I am so glad today is my last day on protein. I had a salad last night though cause Serg took me out to dinner and I thought it would be a little weird to just have protein at a restaurant. Like a slab of steak or chicken. We went to The Outback and I resisted eating that warm yummy bread. I had a chicken cesar salad and the only bad thing is that I ate the crutons. They are SO good there though. I should have skipped them but I totally skipped my snacks yesterday because I was SO busy!
Alexis is leaving for Fine Arts in Lancaster with the school and she needed some low heel black shoes and she needed white stockings so I had to run out and buy her some. I ended up buying her one of those rolling suitcases and I am SO glad I did. I got a REALLY good deal on a cute one at Ross. She got to fit everything in there and there were tons of compartments in there. We got her outfits together and now the only thing that she had left to do is pack a cotton comfy top so she can be comfortable on the bus on the way back on Friday. Out of nowhere she had a breakdown last night. I was already asleep and she woke me up and was crying that she didn't want to go anymore and wanted to stay home with us etc. etc....I was like "Great she's already home sick and she's not even gone yet". Too funny. I wish I would of saved my time at work so I could of gone with her. But you know, I think it's kinda good for her to be away from us for a couple of days, she can't be so attached to us you know. The only place she does not get homesick at is at my moms. She is totally comfortable there with them and never wants to come home! So we will see how her trip goes.
The baby has TONS and TONS of eye discharge coming out of his eyes. Last night when we got home he had just woken up and he had all this green nasty stuff all around his eyes and in his eyelashes. I had to wipe it all off for a while. Then this morning I checked on him before he woke up so I could remove all the gunk before he realized his eyes were shut tight. So I am going to call the Dr's and see if I need to take him in because Alma mentioned something about this is the start of pink eye. She said it starts with glossy watery eyes which he has had then they get goopey then the pink eye. So I will see what they say and I kinda wanted to leave early today so I can see Alexis off and possibly have lunch with her but I don't know what the possibility of that is. I will have to ask my boss about it. Anyway, I weighed myself this morning and I showed a gain! I know that it's AF cause I have been eating nothing but protein and working out so I can't see how that's even possible. So I am going to wait again until my monthly (not monthly in my case) but I am thinking you retain water during "that" time so we will see after it's gone. I am hoping I will see 20 pounds come off but when does that happen right? Ok got's go get to work. God bless.
I am tired today. The baby slept with us last night and he kept waking up. He ate twice last night for some reason. He's just growing and I need to start giving him cereal more often so he can stay full longer. Anyway Alexis and I worked out last night! I made a deal with Serg that at 5pm everyday (except Sundays) I am suppose to drop what I am doing and go work out. Well I started at 5:30 cause my house was a mess (cause of the weekend) so I washed massive amounts of dishes, put all the stuff around the house away, got Alani snack and juice, got baby fed and started dinner - all in 1 1/2 hours from the time I got home.
Alexis and I did the elliptical machine for 20 minutes, at 2 minute intervals each. Then I went for a 35 minute bike ride so my legs are a bit sore today. I didn't weigh in because I got up late and had to hurry to get out of the house to allow for more driving time as it's raining today. I am gonna get my breakfast together now, fill up on water and get more coffee!!
God Bless.
Saying this in my head for the next 28 days will help me....For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee. fear not, I will help thee.
The Lord challenges to us to confront Him with things He has written to us in the bible. We just have to have 100% faith that He is good on the things He tells us. Like the verse above from Isaiah 41:13. That was last weeks verse study for our woman's 6 weeks challenge at church. You see the struggle I got going on in my head is "eat healthy foods, don't do Lindora, it's too strict", ya know the same struggles I go through week after week after week. My weightloss HAS to be faith based. I have to remember to call upon God to help me because I can't seem to do this on my own. Even though I start these weight loss challenges with Him in mind. I somehow drop Him along the way somewhere and do it my own way. I so totally need Him and I am pretty sure He is leading me to do Lindora again. Because my body needs the cleansing foods I eat on Lindora. I feel better on it and I loose weight on it (sorry I know I've said this a million times before on here) but it does and NOW that I KNOW God is really pushing me to finish the 28 days STRONG on Lindora, I am up for the challenge because He has promised to hold my hand, comfort me when I am scared and will help me.
Last night after church all the ladies met in the fireside room and compared notes. I felt like a complete fakeout because I totally cheated this weekend and you should of seen them!! They worked so hard and were so proud of their accomplishments this week and I just disregarded the time Alma (our leader) is putting into this to help us be accountable to each other and I just totally gave it up for junk.
Anyway, I need to pay for the Tae Bo Kids DVD I bought on Friday. I won the auction for .99 cents (but shipping is $7.99). Still not a bad deal. The DVD is $14.99 at Target plus tax so it would of been a little over $16. I think Alexis will enjoy it and I am sure I will get a good work out out of it as well. Here is the verse I need to memorize and apply to my life this week:
Deutoronomy 20:4 - For the Lord your God is he that goeth with you, to fight for you against your enemies, to save you.
God bless.
