Daily observations

So everyting seems to be going well with the pregnancy. On Friday when we visited the best Dr. in the whole world Dr. Marshall my perinatologist for the first time this pregnancy he surprised us with an ultrasound. WE ARE HAVING A BOY!! It was pretty obvious when he showed us and we even got to see his little feet up against the screen. SO CUTE! He got to see Alani and he kept commenting on how beautiful she was. Well he helped me to get her here safely that's for sure. We talked about my blood pressure and how he didn't want to increase my BP meds because if my blood pressure drops too low it can cut off oxygen to the baby. So I will need to be better with my eating and also my sodium intake. He also put me on insulin 10 units in the PM as my fasting numbers in the morning are in the 100's and they should be no more than 89. So I need to watch my sugars as well. Not too much salt and not too much sugar.

I am trying not to stress out either because my hubby got laid off work. I mean he works for the union so it's just a matter of him getting another contrator to give him work but still...he had the good hours going and this was long time work...like YEARS...now we are trying to figure out how all the bills are going to get paid with just my income. He's supposed to get unemployment but that's not very much and now that we have a car payment it's a little harder. He actually got a call from the union last night that they had a job for him but it was temporary and it was in Santa Monica. He rushed to get the girls up at 4:00am took them to the babysitter which I am gonna have to pay her $20 for today and when he gets there they were like "no we don't need anyone today". So sucks. As I walked to my truck to get my cell phone out I wondered what was going on...what's up with the drama???

I know that I need to keep my faith in the Lord. I actually came here to write about how many people don't believe in God. I was reading something somewhere on Yahoo and read Leah Remini from King of Queens show, it's hilarious, and I know she had a baby so I went to her website to see if I could find pics of her daughter and her and ended up on a Q & A page where a fan asked her if she was a sci*entol*ogist like John Travolta and Tom Cruise and I thought "Yeah right! She's gonna bash this guy" then she went on to say that she WAS!! and has been one for years and that it has helped her spiritually..what??!! I was SO thrown off...I just closed the site and felt immense dissapointment. I just don't understand how someone can believe in that stuff that a MAN made up, a human, just like you and I. Then I have been reading this blog about a girl that has had 8 failed miscarriages and I thought that she was faily negative and said well "I haven't had 8 failed miscarriages so who knows if I would be that faithless" and I sorta knew I should not be reading that blog but I want to have Faith for her. I want to see her baby grow in her belly, and I kept looking for words like "I pray that this baby will be ok" but none of that appeared. Instead I read that she was into pa*ganism and was a no*n-christian. I was just like WHAT is up!??

I guess alot of the sermons I hear in church and the clips that brother Esposito shows us on what the world is coming to was sort of in my face. Don't get me wrong I am NOT bashing, hating or judging these people *I* just don't understand their views and I guess they would not understand mine. I know GOD is real because of what he has done in my life. Sure things like loosing jobs, money problems happen, but instead of me bashing and blaming God for it, I accept it, and I accept it as a test. God tests us constantly and I want to come out a believer of Christ no matter what. It's funny because someone would say (especially now) "Oh where's your God now?, why did your husband loose his job??" You know where He is? He is watching up in Heaven and I want to make Him see that I want to pass his test. I want to stay faithful and I want Him to Know that I believe that whatever we are going through is for a reason. And I tell you, it always is. ALWAYS. I see the true miracles He has done in my life, and never will Sc*iento*logy or paga*nist spirits or wi*ccans convince me that there is no God!!

"For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures;"

1 Corinthians 15:3