I am so glad today is my last day on protein. I had a salad last night though cause Serg took me out to dinner and I thought it would be a little weird to just have protein at a restaurant. Like a slab of steak or chicken. We went to The Outback and I resisted eating that warm yummy bread. I had a chicken cesar salad and the only bad thing is that I ate the crutons. They are SO good there though. I should have skipped them but I totally skipped my snacks yesterday because I was SO busy!
Alexis is leaving for Fine Arts in Lancaster with the school and she needed some low heel black shoes and she needed white stockings so I had to run out and buy her some. I ended up buying her one of those rolling suitcases and I am SO glad I did. I got a REALLY good deal on a cute one at Ross. She got to fit everything in there and there were tons of compartments in there. We got her outfits together and now the only thing that she had left to do is pack a cotton comfy top so she can be comfortable on the bus on the way back on Friday. Out of nowhere she had a breakdown last night. I was already asleep and she woke me up and was crying that she didn't want to go anymore and wanted to stay home with us etc. etc....I was like "Great she's already home sick and she's not even gone yet". Too funny. I wish I would of saved my time at work so I could of gone with her. But you know, I think it's kinda good for her to be away from us for a couple of days, she can't be so attached to us you know. The only place she does not get homesick at is at my moms. She is totally comfortable there with them and never wants to come home! So we will see how her trip goes.
The baby has TONS and TONS of eye discharge coming out of his eyes. Last night when we got home he had just woken up and he had all this green nasty stuff all around his eyes and in his eyelashes. I had to wipe it all off for a while. Then this morning I checked on him before he woke up so I could remove all the gunk before he realized his eyes were shut tight. So I am going to call the Dr's and see if I need to take him in because Alma mentioned something about this is the start of pink eye. She said it starts with glossy watery eyes which he has had then they get goopey then the pink eye. So I will see what they say and I kinda wanted to leave early today so I can see Alexis off and possibly have lunch with her but I don't know what the possibility of that is. I will have to ask my boss about it. Anyway, I weighed myself this morning and I showed a gain! I know that it's AF cause I have been eating nothing but protein and working out so I can't see how that's even possible. So I am going to wait again until my monthly (not monthly in my case) but I am thinking you retain water during "that" time so we will see after it's gone. I am hoping I will see 20 pounds come off but when does that happen right? Ok got's go get to work. God bless.
I am tired today. The baby slept with us last night and he kept waking up. He ate twice last night for some reason. He's just growing and I need to start giving him cereal more often so he can stay full longer. Anyway Alexis and I worked out last night! I made a deal with Serg that at 5pm everyday (except Sundays) I am suppose to drop what I am doing and go work out. Well I started at 5:30 cause my house was a mess (cause of the weekend) so I washed massive amounts of dishes, put all the stuff around the house away, got Alani snack and juice, got baby fed and started dinner - all in 1 1/2 hours from the time I got home.
Alexis and I did the elliptical machine for 20 minutes, at 2 minute intervals each. Then I went for a 35 minute bike ride so my legs are a bit sore today. I didn't weigh in because I got up late and had to hurry to get out of the house to allow for more driving time as it's raining today. I am gonna get my breakfast together now, fill up on water and get more coffee!!
God Bless.
Saying this in my head for the next 28 days will help me....For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee. fear not, I will help thee.
The Lord challenges to us to confront Him with things He has written to us in the bible. We just have to have 100% faith that He is good on the things He tells us. Like the verse above from Isaiah 41:13. That was last weeks verse study for our woman's 6 weeks challenge at church. You see the struggle I got going on in my head is "eat healthy foods, don't do Lindora, it's too strict", ya know the same struggles I go through week after week after week. My weightloss HAS to be faith based. I have to remember to call upon God to help me because I can't seem to do this on my own. Even though I start these weight loss challenges with Him in mind. I somehow drop Him along the way somewhere and do it my own way. I so totally need Him and I am pretty sure He is leading me to do Lindora again. Because my body needs the cleansing foods I eat on Lindora. I feel better on it and I loose weight on it (sorry I know I've said this a million times before on here) but it does and NOW that I KNOW God is really pushing me to finish the 28 days STRONG on Lindora, I am up for the challenge because He has promised to hold my hand, comfort me when I am scared and will help me.