I woke up late today. Intentionally actually. I was SO tired so I just felt like sleeping in a bit. I keep meaning to take a nap when I got home but everyone needs Mom for something. I was so bummed that I did not get to work out last night! I kept trying and everytime I tried to get away it was not happening. Sergio is sick so he did not want to get close to the baby. I started dinner and thought I would run out to the garage to work out but Serg wanted to jump in the shower. He did and when he came out he asked me if I was going to go to the grocery store because he didn't have stuff for lunch. He knew I didn't want to take the baby out so he said he would go with Alexis. All at the same time we talked about when I was going to get tires for my car (the one that he drives) and there happened to be a sale at some tire discount place. He decided to go there and check it out. He calls me 15 minutes later and tells me he's getting new tires put on and it's going to take an hour or so. OK fine, I knew we needed to get tires ASAP as it's starting to rain pretty often and the tires that were on that car were pretty darn old. Anyway, long story short, a 30 minute trip to store turned into 3 hours. He took Alexis to Petsmart to get supplies for her gheko. I even ate dinner alone cause I was hungry and the baby had nodded off.
The one good thing is that I got to spend plenty of time with Gabriel. He was giggling and being silly. He's so cute. I love this age. Except the drooling part.
I WILL get in a workout no matter what today. We do have church service tonight and because of that Alexis does not get homework and so she can watch the baby while Serg takes a shower etc. Then once he's out he can watch the kids and I will workout with her as well. She is doing really good too. I told her I was proud of her to keep her motivated. Lauren was being a brat yesterday and I was glad her dad picked her up early. She was just being a bit abnoxious and she knew I was irritated with her so she was just quiet for a while. Anyway I need to get to work. Till later. God bless.
Thanks Florence for the seasoning you gave me this morning. Smells good and I can't wait to try it tonight on some chicken breasts.
Ok so I weighed myself this morning and I am at 232.2 which I was SO happy about because that is the lowest weight I had gotten to a few weeks back. I went for a late bike ride yesterday with Leah and my butt is killing me! I knew it was gonna hurt but dang!! My inner thighs are sore too which is a good thing cause I got plenty of fat there! I had my yummy breakfast already and I am hoping for another good eating day today. I am going to try and low carb it all day so I can have my beloved tortillas at night - if possible. Last night I had some leftover chicken that Serg had grilled on the BBQ this weekend. I made a salad and some steamed veggies. MMM good. You know what the coolest thing is? My daughter Alexis is totally motivated to eating healthier. I can tell she is having withdrawals from cookies and junk though and I even said it was ok for her to take 2 Famous Amos cookies for lunch(sergio bought them) for lunch but she would not hear of it!! Lauren is also totally wanting to loose weight and eat much healthier than she has been so I want to work out with them to put some pressure on myself and help them burn some calories. This is going to be our schedule:
Monday - 1/2 hour walk at work & Eliptical machine for 30 min with Alexis and Lauren - to make it easier on them (yes...and me) we are going to each take our turn on the machine for 2 minutes intervals. At first I was thinking 5 minutes but it's going to be tough to stay on for 5 whole minutes at first. We need to work our way up first. Once the 2 minutes intervals become easier we will increase it to 3 minutes then 4 etc. When we get bored of this we can go bike riding.
Tuesday - 1/2 hour walk at work & 1 hour bike ride with Leah at 7pm.
Wednesday - 1/2 hour walk at work & Workout with Alexis and Lauren
Thursday - 1/2 hour walk at work - CHURCH night (will try and squeeze in a workout).
Friday - 1/2 hour walk at work & Workout with Alexis and possibly Lauren. She gets picked up by her step dad so I don't give her a ride home. Sometimes she does not though so on this day we will go bike riding once Serg gets home from work so he can watch the kids.
Saturday - Bike ride with Sergio, come home and go for bike ride with Alexis so I can get an extra workout and Alexis can get hers too. if Serg wants to sleep in or kick it at home me and Kid (alexis) can drive to the beach and go up and down those HUGE stairs and go for a 1/2 hour walk. Once we build up or stamina as well I want to ride my bike to the beach, go up and down those stairs AND ride back home.
Since I am incorporating people around me into my "healthy life" it totally seems like this is becoming so much more realistic. It's my home life that usually wrecks my plans so things are really looking up now that they willingly want to be a part of this with me!!
Also at church we formed groups with Ladies that wanted to be accountable to each other to loose weight. The leader of our group is Alma which is also my babysitter and the assistant pastors wife. She is motivating us spititually and she set up this friendly competition against other groups by earning points everyday and it works out so well. We get points for the following:
Prayer/Bible
Scripture Memory
Drinking 64 oz. water per day
Fruit
Veggies
Health Tape or book
30 minute exercise (3 pts per session)
I am actually going to put something like this together for Alexis and Lauren too. I think this will help them. What I will do is buy them an top (shirt)when they reach their first mini goal. The "prizes" will get better and better once they continue to reach their mini goals which I will help them set today.
I AM SO EXCITED!! I am excited for me and for the girls and about this whole thing. The best thing as well is I have Florence at work to totally support me (and me her but it seems like she supports me more)!! She saved me from Wendy's the other day and I am so glad she's there for me in one of the places where there are Donuts bagels and vending machines everywhere!!! Plus we go walking together when the timing for us both works. Ok well I guess that is it. The scripture that I must memorize this week is...
Isaiah 41:13
For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear Not; I will help thee.
God bless.
