Day 23 of 35

Not sure if it's really day 23....need to check my calendar at work. So I haven't made much progress. I've been eating healthy 99% of the time but I think the one meal that I have "off plan" really seems to throw me off. I had an off meal last night at RU. It was our 3rd year anniversary and we had .50cent tacos. Thank God we were helping with serving etc. otherwise I would have eaten more. I also brought a piece of cake home that I was planning on eating but my 3 yeal old son beat me to it and he ate it for me. He walked into my room with white frosting around his mouth while I was changing into my comfy clothes and thinking that I was going to eat the cake with a big glass of milk. he left me crumbs and I ate them lol.

So I've been struggling with one thing in particular but I can't really type it out here.God knows what it is and it's really starting to take over my mind and I wish it would just dissipate. I wish I could lose weight and be at peace. I'm going to continue with my eating habits (good ones) and keep losing weight. I'm going to keep praying and try to listen to God's advice for me and how to overcome my struggles.

I am hoping that at the end of the month I'm able to go visit my family in San Jose. My sister wants me to go I just hope I can get some money to replace my tires, brakes and have gas money. The building banquet is coming up as well and I am praying that we can come up with the money to pay what we owe on my 401K so that I can get a new loan and give some of that money to the banquet.

House is quiet right now, my husband is hopefully going to bible college and he's at the church now working on a bus route. When you are a bible college student you are required to work on a bus route. He already does some other stuff so not sure if he'll be required to take on additional routes.

I need to trust God on this and pray that my job continues to provide for us and that he help me not grow weary. I'm going to keep praying for confidence and pray that I can develop a closer relationship with him. Seems like we've grown apart some, like we are not as interested in each other as we use to be. I'm talking about my husband here.....all the other stuff applies to God too except that I know God is still interested in using me. I know he'll never give up on me. I pray that I am more like Him.

God bless....