After new Years 2012 I started my weight loss journey and lost almost 50 pounds. Then on June 8th I found out I was expecting baby #4. I am now 31 weeks along....and time has really flown by. I should have a new baby by the end of next month or early Feb and it's a little bit surreal. I have eaten lots of junk this pregnancy but not all day everyday and I have consistently worked out my entire pregnancy which I have NEVER done...like ever. My last pregnancy I documented here on my blog and from the looks of things I was pretty miserable. I gained what looks to be about 50 pounds. I didn't document my actualy weight gain but from piecing things together thats about how much I gained it really looks like I wanted that baby out by now. This pregnancy has been MUCH more pleasant and I think it's because I have really worked out and eaten a healthier diet. Right now I am on 61 units of NPH insulin at bedtime and on 10 Regular insulin before lunch. I am thinking I need to go up soon because my fasting numbers are creeping up to the 100's again. The only other thing I can really complain about is some sciatic nerve pain down my lower back and right leg, leg cramps at night and just being HUNGRY at night. The earlier I go to bed the safer I am. My weight gain: I am at about 232-233 as of today. My last Dr. weigh in was 231 and that was last week. I think I'm more 232 because I had Panda Express last night so scale read 233.8. I'll re-weigh tomorrow. I've been working out for 1-2 hours a day for 3 days straight. I took a workout break after last Wednesdays Dr. Appt. I usually eat crappy for 2 to 3 days after my appt. then I'm more strict for 1 to 1 1/2 weeks before my next appt. lol.. My start weight was 205 so I have gained a total of.... 27 pounds and I OFFICIALLY have 9 more weeks to go. So if I allow myself to gain the "1 lb per week allowance" I will be at 36 pounds gained = 241 which will STILL be almost 10 pounds LESS than what I was NOT PREGNANT at this exact time last year. Crazy considering I will probably have an 8-9 pound child in my stomach, extra blood volume, placenta and everything else that is in there pregnancy-related. I am praying to God that I lose about 25 pounds right off the bat. That would leave me with only 11 pounds to lose before I get back to 205. THAT would be excellent!! My next Dr. Appt is on Jan 2nd and I'll be 34 weeks. I believe I start my NST appts at that time which will be twice a week according to my Dr. We are getting excited and nervous at the same time!!
Oh man it's been a while since I posted! I'm starting again. I still haven't been able to lose weight after my son was born almost 5 years ago! It's been a loooong time and it sure flew by. My oldest daughter is joining me on this quest and I think it's great that she's made a committment with her mom to make this change.
I know I've contributed to all of my kids bad eating habits and I feel so super guilty. They started school and I'm hoping that this will give us some stability and help us get back into a routine!
I'm logging all my foods into Calorie Tracker as I KNOW this will help me to stay accountable for the foods I eat. To start out as well I am measuring my foods to make sure I don't think that 2 cups of something isn't counted as 1 cup (we lie to ourselves that way). Anyway, I'm going to measure myself as well to try and stay motivated. If I had the money I'd join this personal training place. It's not really a one on one training place, but their personal trainers work with 3-4 people at the same time. There is another Boot Camp place that is cheaper but there are more like 10-15 if not more people per trainer. There's no way they can keep track of that many people. If I am going to pay hundreds of dollars I want them to be in my face and hold me accountable. Sounds like I want them to babysit me but sometimes, that's what it takes. I don't habe the funds to fork out that extra cash right now so I'm on my own. My husband set up all my workout equipment, we have lots of bikes and a bike path we can ride on so I have 0 excuses. I just need to make the move.
I only work 2 days in the office so I get off early enough to where I can squeeze in a workout, clean my house and start cooking a healthy dinner.
Right now, I'm trying to cook up some good recipes that we'll all eat. Cut out all the junk for now, no chips, bread only once a day (either with a breakfast sandwich or sandwich for lunch). 2 tortillas MAX for dinner. My kids are just starting to get their tastebuds acclimated to LOTS of veggies and fruits. This week is basically DETOX week.
I'm trying to get closer to God as well. I know He can help us stay focused if we stay focused on Him.