Well I haven't been on here like I am supposed to be. Partly because I have been trying to get caught up on lots of things at home. I need to find some order in my house. I feel like even though my house will be clean I am still dissapointed that I can't spend more time getting it spotless. I dunno what's wrong with me at times. I feel like I am more happy than most people. I come into work and I like saying hello to people, and most of them look at me and drag out a "moooorning". I am like that sometimes when I am tired, or sick or things are just not working out that day but some of these people are like this all the time. Anyway, I guess I should be grateful that I am a little more perky. Back to what I was saying. The problem with me I think is that when some teeny tiny thing goes wrong, then I instantly feel let down. I have unofficially stopped doing Lindora. I eat well during the day but usually find myself eating other things I am not supposed to be eating.
Florence has been great motivation but I am not motivating myself. No one can do it for me. I am just going to have to keep trying. I need to keep trying to build my home gym. I NEED to work out hard. Working out keep me from shoving stuff in my mouth that I should not be. I usually see how hard it is to burn 200 measly calories and when you read a bag of snack size Doritos and see that they are 350 calories I usually pass. There's just no way I want to ruin 30 minutes of cardio to eat Doritos. Ya know? So just going to keep trying. The Vegas trip has not really been a motivator because I kinda feel like I may not be going. I gotta break the news to my sister too if I am not gonna go. I would so much rather buy a treamill with that money. SO we will have to wait and see. Anyway, I was super busy on Friday and I need to do some stuff I didn't get to. Until later. God Bless!
I think I got 2 hours of total interrupted sleep last night. My throat is killing me and I think I have an ear infection because I keep getting this sharp itchy type of feeling in my right ear. Anyway I am so dead tired and I have this cold sweat going on. Ugh. I hope it goes away soon. I just went and got some hot tea to see if this will help my throat feel better.
I am glad it's Friday that's for sure. It's supposed to rain all weekend. At least that's what SOME reports say. Some same light showers and others say heavy rainfall. We will have to wait and see.
My parents might come this weekend. My uncle was released from the hospital yesterday since he has no health insurance. I am sure he still needed to be in there for a bit longer but I guess they have no choice really when someone has no health coverage. Then last night I was gonna run out and grab dinner and my Envoy died. It would not start. Ended up being a totally dead battery. So I paid $70 for one that should last 5 years. Oh well it runs WAY better than it did before. I guess the battery must of been low for quite some time. Anyway, I need to drink my TheraFlu so off I go. God Bless.
So yesterday my sister calls me while I am at home and tells me that my uncle which lives not too far away from me is in critical condition somewhere in a hospital. I ask her somewhere? Apparantly he had some kind of injury to his head over the weekend. When he finally got out of the hospital from that he told his girlfriend that he had a bad headache but she was mad at him for being gone for a few days so she kinda ignored him (not realizing that he had stitches and stuff on his head). We I guess while he was sleeping he let out this scream and started to have a seizure and blood started to come out of his mouth. The ambulance came but they could not treat him because of the signs he was showing so they took him in a fire department helicopter to USC Medical. The problem with that is that when the ambulance took him, his girlfriend and everyone else thought he was going to the local hospital. So after searching for him for hours with no luck, the girlfriend calls my mom. This is my moms brother we are talking about. My mom in turn called me cause I think she had a feeling I would find him. I started by calling the police department to find out what ambulance company 911 used to transport him. The ambulance company is not allowed to release information to ANYONE about where patients are transported. So I had to call the Fire Department. The Fire Dept. then gives me the info about where he is at. I was like whew! So I call them right away thinking my search was over. The phone number they gave me? Wrong number. I call back again. Wrong number again. I call 411, no number listed! What?!! USC Medical Center in L.A., HUGE hospital and nobody can find the number?! SO finally I talk to a supervisor at my T-Mobile 411 and she finds the number. I call. No such person here. Long story short, after 5 hours of going back and forth with the Fire Department and Emergency room nurse that admitted him, we find him by his Birth day with a totally wrong name! I called up to his floor and he is sleeping. I call my mom but by this time she's at work already. I talked to my dad and he's leaving a message for her to call me today. You know why I found him? Because God's always by my side....which lead me to this....
I have been feeling a bit "helpless" and whinny about how not fair it is that I can't just be skinny. Not really thinking about it too much, but it seems to be at the back of my mind, and in some ways, it's a resentment I have towards myself. I feel that these thoughts deep in my mind are holding me back. Revelation from God is this: I was so totally determined, I knew I would find him no matter what I had to do, I can easily do this weight loss thing too. The same way. I can. It's as simple as that. It can be done and if I show the same determination I have towards other things in my life, I can have it towards this.
I often write about how "I am gonna do it this time" and my enthusiam eventually dwindles. And maybe my determination will as well after I see this revelation, but I am just going to keep going. I weighed myself this AM and was pleasantly surprised. I thought I had gained all of my weight loss back after this past weekend.
Day 15 of 28
Keto stick: Did not test today
Weight: 233.2
BMI: 46%
I feel like this is a fresh start and I am glad to be where I last left off (plus .4 pounds) but nonetheless it's good enough! God bless.
I messed up this weekend and I have been playing how hard I was going to be on myself about it in my head since yesterday. But you know, there's no point in that because I knew that I was eating things I was not supposed to be eating. I can learn from these mistakes and listen to myself in the future because this is a long journey and I am not quitting because of one weekend.
