weight loss. It's about my spiritual walk. There are going to be obstacles ALWAYS, but I can do it. I can get to know and love him more than I already do. My heart is warm and I truly feel his hand over me, especially right this minute. I love him SO MUCH for just everything he has done for us and in us. I need to be more specific in my prayers. I don't like to ask him for help on many things, but I know that he wants to be our best friend (he wants us to bug him)!! He wants us to ask him for help and so I will continue to do so.
So we went to my parents house in San Jose for Christmas and it was a great one. I planned on leading my sisters and brother to the Lord but I knew that they were not ready. They are not open to accepting Christ right now and it would be one of those situations where I went through the plan of salvation with them and not mean it. So it's a work in progress. My parents got saved the day after Thanksgiving and now when I talk about God & the lessons I learn from the bible and church sermons they listen intently. I can see that God is already working in them. Praise the Lord!!! I got wonderful gifts that I did not expect at all. It really really is about giving. I enjoy seeing their faces when they open their gifts. I wish my sister Lorena would of been around more but she had things to do. I need to call her more often and stay in touch with her. She needs a sister and a friend. I know that I need to do that more with her...I saw that this weekend.
I still haven't taken my side profile pics. I need to take the time to do that..I am sorta embarrased though. Even if I don't post them just yet, I need to do it. Today I promise to start. I did gain a couple of pounds from my eating. BUT, I don't regret it. I didn't eat THAT badly but I did not plan ahead and there was NO healthy food really that I wanted to prepare. I will work on getting the extra weight off today, tomorrow and Friday and then continue with weight loss from there. I brought my work out clothes to work today but Laura has not been motivated to walk again as of yet. I was not either yesterday but I will walk today, even if I go alone. I like riding my bike MUCH better but the bike rack is off the truck and I didn't ask my hubby to put it back on. I will tonight though. I need to continue to work out during lunch because I don't seem to do it when I get home. I need to think about Curves too. I am paying them $39 a month and not working out there much. I NEED to schedule in a routine, I get preoccupied at home. I use the excuse that I have a million things to do at home and CAN'T take the time to work out, and I DO have a million things to do but if I use that as an excuse all the time I will be fat in no time after I hit my goal weight.
You know what I was thinking about just now (yes again), that once I am at goal weight I will be able to indulge a little and just work out to get rid of the extra colories and fat.....can't wait. I actually set a goal data on FitDay of 4/12/05 I don't know what made me pick that date but I did. Since that is my goal date I am supposed to loose 2.53 lbs a week. I think that this is very much do-able. Anyway...gotta get to work. I need to look at the Hungrygirl website. I am going to try the Tofu Shritake Noodles today..gotta go get them..the happen to sell them at this nutritional store right off the 101 Freeway. :-)
Sunday morning we will unwrap our Christmas presents, but eventually the novelty of it all will wear off. The present that was once so precious to you will end up stuffed in the closet or handed off to someone else. A newer version of your latest gadget will arrive that has more megapixels, or is smaller, or faster, or has better battery life. In time, your Christmas gifts will mostly be forgotten. But God has given us the ultimate gift—the gift of His Son Jesus Christ.
Don't miss Christmas this year. As Watts and Handel once wrote, "Let ev'ry heart prepare Him room."
Well I am really trying to prepare myself for Christmas, my eating habits and working out. We are going to my parents again and being in that happy atmosphere just makes me want to eat, but this time I promise to indulge on ONE meal a day for two days. By indulge I don't mean a complete pig out but I will have Tamales and the fixings but I am not going to eat to the point where I want to throw up (like I used to). I AM going to use my sisters eliptical machine and since at this mornings weigh in I was ALMOST in my 213's I am not gonna blow that. I have 3 more days to loose one pound and I know I can do that but can I stay 212? Yes I can! It's so totally do-able.
Anyway, I am typing this because I want to make myself accountable. I don't want to come back here on Monday and read this and shake my head in shame. For Thanksgiving it's like I programmed my mind a day before that it was ok to indulge the whole weekend. I was 221 on Thanksgiving and now I am 214 (almost 213) so that's 7 almost 8 pounds since then. I could of done so much better but I have been eating crappy 3 out of the 4 weekends...so I gain 1, 2 even 3 pounds by Mondays's, I know it's mostly water weight on some weekend because of all the salt but it still takes me 3 to 4 days to get rid of that weekend weight gain. I can use the weekends to loose and not just maintain or worst GAIN.