Last night after church all the ladies met in the fireside room and compared notes. I felt like a complete fakeout because I totally cheated this weekend and you should of seen them!! They worked so hard and were so proud of their accomplishments this week and I just disregarded the time Alma (our leader) is putting into this to help us be accountable to each other and I just totally gave it up for junk.
Anyway, I need to pay for the Tae Bo Kids DVD I bought on Friday. I won the auction for .99 cents (but shipping is $7.99). Still not a bad deal. The DVD is $14.99 at Target plus tax so it would of been a little over $16. I think Alexis will enjoy it and I am sure I will get a good work out out of it as well. Here is the verse I need to memorize and apply to my life this week:
Deutoronomy 20:4 - For the Lord your God is he that goeth with you, to fight for you against your enemies, to save you.
God bless.
I woke up late today. Intentionally actually. I was SO tired so I just felt like sleeping in a bit. I keep meaning to take a nap when I got home but everyone needs Mom for something. I was so bummed that I did not get to work out last night! I kept trying and everytime I tried to get away it was not happening. Sergio is sick so he did not want to get close to the baby. I started dinner and thought I would run out to the garage to work out but Serg wanted to jump in the shower. He did and when he came out he asked me if I was going to go to the grocery store because he didn't have stuff for lunch. He knew I didn't want to take the baby out so he said he would go with Alexis. All at the same time we talked about when I was going to get tires for my car (the one that he drives) and there happened to be a sale at some tire discount place. He decided to go there and check it out. He calls me 15 minutes later and tells me he's getting new tires put on and it's going to take an hour or so. OK fine, I knew we needed to get tires ASAP as it's starting to rain pretty often and the tires that were on that car were pretty darn old. Anyway, long story short, a 30 minute trip to store turned into 3 hours. He took Alexis to Petsmart to get supplies for her gheko. I even ate dinner alone cause I was hungry and the baby had nodded off.
The one good thing is that I got to spend plenty of time with Gabriel. He was giggling and being silly. He's so cute. I love this age. Except the drooling part.
I WILL get in a workout no matter what today. We do have church service tonight and because of that Alexis does not get homework and so she can watch the baby while Serg takes a shower etc. Then once he's out he can watch the kids and I will workout with her as well. She is doing really good too. I told her I was proud of her to keep her motivated. Lauren was being a brat yesterday and I was glad her dad picked her up early. She was just being a bit abnoxious and she knew I was irritated with her so she was just quiet for a while. Anyway I need to get to work. Till later. God bless.
Thanks Florence for the seasoning you gave me this morning. Smells good and I can't wait to try it tonight on some chicken breasts.
Ok so I weighed myself this morning and I am at 232.2 which I was SO happy about because that is the lowest weight I had gotten to a few weeks back. I went for a late bike ride yesterday with Leah and my butt is killing me! I knew it was gonna hurt but dang!! My inner thighs are sore too which is a good thing cause I got plenty of fat there! I had my yummy breakfast already and I am hoping for another good eating day today. I am going to try and low carb it all day so I can have my beloved tortillas at night - if possible. Last night I had some leftover chicken that Serg had grilled on the BBQ this weekend. I made a salad and some steamed veggies. MMM good. You know what the coolest thing is? My daughter Alexis is totally motivated to eating healthier. I can tell she is having withdrawals from cookies and junk though and I even said it was ok for her to take 2 Famous Amos cookies for lunch(sergio bought them) for lunch but she would not hear of it!! Lauren is also totally wanting to loose weight and eat much healthier than she has been so I want to work out with them to put some pressure on myself and help them burn some calories. This is going to be our schedule:
Monday - 1/2 hour walk at work & Eliptical machine for 30 min with Alexis and Lauren - to make it easier on them (yes...and me) we are going to each take our turn on the machine for 2 minutes intervals. At first I was thinking 5 minutes but it's going to be tough to stay on for 5 whole minutes at first. We need to work our way up first. Once the 2 minutes intervals become easier we will increase it to 3 minutes then 4 etc. When we get bored of this we can go bike riding.