These are some tips I need to keep in mind:
#1 - Continue to weigh myself daily even if I know the loss is not going to be great.
#2 - Keep logging my foods.
#3 - Write in my blog about how I am feeling
#4 - PLAN PLAN PLAN - I cannot express this enough. Not even to myself.
#5 - Last but not least - Take protein snacks with me EVERYWHERE especially if I know I am going to be out late.
Friday night is when this it all started. I was so hungry and my husband and kids went to In & Out to grab a burger and I got a "protein" burger. Which makes it sound healthy but totally is not.So anyway, live and learn is going to have to be my motto. I totally wish I could buy a treadmill with my tax return but I have so many bills that I don't think I will have any $$ left over to indulge in that. I am going to have to find one of those home bike attachment things. I don't know what they are called, you put it on your bike's back tire, to prop it up and you can use your own bike to work out in and this way you don't have to buy extra workout equipment.
I totally would like to set up my garage as a little gym. I think I might have to get Serg to help me do that. We need a TV back there so I can do my workouts on DVD in there too and I don't have to worry about who's looking at me. The garage is a mess right now though but we can totally clean it out and make it nice.
So I am doing 3 protein days to get back on track. I need to. My stomach is so messed up right now. I need to refrain from giving it carbs and junk. So protein it is. I am going to go to Albertson's for some egg beaters this morning for breakfast and I think I will have the same for lunch as I woke up late today and knew I had some protein foods at work. I need to shake this tiredness off. I really didn't get much rest this weekend. Running here, there and everywhere.
The good news is I did my taxes and we are getting more than I thought. We did the long form because we had write-offs so we got about $1000 more because of that. Ok well I am tired of typing so until later. God bless.
I tried to go to bed early last night but I was with the baby and he didn't feel like going to bed when I wanted to go to bed. But I still ended up going to sleep at around 9pm. Anyway, I woke up a lot last night. Yes the toe thing. Still hurts. Still had to wear that ugly shoe today. Anyway I was not going to weigh myself because I know I ate too much yesterday. I felt like crap all day and was SUPER tired so I didn't end up doing a protein day.
Day 10 of 28
Keto stick: Did not test today
Weight: 232.8
BMI: 46%
Yes those pounds are coming off very slowly. So far, my weight loss is far from my "goal" of 6 pounds. Unless I can loose it in 3 days (yeah right). I have to confess though I am constipated. I have "not gone" in a few days. Also, I am sorta on my monthly. It's kinda like not full blown here but I feel like it is KWIM? I feel bloated, tired and just plain cranky. Hopefully after whatever I have going on goes away I will see at least a pound drop by Monday. Oh so I was saying, I ate too much yesterday AND I am totally not drinking the amount of water I need to be drinking. I need to check myself on that. In fact once I finish this post I am headed straight to the kitchen to fill my 32oz cup for water. It's 5:04am so by 6am I should be getting another one. A light bulb just went on in my head. THAT'S why I am constipated. Duh....I've been a TOTAL airhead this week. Geesh. Ok gotta go before I start making myself mad. God bless.
First thing I did this morning was weigh myself since I missed weigh in yesterday. Here are my stats:
Day 9 of 28
Keto stick: +5
Weight: 233
BMI: 46%
Yes, dissapointed of course. I am really trying to watch myself and I am only loosing very little. I really need those workouts but I can't even puy my foot in tennis shoes right now. I tried this morning but it hurts like crazy so there is no way it's gonna happen. Today I am planning on doing a protein day as well as tomorrow to see if it gets me out of this rut. I am really hoping that by this weekend I will be good to go. I want to ride my bike so bad! My toe is still infected though and I need to go get the antibiotics the Dr. told me to get. So I think I might go during lunch.I made myself a turkey sausage for lunch on the George Foreman grill. I left it in the car so I have to go get it in a sec.
Not much else happening. Tonight is church so once I get home I have to get everyone's church clothes ready and make dinner early. I hope I get myt W2's from work today!! I need to do my taxes ASAP. Ok God bless.
So I left early yesterday to get my toe taken care of and man did it hurt!!! First of all they had to numb my toe so they had to stick a needle in it and pump it with numbing meds and it literally felt like it was going to burst. It was already super swollen and red. The Dr. basically cut half my toe nail off and I could not believe my eyes, my toe nail started to grown down on the side so it was really in there (disgusting visual I know). It looked like razor sharp which is why I was in so much pain. Now it's going to take about 4 months to grow back which should be enough time for my toes to look cute again for the summer. I went home and took a Vocodin. Ok, I NEVER take Vocodin because it upsets my stomach REALLY bad. I went home and had a piece of wheat toast with my low fat peanut butter, sugar free jelly and a glass of milk and took one because I was hurting THAT much. I think I am a trooper when it comes to pain but I was in PAIN yesterday. I even took another one 4 hours later when I went to bed. I was in pain all night though I couldn't even have my foot under the covers. So needless to say I didn't go for my bike ride like my silly butt thought I was. Even if I could of gone for the bike ride, it was pouring outside. So no exercise at all for me yesterday! I am still in quite a bit of pain today. I wore my velour black pants and sweater today because these pants were the only thing I could get my foot through without hurting it. Anyway, hopefully I get better soon so I can get back to working out.
