Trying to find it in me

But it's just not there. What am I talking about? Weight loss of course! I'm really thinking about going back to doing the New Lifestyle diet. That's the only thing that's going to help me loose the weight and do it fast. I have a very short "motivation span" and so I feel like when I decide...like really DECIDE to loose weight, I need to do it and I need to do it fast. I lost quite a bit of weight last time and I think I can do it again. The problem? The holidays are coming and I always do this to myself! I start when the holidays are going to kick in. BUT if you think about it, if I start now, October 15th I can potentially be down 45-50 pounds by Christmas. THAT would be really nice.

The first week I always drop 10 pounds. Then if I stick to my program, 5 pounds a week from there X 8 weeks = 50 pounds, this would put me under 200. I think I am at about 240 or so. I had gown down to about 230 but of course I always sabotage myself when I'm loosing weight.

I would love to order more shakes but the money situation does not permit me to do so. I'm going to have to finish off what I have in my cabinets and hope I can order more stuff soon. If not, I'll just get SOME....

Work is stressfull in a way. I mean, I try not to let it stress me out but it does. I drive in to work every morning now versus working from home.

Anyway, my walk with God is improving. My families walk with God is improving as well which makes things at home run so much smoother. Alright well that's it for now...going to try and come on here daily so I can make myself accountable.

God Bless.