I brought my bike to work today so I plan on doing that. Laura and I haven't gone walking at all this week and the only day I rode my bike this week was Monday. I took a short walk yesterday after my sucky lunch so today I am taking my lunch at 10am and going for a 3 mile ride. That should work well. I think I definitely will be 212 by Saturday if not lower. Ok well today is probably my last day training which will be nice because I will have my space back!
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I got my Cooking Light magazine yesterday and there are so many yummy recipes in there. I think I might try a few while I am gone.
Ok off to eat my breakfast but read below...this is something we should all think about.
No Room in the Inn
"She brought forth her firstborn Son, and wrapped Him in swaddling cloths, and laid Him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn."
Luke 27
In these days of modern technology, we never miss a thing with TiVo, voice mail, DVD recorders, and camera phones. But even though our toys keep us from missing a phone call, they can also cause us to miss the real reason for the holiday season. You can watch Christmas disappear in front of your eyes in a heap of shredded wrapping paper, and find yourself saying, "I was so busy shopping, so busy attending this, going to that, that I think I actually missed the point of Christmas."
It might be surprising to know that the majority of people missed the very first Christmas as well. People just carried on with business as usual, paying no attention to what was happening just a few feet away. In Luke chapter 2, we are introduced to an innkeeper who had no time for Christmas. In this familiar story, Mary and Joseph came to the innkeeper for a room, but because his inn was full, he turned them away. The only place to which he referred this young pregnant woman and her husband was a stable, a cold, dark, and damp stable—which was more than likely a cave. He was too preoccupied with other things to make the time for Christmas.
There are people like this in the world today. They don't necessarily oppose or hate God outright. They are simply preoccupied. God and spiritual things do not concern them. Their interests lie more in what can immediately satisfy their own physical needs. The innkeeper was too busy to make room in the inn for the soon coming Messiah.
Let me ask you this: have you made room for Jesus this Christmas? If not, there is still time to refocus your holidays and make room for Christ this Christmas.
Look Alexis has braces! She thinks they are funny now but I think the effect will wear off soon. She has to have them on for 3 whole years, maybe 2 1/2 but most likely 3. I was doing so great last week and I am convinced that fish is what helps me loose weight. I am up a little in weight but that was because I had fajitas, refried beans and a little bit of spanish rice AND 4 tortillas for dinner Monday night. I am back down though. Now my goal is to get down to 212 by Friday or Saturday. I was OK on the weekend BUT I did give in to a few pieces of Godiva Chocolate and at the Christmas party there was NO healthy choices at all. So I ate some, but did not do as much damage as I could of. I indulged on sweets to much though. I LOVE pumpkin cheesecake and someone brought 3 of them. I stayed to help clean up because we had it at one of our Christian couples house (nice huge house) and she kept saying "take this, take that, we don't eat sweets" so I took a pie and a diet coke for the weekend since I was out at home. I had a slice on Monday...I shouldn't have but I was too hungry then I told myself I would work it off and didn't since we were at the Orthodontist for a while.
Oh my best friend Falisa, Vivian and my husband threw me a surprise Birthday party on Saturday!!! I was really touched and relieved. Relieved because now I know my husband is not up to any funny business. He was acting weird and very secretive on Saturday, we were supposed to go to Dave and Buster's and ended up in the Pizza Hut parking lot having some pizza for lunch. He "changed his mind" about going to Dave and Busters after he rushed me out of the house using the excuse of him being SOOO bitterly bored that he HAD to get outta the house. So I was like "ok ok ok fine let's get ready to go then...sheesh" I mean I seriously had NO IDEA. I was complaining about how messy my desk looked as I walked in the back door and then heard "SURPRISE"!!! The first thing that came to my mind was "OH no! What did my house look like when they came in!" Had I vaccumed? Was my bathroom clean? Was there stuff just laying aorund? Then I was happy, I let it go. Oh well they were in there already. I told my husband "YOU SHOULD OF TOLD ME SO I COULD OF CLEANED MY HOUSE BETTER"!!! He just laughed. So anyway, my camera was dead so I didn't even take 1 picture! But Falisa did so I am going to have to bug her about giving me some. I got great gifts. This is the first time I EVER have a Birthday Party...EVER...my birthday is on December 26th and of course it's because Christ's birthday is on the 25th and that's more important but I would like to have had a June birthday or something...celebrate in the summer...totally separate from any other holiday. Sure my mom would buy me a cake and give me "a big and more expensive present" for Christmas AND my birthday (which I totally hated) but have come to accept it. Of all people my husband SO totally feels my pain. His birthday is on December 28th. LOL.