Tuesday - 1/2 hour walk at work & 1 hour bike ride with Leah at 7pm.
Wednesday - 1/2 hour walk at work & Workout with Alexis and Lauren
Thursday - 1/2 hour walk at work - CHURCH night (will try and squeeze in a workout).
Friday - 1/2 hour walk at work & Workout with Alexis and possibly Lauren. She gets picked up by her step dad so I don't give her a ride home. Sometimes she does not though so on this day we will go bike riding once Serg gets home from work so he can watch the kids.
Saturday - Bike ride with Sergio, come home and go for bike ride with Alexis so I can get an extra workout and Alexis can get hers too. if Serg wants to sleep in or kick it at home me and Kid (alexis) can drive to the beach and go up and down those HUGE stairs and go for a 1/2 hour walk. Once we build up or stamina as well I want to ride my bike to the beach, go up and down those stairs AND ride back home.
Since I am incorporating people around me into my "healthy life" it totally seems like this is becoming so much more realistic. It's my home life that usually wrecks my plans so things are really looking up now that they willingly want to be a part of this with me!!
Also at church we formed groups with Ladies that wanted to be accountable to each other to loose weight. The leader of our group is Alma which is also my babysitter and the assistant pastors wife. She is motivating us spititually and she set up this friendly competition against other groups by earning points everyday and it works out so well. We get points for the following:
Prayer/Bible
Scripture Memory
Drinking 64 oz. water per day
Fruit
Veggies
Health Tape or book
30 minute exercise (3 pts per session)
I am actually going to put something like this together for Alexis and Lauren too. I think this will help them. What I will do is buy them an top (shirt)when they reach their first mini goal. The "prizes" will get better and better once they continue to reach their mini goals which I will help them set today.
I AM SO EXCITED!! I am excited for me and for the girls and about this whole thing. The best thing as well is I have Florence at work to totally support me (and me her but it seems like she supports me more)!! She saved me from Wendy's the other day and I am so glad she's there for me in one of the places where there are Donuts bagels and vending machines everywhere!!! Plus we go walking together when the timing for us both works. Ok well I guess that is it. The scripture that I must memorize this week is...
Isaiah 41:13
For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear Not; I will help thee.
God bless.
Well I haven't been on here like I am supposed to be. Partly because I have been trying to get caught up on lots of things at home. I need to find some order in my house. I feel like even though my house will be clean I am still dissapointed that I can't spend more time getting it spotless. I dunno what's wrong with me at times. I feel like I am more happy than most people. I come into work and I like saying hello to people, and most of them look at me and drag out a "moooorning". I am like that sometimes when I am tired, or sick or things are just not working out that day but some of these people are like this all the time. Anyway, I guess I should be grateful that I am a little more perky. Back to what I was saying. The problem with me I think is that when some teeny tiny thing goes wrong, then I instantly feel let down. I have unofficially stopped doing Lindora. I eat well during the day but usually find myself eating other things I am not supposed to be eating.
Florence has been great motivation but I am not motivating myself. No one can do it for me. I am just going to have to keep trying. I need to keep trying to build my home gym. I NEED to work out hard. Working out keep me from shoving stuff in my mouth that I should not be. I usually see how hard it is to burn 200 measly calories and when you read a bag of snack size Doritos and see that they are 350 calories I usually pass. There's just no way I want to ruin 30 minutes of cardio to eat Doritos. Ya know? So just going to keep trying. The Vegas trip has not really been a motivator because I kinda feel like I may not be going. I gotta break the news to my sister too if I am not gonna go. I would so much rather buy a treamill with that money. SO we will have to wait and see. Anyway, I was super busy on Friday and I need to do some stuff I didn't get to. Until later. God Bless!