God Bless,
Bertha
So....I've only lost 5 pounds since my weight loss venture to loose 20 pounds in 35 days. This comes with about at LEAST 10 different events I've attended including BBQ'a, festivities or some sort and lots of cake! I think I've given in to the cake eating 2-3 times. I've eaten at restaurants as healthy as possible, sometimes not caring....lots of bad days, good happy days. This weekend I went on YouTube and looked up some "bootcamp" workouts to try and try to get away from 232lbs and today was day 1. I was supposed to start Saturday then Saturday turned into Sunday but (yes BUT) I cooked Friday and Sunday for church. I ate cake Saturday night from just being in a rotten mood and Sunday I made myself some "Mother's day nachos" which were just so super good. Better than your average mexican restaurant...anyway enough of that. It was my turn to cook for RU - so I made about 100 flatas, 2 trays of rice, 2 trays of beans, guacamole, salsa and all the other fixings like sour cream. I ate two flatuas, 2 choco chip cookies, little bit of rice and some beans. On Sunday morning it was my turn to make breakfast so I made chilaquiles, refried beans, and fried eggs and fresh salsa. Yes I had some. Sunday night the Lazo's had a BBQ after church and I had a hot dog wrapped in bacon (no bun), a hot link, a carne asada burrito with stir fried bellpeppers, onion and avocado wrapped in a wheat tortilla. It was good....and a small cup of sprite. I didn't weigh in on Monday, I ate healthy all day and worked out this morning.
This Friday is the banquet and only 5 pounds lost instead of the 20 I was aiming for. The only thing I can say that is good out of this is that I have lost this weight VERY slowly and it's sorta good because I don't seem to gain too much when I do cheat. Just need to give it a day to drop it off and I can continue on. The only really bad negative when cheating is that my mood swings are HORRIBLE. I'm like all over the place. So I need to eat healthy to stay sane and not so emotional.
If my period if going to be normal (on a 28 day schedule) like all the other normal people, I am supposed to get it on Saturday. I hope I don't get it on Friday (banquet night) but I'll be prepared nonetheless.
Well I am hoping that I can lose several pounds this week at least so that my face is not super puffy for the banquet picture...I'm praying for a 5 pound loss but I think that will ONLY happen if I do 2-3 hours of workouts per day and not sure that I'm going to have time for that. We'll see. God bless.
Not sure if it's really day 23....need to check my calendar at work. So I haven't made much progress. I've been eating healthy 99% of the time but I think the one meal that I have "off plan" really seems to throw me off. I had an off meal last night at RU. It was our 3rd year anniversary and we had .50cent tacos. Thank God we were helping with serving etc. otherwise I would have eaten more. I also brought a piece of cake home that I was planning on eating but my 3 yeal old son beat me to it and he ate it for me. He walked into my room with white frosting around his mouth while I was changing into my comfy clothes and thinking that I was going to eat the cake with a big glass of milk. he left me crumbs and I ate them lol.
So I've been struggling with one thing in particular but I can't really type it out here.God knows what it is and it's really starting to take over my mind and I wish it would just dissipate. I wish I could lose weight and be at peace. I'm going to continue with my eating habits (good ones) and keep losing weight. I'm going to keep praying and try to listen to God's advice for me and how to overcome my struggles.
I am hoping that at the end of the month I'm able to go visit my family in San Jose. My sister wants me to go I just hope I can get some money to replace my tires, brakes and have gas money. The building banquet is coming up as well and I am praying that we can come up with the money to pay what we owe on my 401K so that I can get a new loan and give some of that money to the banquet.
House is quiet right now, my husband is hopefully going to bible college and he's at the church now working on a bus route. When you are a bible college student you are required to work on a bus route. He already does some other stuff so not sure if he'll be required to take on additional routes.
I need to trust God on this and pray that my job continues to provide for us and that he help me not grow weary. I'm going to keep praying for confidence and pray that I can develop a closer relationship with him. Seems like we've grown apart some, like we are not as interested in each other as we use to be. I'm talking about my husband here.....all the other stuff applies to God too except that I know God is still interested in using me. I know he'll never give up on me. I pray that I am more like Him.