Ok well I am blabering, I bought some Tilapia fish yesterday and big huge thing of mixed green salad at Costco and that's going to be my lunch and dinner all week. With exercise, healthy eating and most importantly my walk with God, He will help me be successful in meeting my goal of 212 this week.
"And she shall bring forth a son, and thou shalt call his name JESUS: for he shall save his people from their sins."
Matthew 1:21
At night I usually like to eat a small something, like 5 oz of 2% milk and a few regular M&M's (that's if I have had a GREAT eating day) or usually some whole wheat cereal with a little milk. That's my treat. But since I have been really trying hard this week to reach my 4 pound loss I was good last night and skipped the snack. I LOVE milk and one of the things that has sucked about my healthy eating is not drinking as much milk as I used to. I know that I can still drink some but my mentality is that if I can't have A LOT then I won't have any. I have gradually come to the grips of having SOME...and so far I have been able to handle it. The scale this morning told me that it was a good thing. In fact I am ALMOST in the 214's. So bike riding and eating salmon pretty much all week has helped me get out of what I think was a plateau. I love fish I just get lots of silly comments from my hubby and my daughter. When I cook it, my husband opens all the doors and windows like the house just go fumigated or something. He doesn't complain but still...Even my diet partner Laura doesn't like fish, not even shrimp! My husband even likes shrimp! I plan on eating a different type of fish like Telapia (spelling?) next week. I will marinate and prepare it differently so I don't get tired of it. I can actually say that I am tired of chicken. I like beef, but I don't LOVE it...and I just don't think it's as healthy as the others right? I dunno.
Tonight is going to be a challenge as it's my Sunday school class Christmas party (my bible study class) but I have worked hard ALL week and I am not gonna blow it. I just hope there are options and not just fried food or cheese on EVERYTHING ya know (I love cheese)! I don't want to have to sit there and pick it off. When I get to my goal weight I won't have to do these irritating things but right now I am on this weight loss mission and I need to LOOSE and not MAINTAIN. Some people struggle with maintaining but I don't think I will have much of a problem. If I eat badly, I am just gonna have to step it out on my workout for that day.
I just got back from my bike ride and I am surprised that when I get off I still have jello legs. As I walk to the building doors (with the audience watching) I feel like I am gliding and like I have no legs. Eventually I start to feel them again but once I sit down at my desk I have to make myself get up to go to the bathroom or get water. The lazyness kicks in.
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I am training this week so I will need to make sure I plan my meals on Fitday right when I get here and if I have a jornal entry I need to get to crackin' when I get here as well. Ok I will be back Monday to report my weight loss from the weekend. I will take pics and post them. I am posting a picture of my pudgy body a little later today ;-)
So is it bad to want to make a few bucks by adding advertising stuff to a blog? I dunno. I see so many other blogs with stuff so I decided to add one or two to mine..I don't think anybody actually reads my blog but if you do leave me a comment. It would be nice to know. Anyway, my scale actually went down to 215.8 but for some reason I didn't think it was accurate so I weighed again and it said 216. I ended up going back for a bike ride yesterday around 11ish (AM) as it was WAY too cold to ride at 7:30am. So today I am spending my entire lunchtime on my bike.
Ok so I bring my bike to work and people look at me like "Is this girl actually bringing her bike, unloading it off bike rack, and riding it on her break"? When I return from my bike ride there is almost always a crowd of at least 3 to 4 people smoking and they all stare at me while I put my bike back on the bike rack and as I proceed to walk past them (and try to act as if my legs don't feel like jello) I hear comments like "That is SUCH a great idea!!". It makes me feel good that I am actually TRYING. You know how it's like "Eating season" right now? Alot of people look at me like "Ok why are you reminding me about being healthy and working out!! CRUD!!, can't I just enjoy the holidays and eat like a pig"!! Yes, I get all of that from the look on someone's face. I think I can read people pretty well...and that's what I read and I'm sticking to it!
