I'm Back......

Wow! It's been a while since I've blogged. This summer has been activity packed and while it's nice, it's tiring and takes a toll on me especially with the kids.

Last Tuesday we drove 5 hours to my parents house. I love going to see me parents but things were just off this time, and Alexis (my oldest) was extremely annoying and I'm still upset with her today about how she pitted me sister and parents against me. Not directly but she did. You see she was their first grandchild and was for many years. My mom babysat her for the first few years of her life and well, I don't think that was the brightest idea in the longrun. They spolied her ROTTEN. It took a lot to get that out of her and to this day she still acts up the same way she did with grandma and grandpa. Anyway, I can type forever about this but I won't. The reason I go out there most of the time is so she can feel loved by her grandparents and my other two kids (which my parents are not too close to because of the distance) can get comfortable with them. They have and Alani asks where "gramps & gramma" are??? Can we go to their house??!

I've been feeling really down this week though. Just the after affects of the trip. I always feel depressed after leaving my family because I feel lonely. Another thing is I don't have one ounce of desire to cook which is NOT good. I need to restock!!! #1 on energy, #2 on healthy foods #3 on confidence.

I just feel like I have TONS of loose ends in my life and I am desperately reaching out to try and tie them all. I really need focus right now. I need to get back to working out and having a healthy mind so I can be a better stewart to God, a better wife and a better mom (oh and better person for those around me). So here's to a "life refresher". Off to drink my morning coffee. God Bless.