God bless....
Day 10 and I have nothing to show for it except an increase in weight that is! I weighed in this AM at 239.6! That is like 4.6 pounds TOO many. I weighed in on saturday to a measely 234.8 which was only .2 pounds less and I was already dissapointed about that. BUT, my body fat was down to 46% which tells me that I am retaining water. The reason is that I have not taken my blood pressure meds all weekend. I worked out on Saturday, took the dogs for a nice walk and jogged with Baloo. Had my usualy light breakfast, I did have a few (like 6) small peices of potatos but I've done that before. We bought lunch but my hubby made a special trip to a seafood restaurant to buy me ceviche which is fish/shrimp cooked in lemon with chopped tomato, cilantro and onion. I had tostadas with it but nothing out of my "allowance". They had Taco Bell. Then for dinner, I had a babyshower to go to, El Torito, I had a few (literally) chips and salsa, not a deal breaker. Then I ordered Tortilla Soup! Everyone had these HUGE platters but I was satisfied and happy that I chose the best thing on the menu AND I didn't even finish it. Sunday, I had a one egg omelette with like 2 peices of bell peppers and onions. I said NO CHEESE, NO SAUSAGE and opted for 3 straberries and a banana. Dinner was 2 grilled eggs, beans (no fat) and 2 grilled pcs. of ham (the Costco LEAN HAM) has .5 grams of fat and 1 carb. So to wake up to such a gain I might as well should have pigged out! But, I am sure it will all fall off by Tues.
I asked God to help me with this. It's hard staying motivated and I know that this weight may not be falling off as easily, even though I've started to work out because I am no longer focusing on my weight for health reasons. My focus has shifted to losing weight for looks and for "fitting into" clothes. Although that is nice and everything, I don't think there is anything wrong with wanting to FEEL good about the way you look, it should not be the main focus. So I think that if I refocus on WHY I started to eat better and not concentrate so much on weight and how much i've lost, I'll regain my perspective. I'm thinking I should stop weighing but I think I need to pray about that. Maybe I will move to weighing in once or twice a week. Maybe Tuesdays and Saturdays?
I came in this morning, worked out and then clocked in. I only walked on the treadmill for 15 minutes though. I need to start getting here earlier to work out LONGER otherwise, lugging all this stuff to work for 15 minutes work outs is NOT worth it. I may just need to switch to working out at lunch and just change into my gym clothes and back. We'll see.
Well that's it for now, I need to get back to work. God Bless.
I didn't weigh yesterday because on Wednesday night (date night) I had a patty melt with fries. I just felt like I "deserved" a cheat meal. I've been eating a tortilla here and a little sugar in my coffee there. I need to watch that because that's when I start easing up on the rules.
I weighed this morning and I am up to 235.4. Body Fat was at 47.5%. I worked out for about 35 minutes yesterday morning and I am sore today. I came into work early again and worked out early as well but only for 15 minutes. I had to jump in the shower and I didn't want to come out all crazy looking when more people started to come in so I just cut it short. I'm MAKING myself walk on the treadmill again at 10am. I'll just walk for 10 minutes so I don't get all sweaty.
Since I come home early today I'm going to take the dogs for a walk as my "third" workout. I am buying a treadmill from my co-worker for $30. Not sure what it looks like but I don't think I can buy a cheaper treadmill. I mean at least for now, I wasn't going to buy one at all but I think I need one for those days where I just can't work out at work or go for a walk with the dogs.
So I am hoping that tomorrow I weigh in and I drop 2.4 pounds. I gave myself 35 days to lose 20 pounds which is basically 4 pounds a week. I lost 2 pounds over the weekend LAST weekend so I am hoping the same happens cause I'm behind! I need to loose 2.4 pounds by tomorrow! Otherwise the pressure is going to be on to loose more than 4 pounds the other weeks. I need to go to a calorie counter place because I am either not eating enough foods or indulding too much. We'll see....