I also know that eating right is not going to melt away this fat. I need to work it off. I have been planning really great meals and keeping my fat intake very low (not more than 25 grams of fat).
I told one of my co-workers how much I weighed and she said I didn't look like it. But I don't think anyone will actually tell someone "yeah you look about 216" So...it's out there. The only reason I told her was because I am not planning on staying at 216 for long...actually...I don't plan on staying over 200 for very long. I can't wait till I see 199...ahh... I was 218 when Laura left for her cruise (my weight loss partner at work) and I want to be 214 when she gets back. I want to give her a good report. I care what she thinks. She is doing great as well and she was really going to try hard to maintain her weight if not loose while on this cruise. You can really see the weight loss on her and people are constantly complimenting her. I have gotten a few compliments myself...but when you are so overweight you tend to not accept the compliments well. I am not satisfied yet at the weight I am at so although they are a bit motivating, they are not really.....um...meaningful I guess is the word.
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Yesterday instead of going to Kaiser I went to my Orthodontist appointment. It is going to cost me like $2000 bucks...I would have to pay in installments and I would pay $76 a month. So at the end of January is when I will be getting my braces. I have a crossbite apparantly and so I will have to wear rubber bands so that my lower teeth open up my top teeth...I had never realized it. It's weird now that I know. Surgery is the only thing that can correct it 100% but I am not getting surgery so hopefully the braces will correct it. The reason for getting braces was to have nice straight teeth not fix a crossbite I didn't even know I had. Weird that none of dentists ever mentioned this to me. Anyway I wanted to get them put on right away (like next week) but my husband was like "whoa whoa whoa can you wait till the end of January while we are back on our feet and recovered from Christmas"? I was a little peeved I must admit but I realized I was being a pouty baby and quickly got over it (took me about an hour). I have been seeing these "vitual models" for a while and thought "why not get my own"? So I did and I am posting my BEFORE and After pic (virtual model of course)! I do plan on posting actuals soon though. I am going to start taking pics weekly.
Lost another pound with no working out. I AM glad that I am loosing weight but mad because I am not working out. That one pound could of been 2 or 3. I am also mad because I am not getting better health wise. I read that some herb called Myrtle was good for bronchitis, so I am going to try and find a health food store or herb spot that carries it. I need SOMETHING!! I have been waking up with a terrible headache and a super sore throat all week and I am SO SUPER SICK OF IT. Today I woke my husband up at 4:00am and asked him to get my bike from the garage and put it on my truck cause I AM going bike riding today on my break and lunch break. I have not brought my bike to work all week because I was waiting to get better, but it's just not happenin'. I wore warm clothes, brought my gloves and ear plugs...because yes I still have an ear infection. It's like what the??? Ugh! I am ready to scream, seriously. It's been a LOOOONG 2 months almost and here I am still sick.
Anyway, I made Alexis an appointment to get her braces on Monday. I can't believe it! I also have a consultation today to see how much of my money they need to get my teeth perfectly straight. They are not bad now but I want to have a nice beautiful smile so I might go for it. I had already gotten a quote from another Orthodontist but he wants $5000 for the invisiline. Um...no I don't have $5K. So for Alexis this other place is WAY cheaper and with my insurance kicking in I only have to pay a little over 2K for her braces but she has to have them for 2 1/2 years. She has beautiful nice teeth and they are straight BUT she has a large overbite. She doesn't look like a dork ya know?...but it makes her teeth look bigger or something so I might as well nip that in the butt and get it done before it costs me more moola that I don't have. I have to finance the 2K as it is but the payments will only be $80 a month. Now that she is selling candy to pay for her school tuition, I think I can actaully afford $80 a month. When I get my taxes I will probably pay that down as well. When she gets her braces I will take a pic and post it. She's scared...she should be!....she's only 9. So my consultation is today at 4pm but I want to go to Kaiser as well and get my ear checked out so if they can get me in today then my ortho appt. will need to get rescheduled. Alexis is singing today for the school play so we have to be at church tonight by 6:40. I think that gives me plenty of time to go to my Ortho or Kaiser appt., go home & shower, make something for dinner and fly out the door. Story of my life.