I think I got 2 hours of total interrupted sleep last night. My throat is killing me and I think I have an ear infection because I keep getting this sharp itchy type of feeling in my right ear. Anyway I am so dead tired and I have this cold sweat going on. Ugh. I hope it goes away soon. I just went and got some hot tea to see if this will help my throat feel better.
I am glad it's Friday that's for sure. It's supposed to rain all weekend. At least that's what SOME reports say. Some same light showers and others say heavy rainfall. We will have to wait and see.
My parents might come this weekend. My uncle was released from the hospital yesterday since he has no health insurance. I am sure he still needed to be in there for a bit longer but I guess they have no choice really when someone has no health coverage. Then last night I was gonna run out and grab dinner and my Envoy died. It would not start. Ended up being a totally dead battery. So I paid $70 for one that should last 5 years. Oh well it runs WAY better than it did before. I guess the battery must of been low for quite some time. Anyway, I need to drink my TheraFlu so off I go. God Bless.
So yesterday my sister calls me while I am at home and tells me that my uncle which lives not too far away from me is in critical condition somewhere in a hospital. I ask her somewhere? Apparantly he had some kind of injury to his head over the weekend. When he finally got out of the hospital from that he told his girlfriend that he had a bad headache but she was mad at him for being gone for a few days so she kinda ignored him (not realizing that he had stitches and stuff on his head). We I guess while he was sleeping he let out this scream and started to have a seizure and blood started to come out of his mouth. The ambulance came but they could not treat him because of the signs he was showing so they took him in a fire department helicopter to USC Medical. The problem with that is that when the ambulance took him, his girlfriend and everyone else thought he was going to the local hospital. So after searching for him for hours with no luck, the girlfriend calls my mom. This is my moms brother we are talking about. My mom in turn called me cause I think she had a feeling I would find him. I started by calling the police department to find out what ambulance company 911 used to transport him. The ambulance company is not allowed to release information to ANYONE about where patients are transported. So I had to call the Fire Department. The Fire Dept. then gives me the info about where he is at. I was like whew! So I call them right away thinking my search was over. The phone number they gave me? Wrong number. I call back again. Wrong number again. I call 411, no number listed! What?!! USC Medical Center in L.A., HUGE hospital and nobody can find the number?! SO finally I talk to a supervisor at my T-Mobile 411 and she finds the number. I call. No such person here. Long story short, after 5 hours of going back and forth with the Fire Department and Emergency room nurse that admitted him, we find him by his Birth day with a totally wrong name! I called up to his floor and he is sleeping. I call my mom but by this time she's at work already. I talked to my dad and he's leaving a message for her to call me today. You know why I found him? Because God's always by my side....which lead me to this....
I have been feeling a bit "helpless" and whinny about how not fair it is that I can't just be skinny. Not really thinking about it too much, but it seems to be at the back of my mind, and in some ways, it's a resentment I have towards myself. I feel that these thoughts deep in my mind are holding me back. Revelation from God is this: I was so totally determined, I knew I would find him no matter what I had to do, I can easily do this weight loss thing too. The same way. I can. It's as simple as that. It can be done and if I show the same determination I have towards other things in my life, I can have it towards this.
I often write about how "I am gonna do it this time" and my enthusiam eventually dwindles. And maybe my determination will as well after I see this revelation, but I am just going to keep going. I weighed myself this AM and was pleasantly surprised. I thought I had gained all of my weight loss back after this past weekend.
Day 15 of 28
Keto stick: Did not test today
Weight: 233.2
BMI: 46%
I feel like this is a fresh start and I am glad to be where I last left off (plus .4 pounds) but nonetheless it's good enough! God bless.
I messed up this weekend and I have been playing how hard I was going to be on myself about it in my head since yesterday. But you know, there's no point in that because I knew that I was eating things I was not supposed to be eating. I can learn from these mistakes and listen to myself in the future because this is a long journey and I am not quitting because of one weekend.