That's it for today. I plan to get up semi early tomorrow and go for a long walk again with the dogs. Pray for me that I see 233 on that scale soon! I want to be OUT of the 230's already! God Bless.
The plan was to go home and walk the dogs. I was desperately looking forward to doing SOME sort of exercise. My husband called me when I was almost off work and asked me to stop by and grab some pork spare ribs. It's on my way home so I did. I got home, got the cooking going and changed into my sweats & Tshirt and was going to throw on my tennis shoes. My hubby was taking a shower when I got there and was calling me. I went into the bathroom and he was trying to shampoo Gabriel's hair but told me that his hand was killing him and didn't know why it was hurting so bad. He can't make a fist and the pain radiates to his back and arm if he moves a certain way. I just made him an appt for this morning. I've been worried about him lately. He was realllly tired the other day and he didn't know why. I was reading up on "arm" and "hand" pain on the internet and everything said "call your Dr. immediately as these are signs of a stroke" and now that I am putting 2 and 2 together I am getting more worried about him.
So, we were going to go to church and go soulwinning but by the time they got out of the shower and I was done cooking, it was 7:15pm and things start at 7pm so we just stuck it out at home. I didn't work out and we watched a movie. Alexis brought Cora in the house and she just laid on the couch between Sergio and Alexis....didn't look like she felt good. I could not hang watching the movie so I went to bed and later heard Sergio talking about Cora throwing up. She starting not to be able to hold her water and food down. I think she finally was starting to give up. Today, Serg called me and told me she died. I'm actually upset because I was REALLY hoping that she would live. Her symptoms just started on Sunday and it only took 3 days for her to die. Hate Parvo! It's so horrible.
So we are back to having our 2 dogs. Need to appreciate them and be good to them. They love us and are such babies.
On a lighter note, sheesh! I worked out at our work gym for the first time today. I did not come in early as I planned but tomorrow I come in early cause I want to leave early as scheduled and I am gonna REALLY try to be here early so I can get in my workout. Florence also wants to work out at lunch so I am gonna work out with her at lunch as well. I think working out will help my increasing appetite.I ate too many fruits and one too many tortillas. I overindulged on healthy foods too. Funny how that can happen. Today is the first day that I've felt like eating a Snickers. I think because of the stress of all this. Gonna go home and jog. I need it as a stress reliever. Weight this AM was not good. I was at 235.4 I think with 48% body fat. Not sure if my body is now fluctuating because I am off the hormone meds? Not really making a big deal out of it. My body and things are adjusting so I have to give it at least 3-4 more days. Throwing in the workouts will REALLY help.
I'm off to go home now. Till later. God Bless.
Post from 4/13/10
Ok so I am being lazy and just stating what "day" I am for my blog title for the day. I am usually in a hurry when writting on here. Even when I am on my lunch I'll start to work or do something else...anyway...so this will be a quick post. I am pretty busy at work and I feel like I have barely made a ding in my workload for the past week. I guess I can say I have not been as focused lately. I haven't really cared for working overtime although it would be nice because I have the work and I need the money.
I went home yesterday and didn't do anything because I went to my OB and he ended up taking out my IUD. He also took me off Provera which I am super scared about because that seemed to have helped with the crazy bleeding I was experiencing.
I felt hungry which I haven't felt in a while and I sorta had a headache. I started to take Metformin again because I felt that maybe since this has helped with my bleeding as well in the past and I'm off Provera it might regulate me a bit? Just a guess.
Weight this AM was 234.8 but my body fat went up to 48%. Not sure what's that all about?
That's it God Bless!
My poor Ugly Betty died on Saturday. I had two puppies born in November that we were sorta attached to from the liter of 8 Peanut had with my Baloo but Ugly Betty was going to my mother in law's house. She really gravitated to her when she came to visit even though she was such an ugly puppy. We really thought she was going to die because she was the runt and she was soo much smaller than the other dogs. She was short but stubby and such a gentle dog. She was adventurous which is what got her in trouble. She got out of our yard several times and didn't have all her parvo shots so she got parvo and went downhill quickly. We tried to save her but it was too late. She died on the way to the vet on Saturday afternoon. Now we are trying to make sure Cora stays healthy. She was showing parvo signs yesterday but we've been giving her antibiotics, pedialyte to keep her hydrated and a high caloric gel as a nutrition supplement as she won't eat much on her own. The vet said the key to getting them through Parvo is too keep them hydrated and their nutrition up. She looks MUCH better today and we are keeping a very close eye on her.