Bible Reading: We are on Luke chapter 5. I love that chapter, it's so good. Even though we have read thorough a lot of Luke in church, I still love to hear how Jesus spoke with such authority. I mean He was the Son of God so why shouldn't He speak with authority?? Can you imagine being there in His presence??!!! Wow....it gives me butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it. How blessed those people where to be in His presence!! He is so good to us. We are going to get together and pray before the New Year...2 of my close friends and me and my hubby.. My friend sent me this verse that almost brought me to tears....
"Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it WILL be done for you by my Father in heaven. For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them." (Matthew 18:19-20) Thank you Jesus!
As I struggle with the things in my life I go to this verse and makes me realize that whatever I am going through it's for a reason....read on...
Everyone goes through hardship. But for the child of God, whatever comes into our lives comes first through the grid of God's plan and purpose for us.
"For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren." — Romans 8:29
Happy Monday! Whew well I did ok this weekend. Didn't get to work out as much as I wanted but that's ok. I did a lot of stuff around the house and got to spend time with the fam. It was nice. I had a good breakfast on Saturday and tried to keep it low in everything. The outcome of the weekend was a one pound loss so I can't complain....only 52 more pounds to go LOL.
Actually I was talking to my hubby the other day and he was asking me not to loose that much weight. I wondered why? Is is because he truly does not think that I would look good that thin OR is he scared that I won't love him if I get that thin? Not sure. So for now I am upping my goal weight to 175. I think once I am there I will be able to tell if I do need to go down 10 more pounds. I think that he might be right. We will see.
So I am trying something new, I am adding more fruits to my diet. I am wondering what this will do. I hardly eat fruits but I think my immune system needs it. So I brought in a pear, a green apple and a banana. I think the banana might not get eaten today though. It is LARGE and in charge and when I plugged it into FitDay.com it said it had 34 carbs. Those are good carbs though. Like I said, I think I am just gonna see if I still loose and add more fruits as I go. Laura my walking buddy at work is gone for the week, on a cruise so I will need to keep up with my lunch workout. I didn't bring my bike today cause it was in the garage so I am bringing it tomorrow and working out twice on it. Once at 7:30 and again at 10:30. 4 miles total. Then going to Curves after work starting on Wednesday. Can't do Curves till Wed. cause Alexis has a load of See's chocolates she needs to sell before Thursday. 3 of those boxes will pay for her tuition so we need to get a move on. My money is not looking very good for the week. We have to be super good. I spend about $75 a week on gas. Hopefully we will be ok. I was tempted on waiting to tithe till next week but when I mentioned it to my husband he looked at me like I was nuts. Wait? wait for what? The devil brain washes me sometimes...sad to admit. I am glad my husband is faithful and knows that we still need to give God his 10% and some.
I ran into some of the kids from the bus ministry after the woman's service (we had separate services yesterday, men/women) and they all hugged me. It was a nice feeling that they actually like me!! I bought a big box of chocolates last weekend and plan on bribeing them with it next week when I see them again.
Well I guess I better get to work. I hope this is a slow week so I can concentrate on bible reading, listening to sermons and reading up on healthy eats, menu planning and reading inspirational blogs that will help me meet my week loss goal of 4 pounds :-)
Not If, but When
My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.
— James 1:2-
It's raining today. Totally did not expect that. I realized last night that I have not watched TV all week. Maybe it's cause I don't have any cable anymore. When we moved into to our house the cable was already hooked up. I never got a bill. God convicted us quite a bit on gettin' the free cable and we thought several times about just calling them to come and hook it up legitly ya know..but they beat us to it LOL...I guess someone near by moved in and they got their cable hooked up and disconnected everyone that was not on their "list" of paying customers. It was a relief. I have been meaning to call but we do hardly watch TV anymore. It's just so raw nowadays. It's like the commercials are crazy! They'll be some naked chick or someone making out and you watch it thinking "what are the trying to sell"? and it will end up being a gum or deodorant commercial. What the?? My daughter does miss watching Animal Planet, she was getting addicted to that show though so she has been reading A LOT. Anytime she's not running around doing something for me, she will lay on her bed and read. ;-) ANYWAY, the point was, I did not know it was going to rain because I didn't watch the news. BUT I still brought my bike. My hubby put on the bike rack and my Specialized bike (that I had to buy on Lay-away, yes they still have such a thing called lay-away). He put air in the tires cause it had been THAT long since I last used it. I made him put it in the house overnight because even though the bike rack has a lock, I didn't feel comfortable leaving my expensive bike out on the streets of Long Beach. We don't live in a bad neighborhood, but still.
