Motivation where art thou?

Oh geez it's been so long since I have been on here. Mostly it's been because I feel like I've been going crazy. I have had some bouts of severe depression and it seems to be letting up this week for me. I'm seeing a little bit of the light now and I hope I keep moving forward.

At this moment and time I am trying to find some motivation and get my butt in gear....it's a big butt right now I tell ya. Anyway, everything in my life seems sort of awkward and I'm scared to death because I feel like God is not pleased with me right now. I'm not living like I should be which I think puts me in a deeper depression. I just need to wake up and do what I have to do. I can't always count on things being perfect.

More later...