Weight Loss update - Day 3 of 35 (reminder, my goal is to loose 20 pounds in 35 days, not 33 as previously stated)
So weight loss related. I was very active all weekend and since making my decision to lose 20 pounds in 35 days I have really tried to scale back on the EVOO on my salads and the cheeses. I was creative this weekend and made myself some brocoli slaw meatball soup. I threw in some green beans and flavored it a bit using tomato paste, pepper and some sea salt. I usually wait until things are cooked to add sea salt. Anyway, had a weight drop of 2 pounds this weekend which was great! My body fat is at 47.5% again. It had gone up on Saturday then went back down but I think it's still .5% higher than it was Friday morning. Weight is at 235 now and can't wait to get to 229! I hope that with my increased workouts I will continue to drop weight like this! They were unintentional workouts too, just out with my dogs, out with my family being active. So here is a summary (I had to do this for myself):
Official start date: 3/30/10 - 244 pounds - 48.5% body fat
Weight on 4/03/10 - 239.6 - not sure body fat
Weight on 4/05/10 - 237.2 - 48%
Weight on 4/07/10 - 237.2 - 47%
Weight on 4/09/10 - 237 - 47%
Weight on 4/12/10 - 235 - 47.5%
Pounds left to loose before 5/14 = 18
Loss since start = 11 pounds
I think I am going to start setting monthly goals. My goal for the month is to loose 20 pounds. It's a bit unrealistic maybe, BUT with workouts I think that I can actually achieve this. I just need to put together a schedule with my new schedule. I was going to buy a treadmill but I am going to wait until I actually become more active. The workout room at work is apparantly not yet open but will be open on Monday! I spend ALOT of time here at work so I am scheduling two 20 minute worksouts on my breaks and 15 minutes of my lunch will be spend in there as well. I am just going to AT LEAST make that commitment till May 13th....which makes that 33 days!
I feel so fat though. It's funny cause one minute I feel slimmer and the next I get a glimpse of myself in a window reflection or a long mirror and feel like I am "doing this" in vain. I only started recently but my thinking is so much sacrifice for such a slow payoff. Need to work on this mentality and seek God for everything.
Today I have RU and Serg is going to Arizona to help his mom move. I need to purchase several things to keep me going which is a veggie peeler. I have no idea what happened to mine. I also need some glass containers. I hate heating stuff up in plastic containers. I was going to say I "need" a wood plastic bowl to mix my salad but that's not really a need and I have tons of bowls. I actually just made a really nice one available that's from Pier 1 imports. I was using it as a knick knack holder but it's now ready to be used.
This weekend I am also going to have to cook foods for the week. I am trying new recipes weekly. I am going to try and mix up 2-3 different types of foods throughout the week. I am going to make it basic and set it up so that I keep this thing do-able.
God Bless for now.My stats as of today.
Weight: 237
My scale BMI: 47% (started at 48.5%, then went down to 47.5% two days ago and now 47%). Only lost .2 pounds in 4 days :-(
When I first started to eat healthier...which was only one week ago I thought I was going to be able to start doing this....but I've had times of doubt a few times but only for quick seconds... I tell myself this is NOT temporary. I mean, this is a "healthier eating" like no other because my thinking is, this is the way I have to eat forever. Processed food is something my body can't process. All these years I've know that I should probably just eat healthy/organic but I've always said that I could not afford it. It's actually a lot cheaper for me! On saturday I cleaned out all my cupboards. I do have sugar and flour and stuff but that's for chuch baking/functions and my husband likes homemade cookies. I know later I can start to figure out what stuff is good for baking that I can have. Right now, my concentration is not what sweets I CAN eat or how I can prepare something sweet for me to eat. I am learning what FOODS to cook for myself and what snacks are do-able on my crazy schedule.