OK so I didn't stick to the original I am gonna work out for 50 hours a day plan (ok 2 hours a day) because I have been TIRED...so I have gone home, cleaned, cooked and nap time instead of work out time. But that's ok, I need to rest. Last night as my husband was begging me to stay up with him to wrap presents I broke it down to him, I sleep 6 hours Monday through Friday (from 9pm if I am lucky to 3am), he gets to wake up 2 hours later which means he gets 10 WHOLE hours more of sleep. WHOA! Which also means that he get a whole day and a half more of sleep that I do! What? After he heard my little bell go off in my head, he was like "ok ok ok, go to sleep baby". That's what I thought.
Ok so back on subject, I am going on my bike ride today, fo sho' at 7:30. It stopped raining and hopefully it will stay this way but it's only 5:58 right now so we will see. I bought salmon steaks yesterday, a HUGE thing of yummy salad mix, some grilled ready to eat chicken, brought some pineapple for desert and my non-fat Bernstein's salad dressing which is delish (seriously it is and I hate low-fat low carb whatever dressings). Ok I am off to enter my food and execercise for the day on FITDAY.com. Oh Sarah at work got saved yesterday & Connit got saved on Wednesday, praise God!...I have to write about that here too...tomorrow...
James 1:5 says, "If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him." Or, as another translation puts it, "If you need wisdom—if you want to know what God wants you to do—ask him, and he will gladly tell you. He will not resent your asking" (NLT).
I am having the hardest time getting off my butt this week. I was supposed to go home and workout but I didn't even entertain the idea once I got home. I was supposed to start walking with my co-worker as of Monday but did not because of something...I think she had to do something. Anyway, I feel like I am clinging to being sick. Like I am still using that as an excuse not to workout. I feel better, I still have an ear infection but I AM better. I can breathe at least ya know? I did actually bring back my workout clothes to work so I AM going to go for a walk today. If Laura comes with me cool and if she does not I have my music I can listen to. I have been listening to the Hillsong CD and it's really moved me in ways that are undescribable right now.
I looked at the calendar this morning to see how long I actually had till Christmas came around and it looks like I have 18 days to loose 13 pounds. My goal was to be at 205 by then but that's not looking too good. That means that I would have to loose approximately .7 pounds a day. Not very do-able.
Well...(thinking hard).....if I work out for 2 hours a day it probably is. Hmmm? Should I challenge myself? Can I do it? I really think I can! I only consume about 850 calories a day. I don't starve myself AT ALL but I just stick to really low calorie, low fat and low carb foods. So if I throw in 2 hours of working out, I can actually burn what I am eating and use some of my stored fat for energy. I am such a wacko sometimes. Now I am motivated! I knew that this blog would come in handy ;-) It's on. I am challenging myself to get as close to 205 if not 205 by 12/24/05. Ok so I need to plan my workout. It can't be boring I know that...ok here is the plan:
7:30 AM - Bike Ride 3 miles - 30 minutes
10:30 AM - Race Walk with Laura (or alone) 2 Miles (30 minutes)
4:00 PM - Eliptical Machine - 30 minutes
4:30 PM - Bike Ride - 30 Minutes
"I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."
Philippians 4:13
Ok so it's Monday and I do want to scream cause I just read my Friday post. It was SO cold this morning and I had to wash my hair. I knew I should of done it last night but I was just too tired. Man I zonked out too! It probably took me all of one minute to fall asleep. I woke up Saturday morning feeling slimmer (yeah you can actually feel it) and so I weighed myself, I hit a new all time low of 218 which felt pretty darn good....then I go and mess it up by thinking that I have a free weekend. By that I mean that I can just eat badly because it's the weekend. My brain's excuse was "I am feeling better and I will be able to work out this week and can just burn it off real quick". Um...not my excuse, but my brain's. I was not up too much this morning and I am confident I can get it off by tomorrow or Tuesday. I am 5 pounds away from being the weight that I was before I got pregnant with my 1 year old. It will be nice to see what it feels like to be "back to normal" after a whole year. I could of been there a long time ago, but I was too into my Alani. She is so flippen adorable and we waited for God to give her to us for some time so I had to enjoy her (and food) LOL.