So while I was waiting in the ER to be seen, I was catching up on my reading and in the Lindora book it said that if my color on my Keto stick was not as dark as I would like it, I could do 1 to 3 days of protein days again. I think I am going to actually do that because I am slightly in Ketosis but not much. I didn't even weight myself today because I got dressed before I went to the bathroom and it was such an effort to even do that this morning that there was no way I was going to get undressed again. I can live one day without weighing in. Plus I don't feel like being depressed if I didn't loose or even if I gained! I feel like crap right now, my stomach is all queasy and I look like poop. Oh well, just gotta get through the day. Ok God Bless.
I weighed myself this morning sorta dissapointed that I had only lost .4 pound but in actuality I weight more, I had just lost track of what I weighed. Here are my stats:
Day: 7 of 28
Keto stick: +5
Weight: 234.2
BMI: 46%
My body fat is back down but my weight is up by .8 pounds which is a little over half a pound. I guess this is where I see the downside of weighing in daily. I KNOW that I keep having too much fat in my diet and I need to keep my foods plain and simple. It seems like the turkey products that I thought were much healthier that the regular foods are not much lower in fat. I made breakfast for dinner last night. I should of had egg beaters but I felt like eating eggs over easy. I did and I had 2 sausages. I drank a little milk before bed as my toe is killing me. I don't know what happened but it is infected (sorry yuck I know). I was angry last night cause something ALWAYS happens when I am trying to accomplish something. Maybe God wants me to work extra hard, I don't know. I just know my toe hurts and I am probably going to have to go to urgent care to get it looked at. This is NOT going to make me stop working out. I won't be able to walk very much but I WILL ride my bike.
Yesterday I didn't get to really work out much except for my 30 minutes walk during my break at work. When I got home yesterday I had to pick up the girls at school and then take Serg to the community college to take some tests. He took us home and I was trying to get my toe to feel better. I cleaned up and then started to make dinner. Lauren and Scott were there for a bit and once they left and Serg was not home yet and it was 7pm we had dinner. He ate when he got back at 8pm. I gave Alani a bath, played with the baby, got my stuff ready for today and we read Proverbs 29.
On the way to work I was just thinking about how frustrated I am going to be through this entire journey and how unsatisfied I am going to continue to always be with my body. But you know what? I need to stop being like this, I need to stop hating my body, stop thinking about how much I am going to hate it when I am done with weight loss. I should be thankful that I am even loosing weight and have patience darn it! I get on my own nerves with my expectations and when something goes wrong, I get all psycho and I just need to know that things WILL go wrong. I need to accept the fact that I am NOT going to loose 65 pounds in 1 month and I am just setting myself up for failure if I keep setting these ridiculous goals for myself. Yesterday, I was reading some of my posts from 2005 and I was limiting myself to 25 grams of fat per day, 900 calories and tons of protein. I can't seem to do that now. Oh well, it is what it is. Till later. God bless.
I was actually looking forward to coming in to work today. Weird huh? Maybe because work brings back some normality into my life. I never thought I would say that, and maybe that will change in the future, but for now it's nice to be at work. Yes, even if I have to get up at 3am. I have actually been getting up at 3:30 recently. I shower before bedtime, get my clothes ready, set the coffemaker to brew on it's own and get my lunch ready. I can usually get out the door by 4:10. In the past I would eat breakfast at home but I found that doing that only finds me hungry at work an hour later. So now what I do is drink my hot coffee on the way to work and then drink 32oz. of water once I get here. Once people start getting in, I throw in some breakfast in the microwave. Today I was going to have a breakfast burrito but I don't have salsa, veggies or turkey sausage so I am just going to have some egg beaters with a slice of melted low fat provolone or LF cheddar, a peice of wheat toast w/my fake butter and some decaf. Ok stats for today:
Day: 6 of 28
Keto stick: +5
Weight: 233.6
BMI: 47.5%
Notice my BMI went up. Although in talking to Florence the BMI my scale gives me is way too high but even if it's high it tells me if it went up or down. Also, my weight did not change but my body fat went up? At first I was dissapointed but then I thought about it, I did eat healthy this weekend, but the foods were higher in fat. Another thing that I now realize contributed to my non-loss is that I did NOT drink ANY water all day yesterday. I didn't realize it until after my workout which left me super thirsty. Right then and there, I felt dehydrated. So yes I worked out last night like I said I was and it was a great workout! I was sweating like a pig (do pigs sweat)?? and little Grabriel was in his car seat watching me wave my hands and prance around like a dork. I jumped in the shower while I threw in some Blue's Clues for him, Alani was asleep and Serg and Alexis were at church. I skipped out on church because Alani had not taken her nap all day and she was super super cranky and Gabriel was also asleep when they left and we didn't want to wake them. Not to mention it was cold outside and my sore throat is still there. I took some nighttime cold medicine and asked Serg to give me a massage in bed and I knocked out cold. It was a little hard getting up this morning but I'm here on time thank the Lord.
I feel lighter though which is a plus. I am sure I will meet my "in my head mini goal" of 6 pounds this week. So here's to another week! God bless.