I went to an outdoor market where I can get fresh organic fruit and veggies for cheap. I got 2 eggplant, 6 zucchinis, 6 yellow squash, green onions, jalapenos, 6 cucumbers, tomatos, apricots, plums, grapes and a few other things for $11! Can't beat that. I grilled most of the veggies this weekend on the grill, brushed them with some EVOO and Balsamic vinaigrette and some organic seasonings and they are SUPER good.
I started to weigh myself. I wasn't at first, I guess I was skeptical that cutting flour and sugar but eating all this other stuff would help me to lose weight. Like all there other overweight people this is like my um-teenth attempt. Anyway, I weighed in all weekend at 239.6 and had been there since Friday. I was pretty active on Saturday, like all day and I finally saw some movement on the scale this morning. I am down to 237.2. I can't wait to get into the 220's again. I haven't seen them for a while. I don't think people will notice until I get down to about that much. When they weighed me at Dr. Thropay's office, with clothes and all, I weighed in at 246. That was Thurs, March 25th. A lot of water weight I'm sure but I'm feeling my belly go down. So I am promising to work in at least an hour of workouts per day. I'm walking on my breaks and when I get home I'll really try and sneak in a walk, take my poor doggies for a walk. It was pouring rain earlier but it's gone down. I need to find the darn treadmill in our building though.....it gets hot in this area and although we now have showers...I don't really have all that time. Anyway...I'm all over the place today.
My sister is coming today or tomorrow. She was IN Ensenada when the 7.2 earthquake hit yesterday and my mom and dad are super worried about her. She called and said her and her 3 boys where ok. Hopefully they are....Alani and I got on our knees last night and prayed that they got here safely.
God Bless. Be back later this week.
LOL...I'm sure I've posted that title before...yep I'm sure. So it's been a long time...like 5 months or so. Not sure where to start....
I'll start with me finally making the decision to go see Dr. Thropay...ok well my husband made me go. For the past, I would say, 5-6 months I have been having the worst health problems EVER. Dr.'s don't seem to really even know what's wrong with me. I am on Blood pressure meds (several), Metformin for my PCOS and now progesterone and lots of it for menstrual issues. I've always been VERY VERY skeptical of Dr. Thropay although I've seen wonderful results in his patients. He's made people much better by just helping them with a healthy way of eating and adding necessary supplements.
With me, he diagnosed me with a Thyroid issue. Dr's ALWAYS suspect that I have a thyroid issue but blood tests and other tests always basically point to it not being a thyroid. So what do they do about it? Nothing. If the tests don't show anything then the dignosis is that there is nothing wrong with me. They just keep giving me various meds that make me more sick and I do not get better but actually worse.
I went to see him the first time last Thursday and in the end walked out with several supplements and after a lengthy meeting with a nutritionist, knowledge of what I needed to eat, where I could buy thing cheaper AND how to prepare it! It took me all weekend to really wrap my head around all this. I felt really overwhelmed on Saturday when planning my meals....I think I was just really doubting whether or not I could do this. I had to accept that this was my only option. I am now not eating Sugar, Flour, Soy anything, Peanuts, cashews, milk, cheese and yogurt and basically anything that has MSG or chemicals. I am taking Standard Process supplements which are Iodomere, Calcium, 1 Bucco drop in my water along with 1 drop of Pulmonest.
I have actually not taken my Progesterone and am reallllllly hoping I don't start bleeding like mad. It's only been one day. One horrid thing that I am experiencing are headaches.....last night I woke up to a very painful headache and I am hoping that it's not a regular occurrence. I actually got a really bad headache while at work yesterday and had to take Advil. I need to ask my nutritionist about taking stuff for my headaches and what can be causing them.
So I am documenting everything I am eating and my next visit with the Dr. is on Tuesday.
Till later, God Bless.
I think naturally, we all feel overweight after the holidays. Yesterday as I sat in church, I noticed HOW many people LOOKED uncomfortable in their church clothes. Some looked like their buttons were about to burst others like they just wanted to crawl into their jammies. Was I one of those people? Of course! I live to go home, change into my sweats and search for something comforting to eat.