So I am cracking the whip on myself on weekends. No cheating. The ONLY time I will be allowed to "enjoy" a meal is either Friday or Saturday night OR Saturday or Sunday morning. Ya know, have a nice juicy dinner OR yummy breakfast.
Christmas is right around the corner and I still have some shopping to do, I have to wait for some $$ to roll in cause I am fresh out of the $$skrilla$$. I think we bought Alani too many toys. Sergio has really been spoiling her lately and I have been talking to him about NOT spoiling her so much, but he's been laughing it off like it's funny. If he wants to continue to spoil her I will have to hope that the future 2 year old tantrums she throws in public are when she is with him and I am nowhere in sight. I am sure that Alani has plenty of these tantrums in store for me so I will need to have a serious talk with "DA-DEE". That's what she says ALLLL day long, back to back to back to back. DA-DEE!
Monday I am gonna look at the title of this post and scream cause it's MONDAY! The weekends pass by so quickly. Sheesh. Today has been one of those Ho Hum days...like...I dunno...I feel better..but still..sorta depressed, irritated, not motivated, and a bunch of other undescribeable things. Maybe it's the weather. But I like this weather! So who knows. I am just being a weirdo I guess. I was not going to post but thought maybe this would make me feel better. I am off in an hour so maybe once I walk out the door my mood will change.
I just realized I have my notary exam tomorrow. Hmmm...now I am gonna think about that ALL the way home. I am just gonna go for it. A little refresher and I can take it. I think it's only about an hour test. We are supposed to have a yard sale tomorrow too. I have SO much stuff in my garage. We can so totally do without all of it. So out it goes...sure I'll take 10 cents for that $50 sweater!
Whew! I went to the Dr. on Monday after work and he sorta scolded me because I was actually pretty sick and have been for a few weeks. He even asked me how the heck I was actually breathing. I have a bad ear infection, my lungs sound awful, my chest is badly congested and my nose was totally plugged up. He gave me an Albuterol inhaler thing and two other strong meds that make me feel even sicker. But I know HAVE to take them because I need to get better. The worst part is that while I was visiting my parents in San Jose, I seemed to have gotten my 2 nephews sick (4 year old and 9 month old) AND my brother. I feel SOOOO bad. I should of gone to the doctor sooner. I just have to pray that they don't get this bronchial infection.
Some good news though. I have meds now and I AM going to get better soon...AND I lost the weight I gained over the weekend. So I am back on track. Still at 13 pound weight loss start date on that was 11/2 and that's without a whole lot of working out so I am hopeful for the next coming weeks when I am able to work out that more weight will come off. I was thinking about bringing my bike to work and go for an early morning bike ride since I get here at 5am (take a bike ride on my break). But not till I get better of course. We are also going to clean out my garage this weekend so I can actually use my eliptical machine. Then I have Curves as well. The new goal I am setting up for myself is to be down to 205 by Christmas. I fit into my size 14 jeans this morning. Plan is to continue to eat healthier while I am recovering and then slowly start to work out again.
This morning I got up and felt a piece of paper stuck to the bottom of my foot, I looked, picked it off and it read "He lives". Alexis made bookmarks for my bible, she made a bunch of them and wrote "He Lives" so somehow one of those ended up stuck to my foot. I got on my knees and prayed. I think she really has a heart for God and I am SO thankful to Him for that. I watched her as we were reading the bible two nights ago and she looked very interested and could not wait for her turn to read. As we went over what we had just read, she just nodded her head in understanding and finished my explanation (to show me that she knew and I didn't have to explain). I am a happy and proud mom and very glad that God has provided for us so that we have been able to enroll her in a bible believing Christian school. I read this in the Greg Laurie devotional I get daily and use it now in my praying.
When you take time to pray, consider this idea. It's an acrostic, the word ACTS. Each letter stands for a specific aspect of prayer, arranged in a natural order:
A stands for adoration or worship.
C stands for confession.
T stands for thanksgiving.
S stands for supplication.
So when we pray, we begin with adoration. We begin by recognizing to whom we are speaking. It is our Father in heaven--not our butler in heaven, not our servant in heaven, and not our vending machine in heaven. We are speaking to the Almighty God, the Creator of the universe. This puts things into perspective.