I wish I were more patient when it came to weight loss. It's like, when I decide to loose weight my body should just loose it already and I should be thin like TODAY! It's not like that I know so I need to be patient. Today we had church and I was actually up at 6am again but my throat is sore again. We all seem to be getting sick again. I mean I only had like a few days break. EVERYONE is sick though which does not help our recovery at all. The baby has a runny nose and so does Alani. Poor kids can't catch a break. Ok the baby is awake and drinking his bottle so I have to make this quick.
Day: 5 of 28
Keto stick: +10
Weight: 233.6
BMI: 46.5%
It's not as much as I wanted it to be, I walked quite a bit yesterday but I had hot wings for dinner. Homemade and as healthy as I could of made them. I baked them in the oven and simply poured some Red Hot on them. The fatty part was the skin, I could not get much of it off. This is the FIRST weekend in a VERY long time that I have not cheated. Reading my past notes and seeing how excited I was to be shrinking kept me going. Also last night I went through the clothes my sister Nancy gave me when we went to San Jose and they fit me now BUT they don't look good on me now because of my back fat and stomach. So I hung them up in my closet for inspiration. I have TONS of clothes that I can't wear now because they just don't look good on me.
By Valentines Day I want to be down to about 220, that's 2.5 weeks to loose 13.6 pounds. Wow that's kinda a lot. My body might not be about to loose 6 pounds a week. But it might be, if I really try and stick to the Program. I am taking my walking shoes to work tomorrow and will also ride my bike when i come from work if I STILL can't make it to the gym. My life is too hectic unfortunately for the gym right now. It kinda sucks. I just feel bad leaving my husband with all the kids for an hour.
I can't wait to do my taxes. I am so super broke it's not even funny. I have to pray hard that we get a decent refund. I need to fix my Grand Am, get tires, pay some bills, pay Alexis tuition ahead of time etc. Anyway, I popped in workout DVD, I am going to try out my new hand weights. Just hope the baby kicks it. Curious to see what my loss will be tomorrow in the AM. God Bless.
Finally protein days are over!! I am so use to getting up at 3:00am that I could not sleep past 6am. I weighed myself and here are my stats:
Day: 4 of 28
Keto stick: Don't have any
Weight: 234 (6 pounds lost so far)!
BMI: 47%
Serg was up with me too. We were getting ready to go do laundry because our washine machine is broken but we decided to just make some breakfast and go to the outdoor market. I made myself a yummy low fat scramble with bell peppers, turkey sausage and green onions. I sprinkled a little cheddar cheese on it and had a piece of wheat toast with my Smart Beat butter and a nice hot cup of coffee. MMMM. I made them a scramble similar to mine except theirs had homestyle potatoes and other fatty things. It looked really good. I ain't gonna lie :-)
We needed to buy Alexis a "reptile tank" and I was not going to spend $50 on one. God blessed us with a good deal, $8 bucks for one with everyting in it at the outdoor market. Well it was a hampster one but it's big and has things that we will need. I had not planned on buying anything else but I got some hand weights for $3 PERFECT for my DVD workout which I am going to do later tonight while Serg is at bible college taking a course on bible leadership. Pastor is teaching it and I am SO glad he is taking it. THAT right there was a huge blessing as well. The Lord is good, yes He is.
Anyway, I got Alani and Gabriel TONS of clothes, including Levi's Jeans for Alani, 2 other pairs of jeans, 2 dresses, 1 skirt, 3 tops ALL for $17.00. I also got two of those fish aquarium crib musical things for 50 cents each. Those things are like $35 EACH. I believe God wants me to give them to the couple that just had twin girls. So it's been a good day in my eating and working thus far. Gotta go now though off to Walmart for some home things. God bless.
Wow I am finally at Protein Day 3 which is where I ALWAYS mess up. I bargain with myself and convince myself that I have been "so good" and deserve to just start the program without completing my 3rd and last protein day. I am SO glad I am reading the Lindora book chapters because they seem to be in the same state of mind you are in on most days. I am totally not prepared today. I have no breakfast and thought I had no lunch but I found my Lindora chicken soup thank goodness. I am going to run to Albertsons this morning to get some egg beaters cause I NEED to eat breakfast. I had no eggs at home. REALLY need to go shopping. I have purposely not gone this week though because I need time to shop. I need to go to Trader Joe's, regular grocery store for all the basics and then to Wild Oats to get a few specialty items I can't really get anywhere else. OK so ready for my stats?
Protein Day: 3 of 3
Keto stick: Negative
Weight: 235.2
BMI: 47%
I could not believe it!! Another 1.8 pounds. That is almost 5 pounds in 2 days (today being day 3). I am telling you, this is the only thing that works for me. The concern is always "well are you going to KEEP it off"? I plan to and I have been successful at keeping it off in the past (until I got pregnant, TWICE)! Now anymore, well I really hope that my IUD does what it's supposed to do which I am sure it will.