So as I sat there and discreetly analized people, I whispered in my husbands ear, "I'm going to loose weight". He looked and me and nodded, I'm sure he though "yeah we'll see".
Surprisingly my weight loss "idea" was at the top of my agenda at 4am this morning. I thought of what/how/when I should start my weight loss venture. Tons of things went through my head. Unknowingly, I packed a healthy breakfast and my husband packed me a healthy lunch, leftovers from dinner last night, green low fat/carb enchiladas and beans (higher carbs but fills me up).
I thought of just basically cutting back. Like really cutting back....like...like making PAM my right hand cooking partner instead of all the Veggie oil I've been using lately. I want EVOO and PAM back!
It looks like my reason to loose weight is that I'm tired of seeing my puffed up face. I think my life in the next year will change significantly and for the better! I can't wait to move, loose weight and achieve several other goals/plans.
God Bless.
So I have this post it on my monitor that reads
MOTIVATION- That which gives purpose & direction to behavior.
It's been there for about 2-3 months I'm guessing and I feel like I just understood it. I'm lacking purpose and direction.
What's the purpose of me loosing weight. I'm listing some things for myself.
Health and all the ailments of being overweight. Pain in feet, knees, upcoming Diabetes, skin problems, mental health and MORE!
Looks - yes I want to look good too!
Kids - I want to teach them to be healthy adults.
Now I'm looking for that direction. There are so many choices? Should we just start eating healthier (no frying etc), should we do low carb, should I do Lindora, should I do my liquid diet.
This last part is getting to me. I think I have enough things under purpose. I'm working on this.
On another point, work has been absolute hell. I mean it felt like hell in here when the A/C broke downstairs. But that's not why it's been hell....we've all been dealing with a nightmare issue with one of my co-workers and she's one of the most difficult people I've had to deal with. She's not a normal person. Like I've tried and tried to be reasonable with this person and so I've really had to reach out to God on dealing with her. I pulled tons of scripture on this and I need to go home and study these verses. I'm sure going to need it because this is far from over.
But it's just not there. What am I talking about? Weight loss of course! I'm really thinking about going back to doing the New Lifestyle diet. That's the only thing that's going to help me loose the weight and do it fast. I have a very short "motivation span" and so I feel like when I decide...like really DECIDE to loose weight, I need to do it and I need to do it fast. I lost quite a bit of weight last time and I think I can do it again. The problem? The holidays are coming and I always do this to myself! I start when the holidays are going to kick in. BUT if you think about it, if I start now, October 15th I can potentially be down 45-50 pounds by Christmas. THAT would be really nice.
The first week I always drop 10 pounds. Then if I stick to my program, 5 pounds a week from there X 8 weeks = 50 pounds, this would put me under 200. I think I am at about 240 or so. I had gown down to about 230 but of course I always sabotage myself when I'm loosing weight.
I would love to order more shakes but the money situation does not permit me to do so. I'm going to have to finish off what I have in my cabinets and hope I can order more stuff soon. If not, I'll just get SOME....
Work is stressfull in a way. I mean, I try not to let it stress me out but it does. I drive in to work every morning now versus working from home.
Anyway, my walk with God is improving. My families walk with God is improving as well which makes things at home run so much smoother. Alright well that's it for now...going to try and come on here daily so I can make myself accountable.
God Bless.
I'm back (yes again). I think I'm gonna switch my blog to the old blogger look. I was more into it then...with my stats on the side and all that.
Florence and I are starting on a weight loss journey. We've done it before and I've tried numerous times and I've been successful to a certain point. I'm motivated once again and can't wait to see GURL actually be ON A MISSION.
I'm back to work full time. Driving in and I have really enjoyed it thus far. It's taking me some time to adjust because I have to wake up much earlier and I'm forking out ALOT of money on gas. Next week I'm supposed to meet with my boss and the bosses boss to discuss my promotion and salary increase. I'm really hoping it's significant or I won't accept this promotion.