These are some tips I need to keep in mind:
#1 - Continue to weigh myself daily even if I know the loss is not going to be great.
#2 - Keep logging my foods.
#3 - Write in my blog about how I am feeling
#4 - PLAN PLAN PLAN - I cannot express this enough. Not even to myself.
#5 - Last but not least - Take protein snacks with me EVERYWHERE especially if I know I am going to be out late.
Friday night is when this it all started. I was so hungry and my husband and kids went to In & Out to grab a burger and I got a "protein" burger. Which makes it sound healthy but totally is not.So anyway, live and learn is going to have to be my motto. I totally wish I could buy a treadmill with my tax return but I have so many bills that I don't think I will have any $$ left over to indulge in that. I am going to have to find one of those home bike attachment things. I don't know what they are called, you put it on your bike's back tire, to prop it up and you can use your own bike to work out in and this way you don't have to buy extra workout equipment.
I totally would like to set up my garage as a little gym. I think I might have to get Serg to help me do that. We need a TV back there so I can do my workouts on DVD in there too and I don't have to worry about who's looking at me. The garage is a mess right now though but we can totally clean it out and make it nice.
So I am doing 3 protein days to get back on track. I need to. My stomach is so messed up right now. I need to refrain from giving it carbs and junk. So protein it is. I am going to go to Albertson's for some egg beaters this morning for breakfast and I think I will have the same for lunch as I woke up late today and knew I had some protein foods at work. I need to shake this tiredness off. I really didn't get much rest this weekend. Running here, there and everywhere.
The good news is I did my taxes and we are getting more than I thought. We did the long form because we had write-offs so we got about $1000 more because of that. Ok well I am tired of typing so until later. God bless.
I tried to go to bed early last night but I was with the baby and he didn't feel like going to bed when I wanted to go to bed. But I still ended up going to sleep at around 9pm. Anyway, I woke up a lot last night. Yes the toe thing. Still hurts. Still had to wear that ugly shoe today. Anyway I was not going to weigh myself because I know I ate too much yesterday. I felt like crap all day and was SUPER tired so I didn't end up doing a protein day.
Day 10 of 28
Keto stick: Did not test today
Weight: 232.8
BMI: 46%
Yes those pounds are coming off very slowly. So far, my weight loss is far from my "goal" of 6 pounds. Unless I can loose it in 3 days (yeah right). I have to confess though I am constipated. I have "not gone" in a few days. Also, I am sorta on my monthly. It's kinda like not full blown here but I feel like it is KWIM? I feel bloated, tired and just plain cranky. Hopefully after whatever I have going on goes away I will see at least a pound drop by Monday. Oh so I was saying, I ate too much yesterday AND I am totally not drinking the amount of water I need to be drinking. I need to check myself on that. In fact once I finish this post I am headed straight to the kitchen to fill my 32oz cup for water. It's 5:04am so by 6am I should be getting another one. A light bulb just went on in my head. THAT'S why I am constipated. Duh....I've been a TOTAL airhead this week. Geesh. Ok gotta go before I start making myself mad. God bless.
First thing I did this morning was weigh myself since I missed weigh in yesterday. Here are my stats:
Day 9 of 28
Keto stick: +5
Weight: 233
BMI: 46%
Yes, dissapointed of course. I am really trying to watch myself and I am only loosing very little. I really need those workouts but I can't even puy my foot in tennis shoes right now. I tried this morning but it hurts like crazy so there is no way it's gonna happen. Today I am planning on doing a protein day as well as tomorrow to see if it gets me out of this rut. I am really hoping that by this weekend I will be good to go. I want to ride my bike so bad! My toe is still infected though and I need to go get the antibiotics the Dr. told me to get. So I think I might go during lunch.I made myself a turkey sausage for lunch on the George Foreman grill. I left it in the car so I have to go get it in a sec.
Not much else happening. Tonight is church so once I get home I have to get everyone's church clothes ready and make dinner early. I hope I get myt W2's from work today!! I need to do my taxes ASAP. Ok God bless.