So yesterday I got home and took a short nap. I planned to ride my bike and when I told Serg he said "well the tires are flat because it's been a while since we rode them" and he had this look "Oh please don't make me go into that messy garage to get your dumb bike out and then I have to put air in the tires". But I gave him the puppy dog eyes and said this "I read in the Lindora book today that people that work out while on the Lindora program lose up to 60% more weight that those that don't. Those that don't lose 1.8 pounds a week versus 3.9 pounds those that DO". He said "ok, ok, take a nap and I will get it". He ended up getting Alexis' beach cruiser out too and we went for a ride. She kept slowing me down though, either her cool-lots (coulots are like shorts but they look like a skirt) were getting stuck on her tires or "her bike would slow down" LOL (basically she was going uphill). She just learned how to ride her bike before she left to my moms this past summer. So she still has not caught on to the whole "it's way harder to ride uphill". So funny. So after 20 minutes of me waiting for her to catch up to me I said "let's take you home" and so I did and I rode hard for a good 15 more minutes. When I got off the bike my butt was killing me and my legs felt like they were going collapse. It felt GOOD though and I still can't believe I actually did it, and on a church night!! This weekend I plan on working out both days.
The hard thing about yesterday was makng them dinner. I made them some yummy spaghetti but with Riggatoni. I added some parmesan/Romano cheese and some monterey jack cheese to make it cheesy. The only healthy thing about the meal was the ground turkey. I had a grilled salmon fillet in the fridge which saved me! It was good but of couse I wanted some of that spaghetti. I reminded myself over and over again how BAD I wanted this. I am sick and tired of being fat and cannot wait to go shopping!!!
I am glad for the shedding of the pounds these past couple of days because it gives me momentum for the weekend. I will go grocery shopping today and be prepared. I already know that I am going to have a nice fat veggie and ham scrambble with some toast (with my fake butter LOL) and coffee for breakfast tomorrow. MMMMMMM!!
I am going to try and make those chicken satay skewers and am hoping I can find some low fat peanut butter, which I am sure to find at either Trader Joe's or Wild Oats. Well I think that is it for today. I am going to continue and search for yummy recipes today and this weekend. Gob bless.
Ok first off let me do stats:
Protein Day: 2 of 3
Keto stick: Negative
Weight: 237
BMI: 47.5%
Not that I think I lost 2.8 pounds of actual FAT in one day. I went to the bathroom SO many times yesterday. I must of been retaining lots of water. My BMI went down too though. We'll see. I've seen a big loss before only to bounce back a pound the next day so I am not getting excited just yet. So I was reading my Lindora book yesterday (because I always forget many things about this program) and I forgot I follow the program to a T for 28 days. Once those 28 days are over, I add more food, or do what they call "Phase 2: Metabolic Adjustment" for 14 days. Then I can come back and do 28 more days to loose more weight if I have more weight to loose which I totally need to. I was looking at my old notes/menus and I had lost 20 pounds by day 20! My notes and old menu's are really going to come in handy because I can go back and see what foods I was eating when I had big losses. So far it looks like I lost several pounds a week when I had shrimp. Weird because I think shrimp is the "fattier" fish. I love salmon but noticed I would not loose very much when I ate it. So it's interesting. I also noticed I would have a loss only when I limited my beef intake. If I had it one day I would lose, the second day I would lose a little less but by the third day there was no loss. Basically I think I will need to change it up daily. Chicken one day, fish (or shrimp) the next, and then steak (all with veggies and salad of course). Now I can't wait to be able to eat fruits and salads again.
Last night Alexis went to Chuck E Cheese with the twins (my neighbors daughters) because it was their birthday. Anyway, Serg said "So what's for dinner"? and then continued to say "Oh yeah....protein...." (because he remembered that I hated to cook when I was on my protein days). I think I told him not to go there and wanted to cook just so he would not learn to 'hate' my protein days. I think he has a harder time when I do my protein days than me. Seriously. I have to go to the grocery store because I need so many things. So I made him breakfast for dinner! Man I am not gonna lie, it looked SO good. I made him blueberry pancakes, spicy louisiana sausage and two eggs over easy. I made myself some steak and it was actually pretty good and I felt satisfied to the point that I didn't even have a snack before bedtime.
I woke up with a headache today. This darn headache is a serious pain. I only had one tylenol left but I need to go out and buy some Exedrin. That's the only thing that's going to get rid of this stupid thing. I actually went to bed at 8:15 last night. I always think I won't be able to fall asleep but always do within minutes. I am working on my other blog to get my recipes all in one place but am struggling a bit because this guy at work that sits accross from me is so super nosy and gets up from his desk like a million times a day and stares at my computer. He's a snitch too and if my boss does not care why should he? Anyway, I need to go fill up my water cup and get some green tea to see if that wakes me up or gets rid of this annoying headache. Until later. God bless.
Wow so I feel pretty good today! Today is DAY 1 of me being on Lindora so I have 3 days of strictly eating protein. With a little planning and motivation I can stay on track and LOVE the results. EVERYDAY, let me repeat, EVERYDAY I am going to come on here and log my weight and stats (even on weekends). This is what you are going to see daily:
Protein Day: 1
Keto stick: Neg, positive +1 (or +2 etc).
Weight: 239.8
BMI: 49%
This is in addition to logging my foods in FitDay. Ok so let me continue....with Lindora you don't have to work out a whole lot BUT when you do the results are AMAZING. I never recommend Lindora when I start to loose the weight because it is really difficult. But it's the only thing that works for me. I talk myself out of it a lot of times because I can't eat meals with my family and I start to feel bad. I talked to Serg last night and I told him that he could not do that to me. I need to loose this weight and he can't make me feel guilty for eating the things that I need to eat to stay on plan.