Anyway, no matter what I need to improve my health. It's worse than it's ever been before. Migraines galore and really severe bad ones. Recently I had to increase my meds AGAIN. I take way too many meds and they make me even more sick but I have to take them.
I'm asking my Dr. to do a full check up on me before I do too much crazy exercise...because of my blood pressure. Don't want my heart exploding or anything. Lately my heart has been irregular...like I feel it jumping suddenly so that's been scaring me lately.
So it's fish and veggies! Lots of protein...getting egg substitute from Albertsons, low carb tortillas and turkey bacon! MMMMM!
I'll be weighing myself officially tomorrow morning to get a start weight. God Bless!
The last time I posted was in Feb but I honestly don't even remember that post. It's pretty much how I feel now...the only and most important thing that I see missing from my last post is HOPE! I felt as if God had abandoned me because of my selfish ways. I know now that I must continue to try as hard as I possibly can to continue to be a Christian.....even if that means me not being perfect.
My weight loss journey starts here. I need a start weight which will be stagerring but I think the easy part will be dropping the extra weight. I'm hoping for a 10 pound loss this week. Most of it will be water and I think I have about 10-15 pounds of pure water weight. I'll come on here daily..the only days I stay away from the computer are sundays. I can't wait for this summer now instead of dreading it!
I was getting into the shower last night, hours before my sister Nancy headed back home to San Jose after visting with us since Friday. I picked-up
looked at my very overweight body. I can actually say I was disgusted with myself. This and the fact that I have not been a very good Christian the past 6 months. I prayed and pleaded to God to help me become a better healthier person. I think I can try much harder towards working on myself! I am sick when I wake up EVERYDAY. I think the days where I wake up refreshed and pain free are far and few between and that can't possibly be good! I work hard at work...that I do and will continue to do but I also need to start at 5am like I use to. My gym is too far from here but I do plan on just buying a treadmill and hooking up my garage as a gym. I can easily take my 15 min break and work out. My sister suggested I just put it in my office. Get a small Ipod since mine never worked!
Ok well I'll come on here later. My brain is done for now...I'll come on here later and talk about my decision to go to College :-)
Oh geez it's been so long since I have been on here. Mostly it's been because I feel like I've been going crazy. I have had some bouts of severe depression and it seems to be letting up this week for me. I'm seeing a little bit of the light now and I hope I keep moving forward.
At this moment and time I am trying to find some motivation and get my butt in gear....it's a big butt right now I tell ya. Anyway, everything in my life seems sort of awkward and I'm scared to death because I feel like God is not pleased with me right now. I'm not living like I should be which I think puts me in a deeper depression. I just need to wake up and do what I have to do. I can't always count on things being perfect.
More later...
So I went to the Dr. yesterday because I've been having some chest pain. I disregarded it because that's what I always do when something hurts. Then if it REALLY starts to bother me I will go to the Dr. Anyway, he's concerned. They did EKG tests and they didn't come back that great...in the end, it's something to do with an artery to my heart...may be swollen causing issues with my heart. My sleep habits suck and he said that because of this the medication he is giving me for my Blood pressure is not doing what it's supposed to be doing. He added 2 more meds which makes it a total of 6 meds I am taking now. I feel very medicated. He says I should not really "feel" them but I do. I mean I am a person that can't even take a low dose of Vicodin because I will get severe stomach cramps....and I mean severe to the point where I have to throw them up or I feel like I'm gonna die. All these meds have a red warning label saying "will cause drowziness" and "do not operate machinery". I'm wondering how I'm going to do it when I have to drive in to work. He practically strangled me when i told him I don't take my meds on Tuesdays.
Anyway, I guess someone from my department has asked to work from home as well and now I have to renew my request to work from home which sucks. I don't know who it is but it stinks that they can't just tell them NO you can't. The only reason they let me work from home is because I have medical issues.
So I guess you can say I am feeling a bit stressed and down at all this news. The ONLY good news I got was that my weight is still the same oh and of course I can't forget the best news of all....I am saved and going to heaven when I die! Praise God. Have a good weekend.