I had also bought the book Cook Right For your Type and most if not all of the foods that Lindora restricts are not good for my O+ Blood Type. Wouldn't you know that MY blood type is the one that #1 has to work out the hardest, #2 - Wheat products aren't tolerated by Type O's AT ALL (bye bye wheat bread). It contains lectins that react with my type O digestive tract and blood and interfere with with the proper abosorption of beneficial foods. Most importantly it said that IT CAUSES WEIGHT GAIN because glutens in wheat germ interefere with metabolic processes. SO I need to stick to Rice flour and buckwheat which I have NO IDEA where to buy or what they taste like. I can have wheat occasionally it says. I have to learn to read labels more carefully again because lots of foods have wheat and you would never know it.
There are even fruits I need to say away from like melons which have a lot of mold and Type O's have a proven sensitivity to mold. WEIRD HUH!!? Also I love juice but of course, the only juice good for Type O is, yep Vegetable juice. Pineapple juice I found will help me avoid retaining water and bloating!! I read the other blood type acceptable food and they are totally opposite of each other. My beloved coffee will eventually get written out of my menu as it has high stomach acid levels. I will not however give up my morning coffee. Nope, can't do it. They recommended I drink Green Tea for the caffeine so I am going to try that a few times this week to see if it really works. I think it's a mental thing with the coffee. This whole thing about me "needing" it is probably non-sense.
I am going to continue to read the book until I get a sense of what foods I should really be avoiding because it seems like something is up with me and my weight. Today I am going to once again start taking my PCOS meds like I am supposed to. I was getting bad side affects because I was taking 500mg in the AM, which worked fine but then I took 1000mg at bedtime and that was making me feel super ill. So at lunch I will take 500mg then at bedtime another 500mg. I looked at some notes from 12/4 and I gained 8 pounds instead of loosing. That is flippen sad. I am hoping to loose 20 pounds a month so we will see how that goes. I just want to be at 200 which is really the lowest I had been in years. I am carrying these stupid extra 40 pounds which just make me look FATTER. I need to be in the 200 which is my FAT stage. That's where I last left off and I want to see how much farther I can get. God bless.
Ok need to get this off my chest. I am upset. I guess you can say I am upset at my body and metabolism. I hate having PCOS. I weighed myself this morning and I didn't loose ANY weight!! I did have some pizza during the game on Sunday but geesh to have NO loss because of one meal is crazy. I have been eating SO good for quite some time now and no loss?!! Ugh. I had the worst migraine for 2 entire days this weekend which really sucked. On Sunday when I pretty much had it with this headache I gave int o eating pizza. My head is still aching from it can you believe it? I am frustrated to say the least. One thing I can say that is my fault is that I have not been working out as hard as I need to be. I expected to loose weight by eating better and working out very little.
I did throw in the Prevention 3-2-1 workout DVD yesterday afternoon and my legs are actually sore today. I brought my workout clothes to work (finally) so I could join Florence on her walks during lunch. This morning as I was in the shower I literally felt like crying but didn't because I am NOT going to feel sorry for myself anymore. I have PCOS, yes it is hard to loose weight when you have this, and the meds I am on give me this horrific headaches and make me feel like I am going to puke 24/7 but OH WELL!!? What else am I going to do? Give in and stay fat all my life? I want to desperately be much slimmer and maybe that is giving me some anxiety about my weight not dropping. It's just too darn bad that I don't have a fast metabolisms. I need to accept THAT and move on.
I decided once again that I NEEDED to get back on Lindora. The eating is not much different than what I am doing now, but it's something about doing those 3 protein days that gets my body into gear. It's like a slap in the face for my body and me saying "You are loosing the weight wether you like it or NOT"!! Seriously. So I need today to prepare, to read my Lindora book. Reading a chapter in that book daily keeps me going. I need to make a grocery food list of what I need. I need to buy eggbeaters for sure.
I missed work yesterday because I had to take Gabriel to get more labwork. The poor kid still has diarrhea and the most horrific rash. We can't even wipe him with wipes anymore. We have to wash his bottom with soap and water because his bottom is that bad. I feel so bad for him and it's like the Dr's can't really do anything until the lab results come back. The solution is not diaper rash ointment but getting rid of the diarrhea. The Dr said he would be testing for Rotavirus and NOW that I really think about it all these diarhea problems started when he got his 2 month shots which included that NEW oral rotavirus vaccine. Great! I am going to call today to let him know so he can get those lab results back ASAP!
Anyway, yesterday I was on the bigest loser website for a while. Trying to get motivated. I thought that by seeing all those people loose weight I would want to and I do but I just feel like I am so tired. I know I am this tired because of my weight. I am very heavy right now. If I really think of it, I am at one of my 2nd biggest weights. The first two weeks of working out is going to be hard but I need to stick to it. Maybe the walks with Florence will kick in the motivation. I had an idea on my way to work this morning. I can take Alexis to sell her candy at the Aquarium and hopefully when I get my taxes, I can buy a used double stroller and take both kids with me on speed walks on the marina. I will talk to Scott about checking out some candy for Lauren as well so she can stay there with Alexis. That will get the kids out of the house, some alone relaxing time for Serg and Alexis can sell candy to pay for her school tuition. ;-) I will be back later.
